I remember a time my x friend Gabrielle couldn’t accept me for me. I remember going through the hallways from 5th period. And seeing her telling this girl something. And the girl just was like hey jess Gabrielle wanted me to tell you something. And Gabrielle “was like no”! And I was like what fuck you want her to say something and don’t have the courage to tell me? 1
But I was getting more pissed that she accepted the fact to let everyone know about it. And so I thought fuck it. And so then I said I found out part of it which was true but the one girl. And she was like what did you hear? And I was like oh so you want me to tell you huh! And then we argued through the halls to 6th period. 2
She then said I’ll tell you after 6th period and I said fuck that tell me right now. And she was like ATLEAST I’M NOT AN EMO DYKE. And I was pissed because I thought she would accept I was bi. And so I just said ATLEAST I’M NOT A FUCKING CUNT! And she said at least I don’t wear abnormal make up and walk around with chunk eyeliner on.3
And so I said while that’s way I am and if that appeal to you let me know and I’ll go cause I flow better when my colors shows. And then she called me a pussy and I was like you’re the pussy saying shit like you’ll kick my ass. And she was like jess you want me to embarrass you in front of your friends?4
And all the guys were in the same room and we were in the bleachers in the room and I was like screaming YES GO AHEAD AND HIT ME RIGHT NOW I’LL GIVE YOU A FREE HIT! And I just stood there standing up and she did to. And she said meet me in the bathroom and we’ll fight.5
I stood in the room nervous on how bad it would be. But I just freaked out and let it go. We didn’t fight at all. Then when I tried telling her to go fuck herself because I heard that she did want to be my friend because she thought I was lesbian.6
Then I was going through my old binder and she had a note saying “jess we can’t be friends my mom said.” And then she and her friend started calling me a lezbo. And I just ignored them. Then her friend started calling me a Goth lezbo and so I said “bitch you want to fucking fight?” And she said “no” and I said “well shut the fuck up and back the fuck up.”7
So she goes up to me and said oh hey bitch the next day and I said oh hey whore. And so she and I glared eyeball to eyeball so then my friend savannah said why can’t you guys get along and the girl said “someone told me she was a lesbian.” 8
And I said “listen even if I was I would have kicked your ass.” And I said “I’m not I’m only bi.” 9
So then Gabrielle quit doing it. Then she hung out with this other girl. I hope the other girl doesn’t end up doing the shit I did. I know it was stupid but me and the x friend talked me into doing weed. And so I did it. But I hate it.10
So I don’t really care where life takes her as long as it isn’t near me or my front door. 11
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Ouch... friends are always able to get past the defenses
There are times where having no friends at all is a good thing, but the one thing that we cannot live without is the company of others. I understand your pain... some people who you believe your friends talk bad about you... it hurts just like an actual wound and sometimes it won't close. Take care in the people that understand you and be yourself.
Peace,
DarkOne

