Razorblade Kiss

I taste death in every kiss we share1

Every sundown seems to be the last we have2

They watched the sun sink down into the Earth, marveling how the sky turns to black and the stars appear, glittering upon that deep blue canvas. They felt so wrong, as if when the sun went down, the demons would come, and they would never see the sun again. Even thought they tried to convince themselves otherwise, Death was tasted everytime their lips connected. So wrong, but so right at the same time.3

Your breath on my skin has the scent of our end4

I'm drunk on your tears, Baby, can't you see it's hurting, oh...5

Whenever James cries, it feels like Keenan's world has come crashing down on top of him. He burrows his face inside his lover's neck, sweet breath caressing his ear. Dizzy with sadness, but a hint of relief mixed in, they know their end is near. It burns to see him so sad, and he doesn't see that he's hurting his lover.6

Every time we touch we get closer to heaven7

And at every sunrise our sins are forgiven8

People say that some sins are not forgiven, but the two lovers don't believe that. Every new day is fresh, sins forgotten in the tides of yesterday. A feather-light touch brushing against his skin, and Keenan couldn't be happier. This might not be Heaven, but it's damn close. If every touch brings them closer to that place, he'll hold onto him for eternity.9

You on my skin this must be the end10

The only way you can love me is to hurt me again11

And again12

And again13

And again14

Holding him gently, their skin brushes against each others, and Keenan prays that James will wake up. Coming home, he found that it happened again, but this time, he doesn't know if he's coming back. It hurts to see him there, lying helplessly on the ground with a pill bottle in one hand and a whiskey bottle in the other, sweating and out cold. James loves him dearly, but he can only love by hurting.15

Your love is a razorblade kiss16

Sweetest is the taste from your lips17

Your love is a razorblade kiss18

Sweetest is the taste from your lips19

While sitting there one day, Keenan realizes that no matter how much James hurts him, he just can't let go. He craves the love, the affection, and..something else. James walks into the room and captures his lips, and that's when Keenan placed it. He tastes of pain, despair, hate, and it's so sweet that Keenan can't get enough of. It's slowly destroying him, but he doesn't care. It's just too good.20

Oh the taste from your lips, my Darling21

Taste from your lips, oh my Love22

Only inside I'm free23

I'm tired of waiting24

You've got to let me dream25

Inside Baby26

I'm not afraid to feel27

I want you to love me28

Cause you are the one29

Cause you are the one30

Cause you are the one31

He's so tired, so tired of waiting to hear it. James has never said once that he loves him, and it's driving him insane. He wants him, and he knows that James wants him aswell, but this feeling isn't known to him. James is afraid to feel, while he himself is the opposite. Feeling makes him human, and that allows him to dream. But now, his dreams are nightmares, all because of James. If he would just say it, he could dream again. Because James is the one.32

Your love is a razorblade kiss33

Sweetest is the taste from your lips34

Your love is a razorblade kiss35

Sweetest is the taste from your lips36

Your love is a razorblade kiss37

Sweetest is the taste from your lips38

Your love is a razorblade kiss39

Sweetest is the taste from your lips 40

It's too late, and James is gone. He lies there, unmoving, in Keenan's lap. Even with his lover's guiding light, this life was too much for him. Keenan doesn't cry, he's cried too much for him recently. Instead, he kisses that mouth for one last time. Even though this man has caused him so much pain, he was the best thing that ever happened in his life. He lingers, feeling the same stab of love and pain mixed in whenever he kisses those deadly lips, that razorblade kiss. Taking the pills and drink from his lover's hand, he downs them, lies down next to James, and waits for Death too come and forever take him away, once again reunited with his lifemate. They were right, the end was here. Keenan couldn't be happier.