Sometimes.

Sometimes there are things in life that happen for a reason... sometimes you end up caring for people in a way that you didn't think was possible- sometimes it hurts. Sometimes you wake up in the middle of the night, crying and you don't know why; sometimes you're sad for no particular reason... sometimes you just feel like shit. Sometimes you want to tell someone that you Love them but you can't; sometimes you wonder if they feel the same way. Sometimes you think about your past, and it sucks but the past is the past and there's nothing that you can do about it- it's who you are and it's what it is... but sometimes, you wish it were different.1

Sometimes you can't sleep because you're worried, thinking about that someone and you wonder what they're doing and where they're at and if they're okay. Sometimes days go by and it feels like months... sometimes months go by and it feels like days... sometimes years go by and it doesn't seem like years- it feels like it was only yesterday you saw that Loved one who's now gone, that one who made you feel so good and made the sun shine. Sometimes you want to fucking scream because everything is going wrong, everyone is against you and life seems impossible. Sometimes you want to slit your fucking wrists.2

Sometimes you're lonely when you're really not alone but you feel too needy to cling to that someone. Sometimes you want to touch and kiss and hold and stare but you don't want to come off as needy. Sometimes you write poems about that someone and act like that's not who they're about- but in all reality, they are. Sometimes you cry because the sun is in your face or certain songs bring back certain memories. Sometimes things that happened when you were sixteen get to you- you've never really let them go... afterall, how can you? They were your best friend's love and they were just gone, like that... and that one person who at the time you wanted so bad was so messed up... you saw them cry, you saw them die... and you're all different because of it. 3

Sometimes nights are depressing and days are too; sometimes you don't know what to do with yourself. Sometimes putting on make-up seems like a waste... Is this who I really am? Sometimes getting dressed seems like a hassle- even showering is too much. Sometimes you wish you had someone who was always there, by your side, for you to love and noursish at demand, on command, whenever, where ever... Sometimes Love songs remind you of who you arn't and who you are and you wish you could explain how you feel and why and where... Sometimes you wish touch said it all. Sometimes you wish you weren't so busy so you had time to see friends and family and just relax- but sometimes, things have to be put on hold to reach life aspirations... But sometimes, what you're doing doesn't seem worth it. 4

Sometimes you're hungry but your thoughts consume so much of you that taking the time to eat would be too much so sometimes, you just don't... Sometimes your eyes hurt but you're thinking too much about life and all of it's trials and tribulations that you can't sleep. Sometimes your fingers are numb from typing but you can't stop. Sometimes you sing to yourself in the shower, sometimes you miss your sister and wish that you had told you that you Loved her before she crashed and literally burned... Sometimes you wish that you were closer to your mom, your brother and other members of your family- sometimes it just seems to late to try to make a difference. Sometimes you wish that you could change certain things about your life but you can't and you hate it and you freak out and throw things and hurt yourself emotionally more than anything... Sometimes you just need someone to turn to.5

Sometimes you wish he would just call but he doesn't- sometimes a text just isn't enough. Sometimes you wish you knew where he was every minute and maybe that sounds needy, but it just goes to show you how you feel... sometimes it's a good thing and sometimes it's a bad thing. Sometimes you can't breathe and it's not because you're sick, it's because your feelings overwhelm you... and you're trying not to cry... Sometimes you do cry but you hide it because you don't want anyone to know just how things are making you feel... Sometimes all you want is a simple, "I Love You" but it never comes. Sometimes you wonder if you should say it first, whether it's your mom, your brother, sister or significant other... sometimes6

Sometimes lies seem like truth and truth seems like lies. Sometimes money isn't everything and sometimes you realize that what you're doing is wrong. Sometimes your tears are from Love, being upset with how much you're in Love with that person and the fact that nothing can be done to change, rearrange, etc., is SO FRUSTRATING that you cry... 7

I wish that sometimes I knew it all. It's 12:10 AM and I can't sleep, but what's new? I wish... sometimes I wish that I could just sleep- then everthing would be fine and I could go to class and not freak out and I wouldn't almost be in tears because I'm tired and upset and freaking out about a million different things that have happened and have been happening... 8

I miss you. Where are you? Why didn't you call me? I want so much to open your eyes, cus I need you to look into mine... sometimes...9