Dirty Girl 1

For Lee, who I’ve known for years, but only recently seen as the guy I want to be with.1

Hmm…how to begin?  I guess it all started when I first realized that I wanted to be more than just friends.  It was at the beginning of winter, mid November, the first snowfall…2

I was waiting tables in a church.  It was a homeless help drive called “Out of the Cold”.  Homeless people sat down at tables and had dinner, and then half of them stayed over night.3

Our mothers are all part of a club.  They all have children born the same year, and I am the only daughter.  We have all known each other forever because we went to the same elementary school together.  There is Nathan, Kenzie, Quinton, Andrew, Robin, Lee, and myself.  Some of us have younger siblings, but they are all different ages. 4

Anyway, our mothers’ club decided to volunteer for this thing, and bring their older children.5

We were all standing around talking while we waited for the homeless people to come in.  The tables had already been set and we had to be assigned a table to wait on.  Lee was late, and when he came in we all said hi.  I had the urge to hug him, which I found odd, but I brushed it off.6

The tables were assigned and mine and Lee’s were beside each other.  Every time we passed each other we would smile and sometimes roll our eyes.  We met in the kitchen and joked about how the people at our table were really demanding and the weird things they did.  Actually, all of us met, but I can’t remember the details of my conversations with them.7

As the night wore on I found myself wishing that I had worn eyeliner and a nicer shirt.  I would catch myself looking at him and noticing how cute he was.  Then I would wonder how I had never noticed before.8

He was tall, a head above me with sandy brown-blonde hair.  It was kind of long, as was the style, and curly.  He had big, brown eyes with eyelashes that looked long enough to trip over.  His face was sprinkled with sugar brown freckles that I had never noticed before.  He had straight, white teeth and a huge grin that made me smile too. 9

After we had cleared the dishes and set out the mattresses we were sent to another room to fold clothes.  I guess we were never the best at following instructions, especially when we are unsupervised.  We ended up playing weird optical illusion games.  Like the one where you feel as if your feet are going through the floor.  He was trying one on me, the one where you run your finger up someone’s arm while their eyes are closed and they guess when you’ve gotten to the crook of their elbow.  Only I wasn’t paying attention to the game at all.  All I was thinking about was his hand holding my arm.  As his finger moved up my arm I felt shivers of excitement run through me like electricity.  10

That is when I realized that I liked him, that I wanted to be more than friends.  11