Dying more each day. Its hard to live in these times when the love of your life is 1000 miles away. I planned to marry her but like all my dreams before, they turned to nightmares n shattered my soul. Its tearing apart, it wants to be with hers so much. Chaotic mind, deafening all other voices and sounds. Chaotic mind, warping my soul and crushing all i love/loved. If only I could calm it, but the behemoth of my mind refuses to rest. It spins a vortex in my mind, confusing me and tryin to warp my love. Weeping uncontrollably, frequented by the beast of depression and panic attacks. They tell me "why should i go on, wot are you here for" 1
They taunt and torment me with suicide and I'm starting to agree. Help, i need a miracle.There's a heaven and hell and Ive been to both,I was so happy, no one had seen me so happy since they met me 4 months ago. Now, i sit her shackled in my own personal hell knowing its my fault. Exhausted, i want to just sleep away the rest of my life, but i know ill be up for much longer. I pray i have a guardian angel watchin me, so that he can banish the demons in my head. I pray i can handle this pain till i am released from this prison. I pray ill see her again so that i begin to live again instead of dying more each day.2
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I miss Denise so very much these days, If only she knew how much i cant bear to live without her.
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This was super Angel in my opinion keep up the great work too and in case you don't remember me this is Michael Juneau formerly from Allpoetry.com -
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This was super Angel in my opinion keep up the great work too and in case you don't remember me this is Michael Juneau formerly from Allpoetry.com -
Baby, please don't blame yourself. It was never your fault, it was just the situations we both are in was getting to me. I love you with everything i am. U have not wronged me, if anyone its I thats wronged u. No more tears, we both shad enough tears. I'll always love you and cant wait to call you my bride.
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You know i love you so much and i am sorry for the wrong which i have done to you in the past few months i pray that you are able to forgive me for the things i have dne wrong i love you with all of my heart and i hope you are able to move over the pain ih ave causedand realized i still do love you so much with all of my heart and nothing will ever change. i love you so much and i wish that i would have never would have made you feel the way that i did then this story would have never came to be. i love you.
denise marie
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