I had no idea.

I just remember walking through that park by myself, cold, scared, and feeling alone. I could see two people at the playground area of the park, I assumed it was a couple; They were holding eachother close, and kissing sweetly. I couldn't help but stop and stare. 1

I had left the park that night crying. I didn't remember the walk home too well... I just remember being alone, and I remember passing those two kids in the park that were holding eachother. 2

That morning when I woke up, I found myself wrapping my arms around my favourite teddy bear... Only, I wasn't in my bed, I wasn't even at home. I couldn't walk, I couldn't think straight, and I could hardly breathe. I looked up and noticed a lady in a nurses uniform, I asked where I was, and she put her hand on my forehead and told me I was in the hospital. 3

I questioned what happened, and why I was there, I asked where my parents were. She told me she couldn't say anything. I told her I demanded to know and she better tell me or I was leaving... She began taking my temperature, I waited until she was finished and then asked to see a doctor.  The nurse left the room and minutes later a doctor came in, and asked me how I was feeling.4

I looked at him and asked quietly, what had happened ... He looked at me and words left his mouth slowly... "You were found last night in a park. A lady found you laying on the cement. She told us two teenagers had knocked on her door and left immediately after knocking, she noticed you weren't moving and then called an ambulance... It was about two in the morning when you were found"5

The nurse came back in and handed me a mirror, I noticed a bandage across my forehead, and assumed stitches lay underneathe. I asked if my mom knew, and if she was here. The nurse said my mom was in last night while I was being taken care of, but they wouldn't let her in to see me... I had my stomach pumped, and had blood taken from me. That had answered my second question; Why wasn't I able to talk like I had a fully functional voicebox. 6

Moments later, my mom came in and was in shock, as if to wonder why I was still alive. She hugged me tight and when she let go, I saw him walk through the door... He had flowers, and as he set them beside me, he stared deep into my eyes and kissed my forehead; The opposite side of the stitches. He left, while my mom stayed, and asked me what happened... 7

I replied with a dumbstruck look and said her guess was as good as mine, I had no idea. I remembered making my way out of the park, but I couldn't remember anything other than that. And when I woke up, I was in the hospital.8

My mom looked at me, held my hand, and said they weren't letting me leave the hospital until a psychiatrist came in to talk to me. I felt my eyes starting to water, but I closed them tightly and acted like I was alright... Inside, I was scared. 9

He came back in, as my mom left, he picked up my teddy bear and told me he dropped it off last night, when he came with my mom, only, he gave it to the nurse to put on my bed. He told me he was scared, and said he didn't know what he'd do had I died. He told me they pumped painkillers from my stomach, and said I was EXTREMELY lucky to be alive... Although, he didn't tell me how many painkillers I had taken, but he did tell me I downed them with quite a bit of alcohol. 10

After about half an hour, the doctor came in and asked him to leave, he gave me a kiss, and told me he loved me more than anything, as he shut the door behind him.11