These next 5 chapters all take place in the 80s. More sex, drama, and angst (especially on chapter 10), not a lot of humor, blah blah blah.1
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SIX: YO REGGIE!
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Bakersfield, Spring 1986... 4
In a garage, some drugged-out dude with red, fucked-up eyes and a shaggy hair do pounded on the drums, forming absolutely no rhythm and only confusion. But he knew exactly what he was doing. I mean, first he was doing the beat for, “She Blinded Me with Science,” and then he kicked it up with “Walk Like an Egyptian.” At least that’s what he thought he did. Anyway, after the last beat, he set the drums down and asked, “So, how’d I do, dudes?” 5
Three teenage boys looked at him like he was retarded. Obviously they were a lot more sober than he was. 6
Fifteen-year-old Brian Welch spoke, “Um...we’ll call you.” 7
“Really dude?” The man asked. 8
“Really,” sixteen-year-old Reginald Arvizu Jr. smiled (of course he was faking it). He led the man out. “You know, we NEVER heard a drum solo like that before. You may just be hired.” Radical. 9
“Bye, dude!” Fifteen-year-old James Christian Shaffer grinned. As soon as the man left, however, he began to vomit. “Where the FUCK did you find this retard, Reg?!” 10
“I dunno!” Reg protested. “He called me! He SAID he was a drummer when I met him at the park. And he didn’t look all fucked up then.” 11
“Well, anyway,” James sat down. “You guys are in Ragtyme. Don’t you guys already have a drummer? He can just hang out with us.” 12
“Yeah, but...” He sat close to him and said, “But I don’t like him.” 13
“Yeah, we never liked him,” Brian added. Brian himself wouldn’t be part of this band they were trying to form with Reggie and James. “But hey, you guys got plenty of time to find a drummer.” 14
James narrowed his eyes at his close friend. “Whadaya mean, ‘you guys’?” 15
“I rather just step down from this band, you know.” 16
Reg blinked. “You mean, you’re not gonna be in this?” 17
“Nah. One band is enough.” 18
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Next Day...20
Just outside Highland High School, Brian and James (who attended another high school) wanted for Reg to come out. They wanted to leave though, because they just saw a New Romantic-looking freshman getting the shit beat out of him by jocks. Somehow, James had a feeling he’ll meet that kid again someday. After a few minutes, Reggie finally did come out. He didn’t look too happy. In fact, he looked paranoid, as if someone was after him. 21
James waved, “Yo Reggie!” Reggie looked anxiously around until he finally saw him and Brian. He ran fast to them. 22
Brian spoke, “Hey, where were—” 23
“We gotta get out of here,” Reg muttered, looking ever more anxious. “Now.” 24
“Whoa! What’s your hurry, soldier?” 25
“Look! Let’s just go—” 26
“Yo Reggie!” Someone called out. The three turned and saw a jock, calling out to Reg, who cringed. 27
Reg grabbed on to Brian and James and muttered, “Let’s just go. Don’t look back...” 28
“Reg! Get over here!” The older guy called out again, becoming a bit angry this time. 29
James looked down at Reg, and then glared at the dude, who was named Pete. “I had no idea he was your bully.” 30
Brian balled his fists up. “Why don’t we beat the shit out of him?!” 31
Reg sighed, looking down on the ground. “Yeah, he’s my bully. He doesn’t really beat me up much though.” 32
“You’re letting him take you lunch money, then!?” James yelled. “Geez, I thought you were better than that!” 33
“He’s—” No way could Reg tell them what was REALLY going on. “It’s not that simple, guys.” So now that Pete saw him, he had no choice but to go with him. In a low voice, he said, “I’ll call you later,” before running to Pete. 34
The two looked out at him and then stated at each other, confused. 35
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The alley was cold and damp. Reggie was walking in front of Pete, who was pushing him, saying, “hurry-up!” Reg was crying deep inside. He didn’t want to do this. Not now. Not anymore. 37
Pete finally stopped him and turned him around, pushing him against the wall. There were isolated from the rest of the world. He then asked Reggie, “Got it?” 38
Reg whispered, “Yeah.” He pulled out from his pocket a condom. His trembling hand gave it to Pete. 39
“You know what to do.” 40
Reg gulped and nodded. He knew exactly what he had to do. He unbuckled his belt. Then he unzipped his pants and let it drop to the ground. Lastly, he pulled down his boxers. The boy couldn’t breathe now. Butterflies filled his stomach. He felt sick. He wanted to wake up from this nightmare. Pete leaned down and caressed Reg’s cheek. He whispered, “You know I love you, right?” He then planted a soft kiss on his check. “Right?” Reg nodded, trembling. Pete then kissed him full in the mouth, letting his tongue slide inside Reg’s mouth. After the kiss stopped, he whispered, “Do you love me?” 41
“Yes.” 42
“Say it.” He whirled Reg around and pinned him on the wall on his stomach. 43
Oh god! Reg cried in his head. He could hear wrapper being torn. He ten felt Pete’s hands on his waist. His heart began beating rapidly. 44
“I want to hear you say it.” With a grunt, he tore Reggie open. Reg responded with whimpers and sobs from the pain. After he was all the way inside Reg, Pete began fucking him. Hard. “Say it Reggie!” He groaned. 45
Reggie could only breathe rapidly. He finally managed to say, “I love you,” before Pete made him say it again. “I love you,” he repeated. Pete had found his spot. He began to moan. 46
“Say it again you little fag!” Pete groaned, increasing his pace. 47
“I love you!” The two began moaning and groaning loudly before they climaxed. Reg didn’t have time to breathe before he was turned back around and was taken inside Pete’s mouth. He screamed as Pete gnawed on him. He whimpered and cried at the pain. Eventually, however, Pete’s tongue and teeth made him moan. 48
Outside he was withering in pleasure and was in total ecstasy, moaning for Pete. Inside, he was crying in shame. 49
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An hour passed. Reggie found himself limping all the way home. He never paid attention to the glances he was given. 51
It was so wrong. What he was doing with Pete. 52
Not that he had a choice. 53
A year ago, they had the same gym class period together. The last class of the day. Reg was a freshman; Pete a junior. Reg was usually the last person out of the shower. One day, while he was just about to turn off the faucet, he felt one strong hand cover his mouth, and another strong hand tightening its grip on Reg himself. They were sprawled on the floor. Reg had tried to get away. The next thing he knew, something hard and large torn him open. Pete began fucking him, his hand still on Reg’s mouth. The shower room was filled with Pete’s grunts, Reg’s muffled screams, and the running water. 54
After it was over, Pete whispered, “I love you,” and walked out. 55
The only thing Reggie could remember was seeing his blood down the drain with the water. He was so much in shock, he didn’t even cry or get angry. He was so much in a daze, he couldn’t remember getting dressed and limping the way home. It wasn’t until after he got home when he realized what had happened to him. 56
Pete would do this to him regularly that year, never caring how Reg felt. And the sad part was, after their third time, Reg began to like it. Maybe that’s why he never stopped him or told anyone. Maybe he was afraid no one would believe him. But, now that they didn’t have a gym class anymore, Pete had to wait until after school before pursuing Reggie. And Reg would let him. He was never in love with Pete and he knew Pete never had any feelings for him. 57
Reg finally reached his house, and before he could open the door, the door was slammed open. Out came his angry mother. “Reginald Arvizu Jr.! Where the hell have you been?!” 58
There was some snickering behind her. Turned out that Brian was there with Reg’s little sisters, laughing at this full name. 59
“Aww c’mon Mom!” he protested. “You have to say my full name?!” 60
“Uh...yeah! I’m late for work and I can’t leave Mandi or Robyn with your friend over here or by themselves,” She replied, jerking her thumb over at Brian. 61
“Sorry, mom.” He began walking (or should I say, limping) to the couch. His mother noticed that. “Reggie, all you all right? Did that little boy step on your foot again?” Brian looked up at that. See, that was Reg’s cover-up for why he was limping. If his parents ever knew what was really going on... 62
That bully probably kicked him in the shin, Brian thought. 63
“Um, yeah,” Reg replied. His mother gave him a kiss on the forehead, before he wiped it off, embarrassed. 64
“Well, I’m gonna have a chat with kid’s mother. Kicking my little boy? Ha!” 65
“But Cory’s nice, mama!” Mandi said. 66
Mrs. Arvizu then said, “Oh! Some kid left you a message about being a drummer or something like that.” 67
“Drummer?” He and Brian inquired in unison. 68
“Yeah. Now I gotta go. Tell you dad to call me as soon as he’s home, if he’s not too drunk to do so himself.” She rolled her eyes at the though. And at that she left. 69
“Can we watch Jem now, Reg?” Robyn asked. Reg had to watch whatever the girls were watching. Because his mother said so. That probably led him to watching everything with his daughters he would one day have. 70
“Lemme check something first,” Reg answered, rolling his eyes. 71
Brian whispered, “Tell me we’re not watching that cartoon...” 72
“I don’t have a choice. You can leave if you want.” 73
“Fine, but I wanna see what idiot called this time. So what did that guy want? Your money?” 74
Reg swallowed hard and replied, “No. Um...I accidentally saw him and his friends beat up the school’s janitor yesterday and they saw me. So he was like, ‘if you tell anyone about this, I’ll kill you.’ And before you ask, yes, he did kick me on the leg.” Mentally, he sighed in relief. Whew! Aced that one. 75
“I knew it. 76
The boys pressed the message button on the answering machine. 77
“Hello, this is the Arvizu Family! We are not home right now, but leave us a message and we’ll get back to you ASAP. Thank you and have a wonderful day!” 78
Beep. 79
“Um, hi!” A small male voice said. “My name is David Silveria and I got you phone number. I...I’d like to try out as a drummer for you band. Give me a call at*bleeeeeeeeep* Um...thank you!” 80
Beep. 81
The two boys simply stood there. Shocked. Then Brian laughed his ass off. 82
“Holy shit, dude! You got a BABY trying out as your drummer!” 83
And all Reg could say was, “This isn’t happening!” 84
“Reggie!” Mandi called out. “We wanna watch Jem now!!!” 85
“In a FUCKING MINUTE!” he screamed. The girls whimpered and sat back down.86
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SEVEN: OH, BRIIIII!
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So, he dialed the kid’s number the next day. Brian snickered just as much as he did yesterday. The girls wanted Reg to hurry up so they can watch Jem. He first talked to the kid’s mother and then to the kid himself, who was David Silveria. Whether not the kid could hear Brian laughing hysterically is beyond us. Reg (who tried to keep himself from laughing) told the kid to meet him at the park, so he could interview him. Only after he hung up did they laugh so hard they literally wet themselves. 89
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A day later, he had to convince his sisters to play at the park instead of watching Jem. The four stood behind a tree. 91
“But Rio’s gonna find out that Jem’s really his girlfriend Jerrica!” Robyn protested. 92
“Yeah, and I don’t care if he knocks her up!” Reggie mocked her. 93
A confused Robyn ended up asking her sister, “What does ‘knocking her up’ mean?” 94
Brian nudged him and snickered. “I bet the kid’s wearing a baseball cap and has a bat with him. And a glove!” 95
Reg smirked, “Yeah, and he’s probably got a Transformers shirt.” The boys laughed at that. 96
“Cory doesn’t play baseball,” Mandi said. 97
“We’re not talking about Cory!” 98
“And he likes Voltron,” Robyn corrected him. 99
“........” 100
“What are you guys doing, anyway?” 101
“We are looking for someone,” Brian answered. 102
“Yeah, some GIRLS!” And the little girls laughed at their brother and his friend, who each raised an eyebrow. 103
They had to send the girls to the swings so they could leave them alone. Then they peaked from behind the trees to look for one David Silveria. What they saw was a dark-haired boy, a little shorter than Reg. His bangs were longer than his short hair. He simply sat there on the picnic table, looking nervous. And to the boys’ surprise, he was wearing a white, sleeveless Aerosmith shirt. Yeah, that REALLY surprised them. 104
I mean, you think he’d be wearing a Transformers shirt, right? 105
“Hey, he looks like a rocker dude,” Brian said. 106
“Yeah, and I bet girls have crushes on him.” 107
“Whatever,” He pushed Reggie forward and grinned. “Have a good interview!” 108
Reg’s eyes widened. “Wait, you’re not coming with me?!” 109
“Hell no! He’s looking for you, not us.” 110
Reg glared at him. “Screw you. I’m not talking to that kid.” 111
“Well, YOU’RE the one who told him to meet here in the park. I had nothing to do with this.” 112
“Oh, BRRRRIIIIII!!!!” A high pitched female voice called. 113
Brian gulped, “Oh no...” for it can only be one person. She was a thirteen-year-old geeky girl who was pretty obsessed with Brian, like Tootie being obsessed with Timmy Turner twenty years later. David Silveria watched as that girl started tearing away at Brian. Brian shouted to Reg, “HEEELLLLPPP!!!” 114
But Reggie laughed his ass off, saying, “have a nice date, Bri! Gya-huck-huck!” 115
Now the kid was nervous as hell, but at that very moment, as soon as he saw Reg face to face, well...it was like the whole world stopped right there. 116
Reggie straightened himself up. Okay, let’s give this kid an interview and get this shit over with. “Hey what’s up, man!” He grinned. He shook the boy’s hand. David was awestruck, and though he didn’t know it, it was not because he was finally meeting someone in an actual band. 117
A small “Hi,” was all the boy could say. 118
Reggie sat down across from him, and pulled out a small tablet. “So, you’re David Silveria?” He looked up at him as he said the name. 119
“Mmm-hmm.” 120
“You know...um...you’re younger than the guys we usually have.” And I mean a lot younger! “How old are you?” 121
Should David lie about his age? Maybe. Unfortunately, he ended up blurting out, “Thirteen.” Oh crap! 122
Thirteen? I knew it. “You like drumming, huh? I mean, you don’t do any sports or anything like that?” 123
“No.” Why’s my heart beating so fast?124
“Well,” Reggie took a piece of paper out of the tablet and wrote his address. “Here’s my address. How soon can I see you?” 125
His pants became tighter for some reason. “Um...my mom wants you to come over my house.” He was somewhat embarrassed by mentioning that. 126
Reg raised an eyebrow. “Why?” 127
And even then they were in their own little world, not distracted by Reg’s sisters or Brian’s cries of help. 128
“Well,” David began shyly, “I have a drum set at ho—” 129
“You do?!” Score one for him! Reg grinned. “Well, then we’ll come by your house.” He faintly smiled at David, which sent the boy chills down his spine. He handed him a piece of paper so he can write down his address. After David wrote down the address, he gave the paper to Reggie, who remarked, “Hey, that’s close to my friend’s high school.” 130
David watched as Reggie stood up. He shook David’s hand, saying, “Thanks for the interview.” 131
“Thank you,” David faintly smiled. “When will you come?” 132
“Tomorrow, after school. You’ll be busy?” 133
David shook his head no. 134
“Well,” Reg smiled, “See you around.” 135
“You too.” 136
“By the way, I’m Reggie.” 137
“Hi, Reggie.” As soon as he left, David grabbed hold of his chest and began panting, while his heart beat rapidly. Why was he acting this way? His heart was pounding, his pants felt tighter, he was left breathless, Reg’s smile sent chills down his spine. 138
And that’s when it hit him. 139
Oh my god! I have a crush on Reggie! And he’s a GUY! 140
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Next Day... 142
They walked over to the house, after searching for the address. Brian was looking very paranoid. Probably because of that girl from yesterday. Yeah, that girl really scared the shit out of him. He begged Reg and James to hurry up and knock on the door. Because that girl lived in the neighborhood. 143
“So this is where the kid lives?” James asked. 144
“I guess,” Reg answered. 145
“C’mon, guys!” Brian whispered, looking around. “If Natalie sees me...” 146
“All right!” Reg snapped at him. “God!” So, he knocked on the door. 147
In a few seconds, a voice, probably David, called out, “Who is it?” 148
“Uh, this is Reggie! From yesterday!” There was a moment of awkward silence after that. 149
“Is he coming?” Brian asked, still looking paranoid. Finally the door opened, and out came David, smiling nervously. 150
“Hi!” He managed to say. 151
“Hey, kid,” Reg grinned. 152
David was so awestruck by him that he ended up standing there for almost a minute. 153
“Are you gonna let us in?” 154
That snapped him back to reality. “Oh! Um...sure!” 155
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It was a nice, small house. In the living room, there was a simple couch under a big frame, a den chair and a television set. “Nice pad,” Reg remarked. 157
“Thanks.” 158
“Oh, um...he,” Reg jerked his thumb to Brian, “is Brian, and this,” he jerked his thumb to James, “is James.” 159
“Hey,” Those two waved. David waved back. 160
“Dave?” A female voice called out. It was his mother, coming from the dining room. She smiled when she saw the three older boys. “So you boys must be David’s friends!” She shook all their hands. Now this was no less than embarrassing for David. “I’m David’s mom. I’m really glad he’s actually making friends, even if they are somewhat older than he is...” 161
Mom! David wanted to shout. 162
“Hey, we’re nice guys, ma’am,” Brian replied; Reg and James tried not to laugh. 163
“Well, it’s very nice to meet you guys,” She smiled and quietly left, but not before saying to David, “Remember our promise David.” 164
Reggie looked at him. “Promise?” 165
“Well,” David was kicking his feet around, looking down, “If I’m in your band, she has to drive me there for practice and stuff like that.” 166
“Oh.” 167
“I’m sorry about that...she’s...” 168
“Oh, no trouble, dude,” Brian answered. “If there is anyone embarrassing, it’s my mom. I won’t go into details.” 169
James looked up. “Oh, like that time she mentioned about your wet—” 170
“Shut up, James,” Brian laughed through his teeth... 171
“She likes to show us your baby pictures, too,” Reg laughed, before Brian hit him in the head. 172
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David walked the guys over to the backyard. There was a swing set at the back, for David’s little brother and his friends. And there, by the garage, was David’s small drum set. Reg whistled. It was pretty small. “Pretty small,” He said. 174
“I had it since I was nine,” David replied. 175
“Well,” James began, “Let’s see what you can do. We’re looking for...um...what are we looking for, Brian?” 176
“Variety,” Brian stated. 177
“Right. Hey, don’t be nervous, ‘kay?” 178
David nodded. He slowly walked over to his drum set. Oh god...I hope I don’t suck... he thought in his head. The guys sat on the swings, and for some reason, James had the urged to swing. Variety. That’s what they were looking for. But nothing they can’t decipher. David loved glam rock (in fact Tommy Lee was his greatest inspiration), but sometime he would watch videos of actual metal (for inspiration), and because he of his older sisters, pop and dance. A friend he knew once time liked rap. That sure was a lot of variety. David held up his drumsticks and took a deep breath. 179
He started with a beat from, “Rock you Like a Hurricane.” They didn’t seem too interested, so to throw them off, he did a pretty complicated beat identical to the jazz/swing music. Then his beats began to change from that to something from Prince. And then to top it off, he ended with the beat from, “Wipe Out!” but only a lot slower. He sat his drumsticks down, and sighed. “So that’s it.” 180
The guys just sat there, wide-eyed. You can’t tell if there were mesmerized or staring at him like he was retarded. 181
Jame finally said, “Guys, huddle.” Brian and Reg had no idea what James just said. “Do you understand what ‘huddle’ means?!” 182
“No,” Reg simply replied. 183
James sighed exasperatedly. “It means we form a close circle and whisper stuff to each other.” 184
“Oh.” And the guys huddled way over by the back door. 185
“Okay, who the FUCK taught him how to do the Wipe Out beat?!” James whispered frantically. 186
“The Prince one was awesome,” Reggie grinned. 187
“I like the jazz stuff,” Brian added. 188
Reg looked at the other two and grinned, “Ladies, I think we’ve found our drummer.” 189
“But he’s only thirteen. That’s the problem,” James stated. “And if you call me a lady again, I’ll chop off your dick.” 190
“We’ll work that out. Besides, his mom said he could be in a band, right? And not if I chop off yours first.” 191
“Man,” Brian sighed, “One day some pissed off lady’s gonna chop off a guy’s dick.” 192
David didn’t hear anything they said. He became even more nervous. What if they didn’t like it? What if that was too much variety? Worse, what if Reggie didn’t like his performance? His thoughts were broken when Reg called his name. 193
The guys sat by David, grinning. Finally, Reg asked him, “So when can your mom drop you off tomorrow?” 194
And that night, David would have his first wet dream. About who? None other than Reggie himself. 195
So began his journey into music and maybe even romance...196
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EIGHT: HIS SECRET ADMIRER
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Early spring, 1988...199
Fifteen-year-old David and a young girl his age were in his room, studying (or trying to). They were assigned as partners for a science project neither cared or wanted to do. But the girl wanted to get a good grade and was sure as hell not going to let David’s lazy ass ruin it. 200
“Come on!” She snapped. “We gotta find out this thing about mitochondria!” 201
David was lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling. “Whatever...” 202
“Whatever?! God! What is wrong with you?!” In anger and in frustration she picked up a pillow and threw it at him. David sat up, angry. 203
“The hell was that for, Melissa?!” 204
“You’re lazy! And all you guys ever think about is playing in a band!” 205
That pissed him off, bad-mouthing his love and his band he and the others were trying to form. “It’s what I love to do. You meanwhile like painting your little finger nails and going crazy over Madonna, New Kids on the Block, and Corey Haim!” 206
“First of all I love silent movie stars like Rudolph Valentino and the rap groups Salt ‘n’ Pepa and Run DMC.” 207
“Whatever.” Then he looked up at her. “Wait, you like rap?” 208
“Yeah, why? Just because I’m white doesn’t mean I can’t listen to rap.” 209
“I know. I have a friend who loves rap and he’s half Mexican. But I thought you would like...you know...” 210
“Whatever.” She sighed and looked over at a poster. It was a poster of Lita Ford. But since she doesn’t listen to any rock or metal, she wouldn’t know that. Lita Ford was wearing a VERY skimpy leather outfit and combat boots. Long, curly blond hair flew all over the place. “Who’s she?” 211
David saw what he was looking at and replied, “Oh! That’s Lita Ford.” 212
“Really?” 213
“Yeah. She’s a rock star.” 214
“Oh, like that band you like?” 215
“Yeah.” 216
She sat on the bed by him and continued looking at the poster. “I’ve never seen a girl wear combat boots before.” 217
David was staring at Melissa. Long, curly red hair, cute freckles. An early bloomer, loves wearing midriff shirts and short skirts. Yeah, she was hot. And she was popular. Recently he had discovered that while he was in love with Reggie, he also developed an attraction to girls. And a lot of girls thought he was hot too. As a result, he would make out with them. Not sex, just making out. The last girl he made out with was named Alyssa. He thought he was finally going to lose his virginity, but her brother (who works as an assistant at a morgue) scared him away with a dead body. 218
She looked down, fidgeting with one of her bracelets. Then she suddenly asked, “Do you find me attractive?” 219
That was a shocking question to ask. “Um...fuck yeah! Why?” 220
“Well, um...do you wanna make out with me?” She seemed uneasy about it. 221
“Do you?” 222
“I guess,” She smiled a little. “You ARE hot.” 223
David blushed a little. “Yeah, well...some idiot told me I looked like a male young Brooke Shields. I dunno where he got that from.” 224
She cupped David’s face with her hands, leaned over, and kissed him passionately. David felt like he was in heaven, kissing one of the most popular girls in ninth grade. Will he be able to lose his virginity? Probably not. But this was good enough. And so he decided to take the next step, which was wrapping his arms around her. He slid his tongue in her mouth and their tongues entwined. Then one of his hands went from her back to one of her breasts. She moaned at the touch. But when David opened his eyes to look at her, he found something surprising. 225
You see, the entire time, she was glancing over at the Lita Ford poster. 226
He broke the kiss and unwrapped his arms. She became shocked at that. “Um, hello? I thought we were gonna make out and stuff.” 227
How was he going to explain this? “Yeah, but you were making out with Lita Ford.” 228
This shocked her. “What?! No I wasn’t.” 229
“Yes you were.” 230
“I’m no—” 231
“I looked over and fucking saw you looking at her the entire time, Melissa! So you’re a dyke!” David snapped. He didn’t mean to though. He looked away, not looking at the shocked Melissa. Neither said anything for a moment. Finally, David heard sobbing. He looked over, and Melissa was burying her face in her hands, crying. Maybe he shouldn’t have called her that. “I’m sorry...” 232
“No!” She shook her head. “You’re right. I was making out with her. God! I don’t even know why! I don’t know why I couldn’t make out with you. You know, I’ve been dating a bunch of popular guys, and I make out with them. I should be attracted to them, but I’m not. I should be attracted to you—I mean you are attractive—but I just don’t feel anything. 233
“And yet, when I look at her...or when I out there in the shower room with the other girls after gym, I get these weird emotions. I don’t even know if I am a dyke...but these feelings...” She began to panic. “Oh god! If my family finds out, my friends, everybody—” she turned to David. “Promise me you won’t tell anyone. Please?!” 234
David couldn’t find his voice after that. Then, when he was able to, he smiled. “I give you my word.” 235
She smiled, relieved, and embraced David. “Thank you, David!” 236
David surprised by the hug. “No problem.” After they broke the embrace, David continued, “You’re not alone, you know.” 237
She sighed, looking down, wiping the tears off her face. 238
“Actually...” he might as well tell her, “When I make out with girls, I mean, yeah I’m attracted to them and stuff, but...I think about that...stuff...too.” 239
She looked up at him, surprised. “You do?” 240
David nodded. “It’s just one guy though. You wouldn’t know him—he doesn’t go to our school.” 241
“Who?” She smiled. “Tell me anyway. I won’t tell a soul.” 242
David took a deep breath. “It’s my friend I told you about earlier. The one that likes rap.” 243
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Actually, since he became part of the gang, David and eighteen year old Reggie weren’t really friends at all. In fact, sometimes they fought. But they were boys. Still, it hurt David to see that the love of his life being a jerk to him. Brian and James, now seventeen, would tell David that that was how Reg was, sometimes. 245
Oh, but David has a bad temper too, Brian would add. 246
The two and James waited for Reg (who was borrowing his dad’s car) and a fellow bandmate Richard Morrill outside their high school a week later. David looked up and saw Melissa, chatting with her girlfriends. She saw him, grinned and waved. He waved back. Brian and James snickered. David then asked, “What are you laughing at?” 247
“She’s hot, for a freshy,” James answered. David rolled his eyes. Of course, they’ll never know that she doesn’t like guys. And what was with the anti-freshmen jokes? Just because the guys were seniors didn’t mean they were special... 248
“Brian?” The three looked over and saw a more mature-looking Natalie. She still had braces, but now she chose nicer glasses, her hair was down and curly, and, well...she hit puberty and went through it well. Over time, Brian somehow became attracted to this not too hot, but not too ugly girl. She was simply...cute. And her personality matured, too, so that made Brian become more attracted to her. 249
He smiled, “Hey, what’s up?” 250
“Nothing,” she blushed. “Are you still going to take me to that guy’s party, tomorrow?” 251
“Sure I will,” he replied. 252
“Well...um...I have to be home.” She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and waved goodbye. 253
Yeah, folks, they’re dating. Bet you didn’t think that would happen, huh? 254
David and James giggled at the whole scene. “That was so cute, Brian,” James said. 255
But Brian wasn’t ashamed at all. “Yeah, so? She’s cute. And personally, I like the cute, shy girls instead of hot girls.” 256
“Right, because, the hot ones are total bitches and just plain dumb?” 257
“Exactly.” 258
“You’re actually gonna take her with you to a high school-slash-college party? I mean, it’s provably her first.” David stated. 259
“Yeah. You went with us and you were still a middle school kid.” And he drinks and smokes with the big dogs, too. “And I’m not doing ANYTHING with her. I’ll wait until she’s ready.” 260
“You don’t think she’s ready?” 261
“Trust me. Unlike most guys, I actually know when a girl is ready. And most girls our age are NOT ready.” They haven’t even kissed on the mouth, yet. He walked closer to the two guys and whispered, “See, a girl’s first time is really painful.” 262
“I know,” James said. “I slept with a virgin once.” 263
“So did I.” 264
David spoke up, “Does it hurt for a guy?” 265
“No.” 266
Pause. 267
“Unless you’re gay and a bottom,” James snickered. 268
“Oh yeah! I really don’t know what the gay guys are thinking sometimes...” Brian shook his head, laughing. 269
Suddenly, a car horn nearly left them deaf. “What the f—” They all saw Reg, waving. Rick (who would later be the singer of the band) flipped them off. “No he didn’t just flip us off,” James said. 270
“Looks like it to me,” David responded. 271
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While Reg was driving the boys to...wherever they go after school when they’re not practicing (and remember, Brian would not be in this band)...the guys talked about whether they were going to get laid at the party tomorrow night. David doesn’t know (still a virgin of course). Brian was like, “I just told you, I’m not gonna send Natalie through a world of pain just to get laid.” 273
“He’s a real Romeo,” Reg muttered. 274
David snapped, “Hey, it’s not like you pay attention to your girlfriend, Reggie.” 275
“Okay, you’re still a virgin so, why are you talking to me?” 276
“Oh, so you don’t associate with virgins?” 277
“Yes, just not with you, now leave me alone, toddler!” 278
“Up yours, faggot!” David shouted. 279
“Excuse me?” Reg was becoming very homicidal now. 280
“Whoa-kay!” Rick stepped in. “Let’s stop before someone gets hurt!” 281
“Don’t even, Rick,” James answered. “Just let them duke it out.” 282
“I got your back, David,” Brian spoke. 283
“Hey, I bet you’re still a virgin,” David continued. 284
“For your information, I’m not. I slept with Shondra.” 285
“Yeah and you were probably a lousy lay.” 286
That did it. Reg stopped the car and jumped in the back so he could beat the shit out of David. He didn’t know he was hurting the others, kicking and punching them. Finally, Brian had to push him off. 287
Fifteen minutes later... 288
“I’m not apologizing to him,” Reggie muttered. “I’ll KILL myself, before I apologize.” 289
“Look, you are being too fucking hard on him,” Brian shouted. “You know that’s why he talks shit about you.” The guys were at the desert, where Reggie stopped his car. David was still in there, pissed. James and Rick were kicking dirt. 290
But Reg wasn’t having it. In fact, he pointed to his car, yelling, “Why the fuck is he still in my car?!” And David heard that. 291
He quickly got out the car and shouted, “There, I’m out your car. Are you happy, Reg? I’ll just walk the rest of the way home!” 292
James looked up. “C’mon man, you can’t walk home from here. And your mom’ll kill us!” 293
“Ask me if I give a fuck!” He began holding his thumb up, thinking he can actually hitchhike. But James caught him. 294
“We’re taking you home, David,” he said firmly, “whether you or Reg like it or not.” He even glared at Reg as he said that. Reggie however went as far as flipping James off. But David knew deep inside he couldn’t get home by hitchhiking, so he gave in. 295
Later that night... 296
David and his six-year-old brother Andy were watching martial arts movies, while their mom and Andy’s dad talked about stuff David could care less about. While his own dad was somewhat worried about him being in a band (because he thinks music is not a “job.”), this guy was even less supportive, especially because he hated rock‘n’roll. Yeah, he even went as far as threatening to cut David’s shoulder-length hair. 297
But that never happened. Now James however... 298
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. 299
“Someone’s here,” Andy said. 300
“Thanks, Mr. Obvious,” David muttered. He got up, walked to the door, and opened it. 301
To his surprise, Reggie was there, looking down, still carrying that mad face of his. David looked around to see if the others were there with him. “It’s just me,” Reg muttered. David’s heart just skipped a beat. 302
“Oh.” But then remembering their fight earlier today, his eyes narrowed, “Why are you here? Are you coming back to try and beat me up, again, Reggie? Or are just coming here to curse me with your presence.” 303
This angered Reg. “You know what? I came by to apologize to you, but since you’re gonna take it like that, I’ll just leave.” 304
David’s face softened. “Did the guys make you apologize to me?” 305
“Yeah, kinda.” 306
Well, that pissed him off. “Then your apologies means nothing to me!” And at that David slammed the door on his face. 307
Reg was so enraged that he almost screamed, “FUCK YOU!!” but was able to bite his tongue. Instead he ended up saying, “Yeah, well your mother wears army boots!” flipped the door off, and stormed down the steps and into his car (I’m sorry, his dad’s car), mumbling every bad word he could think of. 308
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Next Day... 310
“I gotta go back home man,” James told Brian. “Mom just found out that I got a D minus on some test. You know how she is.” 311
Brian was pretty mad. “No, I don’t know! We’re supposed to go to that party man. You know, that party where the people might even wanna hear you guys rock.” 312
James scoffed. “Hey! You know how THEY are! ‘School first.’ ” He was referring to parents in general. 313
“I don’t care.” 314
“I don’t care either, but I’m just going home anyway...” James got up and walked away, but not before saying, “I’ll see what I can do, man.” 315
“I’ll kill you if you don’t show up.” 316
“No you won’t! Because mom will kill me first!” 317
Brian sighed. “This is not cool...” Ever since James’ dad pinned him down and cut off his long hair, he had gotten less rebellious than before. Brian laughed. It wasn’t even that bad, man.... 318
“ ‘Sup, man.” It was Reggie. “Where’s Jimmy?” 319
“He said he couldn’t come to the party.” 320
“Well, I wouldn’t be going either if they didn’t have beer.” 321
Brian glanced up at him. “What do you have against David, anyway?” 322
Reg looked up. “Nothing. He’s just being a wise ass.” 323
“Dude....you’re a wise ass.” 324
“No I’m not.” 325
“Hey, Brian.” The two turned around and saw David. No way in hell was he going to say hi to Reg... 326
“Hey man,” Brian answered. He glanced at Reg and punched him in the arm. 327
Reg sighed miserably. “Hi, Dave...” 328
Brian then turned to David. Time to play mediator. “Now you say hi to Reg.” 329
“But Brian!” 330
“No buts! Come on, now. Two simple words.” 331
David sighed miserably. “Hi, Reggie.” David then asked Brian. “Where’s James?” 332
“Can’t come to the party....bad grades—you know the drill.” 333
“Oh....” He glanced at Reg who was looking at something. And judging by the look on his face (which was a “shocked, but in a good way” look), it must be something good. 334
“The hell are you reading?” Brian asked him. “It’s all pink and shit.” 335
Reggie looked up and smiled faintly at him. “I got a secret admirer.” 336
David’s heart skipped a beat at that. “No kidding?!” Brian exclaimed. “Lemme see!” He snatched the letter and read it. He whistled. ‘Too much Shakespearean words on here.” 337
“Yeah, but I understand most of what she’s saying.” He paused and sighed, almost painfully. “It’s not even lovey-dovey. It’s so fucking serious. She said she would die for me. I gotta find who wrote this.” 338
Brian whistled, a little disturbed. But then he was one to talk. Natalie said she would die for him. And once, he even told her he would die for her—and he meant it, too. “Shondra knows about this?” 339
“No! Besides, Shondra goes to YOUR school, not mine.” 340
David didn’t say anything. No, what could he say? He was so angry at Reg, and he was so hurt, he began hating him with a passion. And there was such a thin line between love and hate that night that he wrote him that love letter Reggie was holding now. Melissa came by later to help him at it, which explains the Shakespearean tone of the letter. Then, when he got the balls, he asked Alyssa (who goes to Highland High), who was just in the area, to put that letter in Reg’s locker (she knows him). “Some girl made me give this letter to him,” he had told her. 341
“Earth to David,” Brian called out, snapping him from his thoughts. 342
“Oh...did you guys say something?” 343
“Yeah, idiot,” Reg muttered, “Are you taking any girl out?” 344
“Oh. No.” 345
“Why?” Brian asked him. “What about that girl you were waving at yesterday.” He meant Melissa. 346
“She wouldn’t be interested.” 347
Brian moved closer to David and whispered, “Between you and me, I don’t know what Shondra sees in a short fuck like Reg here.” 348
“I heard that,” Reg muttered. 349
“So? You keep making fun of him just because he’s a little younger than the rest of us!” Then Brian smirked. “And wait ‘til he hits the growth spurt.” 350
“The fuck are you talking about?” 351
“James and I are already taller than you....and when David gets taller...well...” Brian laughed. 352
Well, sure enough, the other guys were already an inch or two above Reg’s height, and David was about in inch or two shorter....and he hasn’t hit his growth spurt yet.... 353
Brian whispered to David, “You know, we all used to be the same height until Reggie just stopped growing.” They both snickered at that. 354
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That night, everyone—the guys and Natalie (who sat on Brian’s lap) was jammed in Reg’s car. 356
“You think they’ll actually want us to perform?” David asked. 357
“Nah,” James muttered. “We don’t have our equipment. And besides, those people like Free-style, not rock.” 358
“What’s Free-style?” 359
“It’s Latin dance music,” Reg answered. “Well, I like some Free-style. It’s not New Wave.” Didn't he use to listen to New Wave?360
Brian sighed, “At least we won’t have to listen to Christopher Cross.” 361
That made the guys sick quick! “Ewww!” The guys exclaimed. 362
“Why did you have to go and mention that Brian?!” Rick yelled. 363
Brian turned to his girlfriend. “You don’t like Christopher Cross, do you?” 364
“No,” She answered. “I like traditional music from Panama. My father’s from there, so he likes to play that kind of music.” 365
James looked at her, shocked. Reg grinned. “Hey, Jimmy! Looks like we got a fellow beaner in this car!” 366
“We sure do. ¡Buenos noches, Señorita!” James gave Natalie a high-five. 367
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Before the group went in, Brian asked, “You picking up what’s-her-face?” 369
“Yeah,” Reggie answered. “She wasn’t ready when I called her earlier, so I’ll be back.” 370
“Sure.” 371
Meanwhile, Rick, James and David looked at the huge house with so many people in the party. There was a huge beer keg. Sorority girls. Frat guys. Junkies. Some other high school kids. Needless to say, the guys were in awe. 372
“Hot, girls, James...” was all Rick managed to say. 373
James whistled. “And they’re probably aren’t virgins, so that’s one less thing we have to worry about, huh?” 374
“Ohhh yeeeahhh...” 375
“What if they are dating those jocks?” David asked. 376
“Who cares? We’re gonna get YOU laid, buddy-boy.” And so the two dragged David all over to meet his girl. 377
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An hour passed. David had to hide from the guys. Who knew losing one’s virginity could be so scary? He couldn’t do it. He wasn’t ready. He sat down next to Brian and Natalie, who were talking about stuff. Reg was right about one thing: Brian was a true Romeo, and a good one. There he was, offering to bring her soda, or to sit somewhere less loud. He suddenly wondered if Melissa was in the crowd. 379
“Excuse me?” Someone spoke. David looked up and saw a college student, grinning down at him. “This seat taken?” David shook his head, no. The man sat down next to him. He had short, brown hair and green eyes. He was very tall, too. “You’re obviously not a college student. What’s your name?” 380
“Oh, I’m David Silveria,” David smiled. “I’m a freshmen in high school.” The two shook hands. 381
“Oh, I remember being a high school freshy. Peter McPherson. Just call me Pete.” 382
“Nice to meet you.” David became somewhat nervous. Okay, David. You’re talking to a college student. A college student! Not half-bad looking either. What should I ask him? “What college are you in?” 383
“I’m in UCLA. That’s in Los Angeles. But Bakersfield’s my home, you know.” He glanced at the other college students partying around. “And for most of them, this is their home, too. No matter how boring and sucky it is.” David nodded. “You want something to drink? I mean are you a rebel, or do you play it safe?” 384
David laughed. “No, I’m a rebel. I’ll take a beer. But I can get it.” 385
“No, I insist,” Pete smiled. He got up and walked to the dining room, which led to the kitchen. 386
And it was at the dining room when Reg saw his worst nightmare. 387
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Shondra ran after Reggie, who was becoming panicky, outside on the porch. 389
“What’s wrong with you, Reggie!” 390
“Get away!” What the FUCK is HE doing here?! He wanted to cry, now. The horrid memories came flooding back into his brain. 391
“Why?!” Neither of them cared that there were people out there staring at them. 392
“Just get the fuck away from me, Shondra!” 393
She stood there, shocked at his anger. She simply walked back inside, angry and hurt. “Fine, Reggie.” 394
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“Dude, these are really roofies?” Rick asked, picking up one of the pills that were all in a bowl in the kitchen. 396
“Seems like it,” James replied. “Man, these college dudes are that desperate...” Pete then came by, said hello to some girl and stopped by the young men. 397
And as he took a pill, he grinned, “How you doing, boys?” The two nodded, watching him mix the cup of beer. 398
After he left, Rick shook his head and said, “Man, I feel sorry for the girl who drinks that.” 399
“Right.” Suddenly, Reggie entered the kitchen from the side door. “Hey man.” 400
Reg simply responded, “Hey.” 401
“Dude,” Rick began, “you gotta take a look at these fucking things.” 402
And as Reg saw the bowl of roofies, his eyes widened. “Holy shit! Those are date-rape pills! They really do that stuff, huh?” 403
“Yeah. Some guy just came by and took one.” 404
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David, after drinking his cup of beer, was laughing heartily with Pete, Brian, and Natalie. Shondra was there in the living room as well, hoping that Reggie would come to apologize to her. When Brian saw her, he asked, “Hey, wanna hang out with us?” She declined, smiling faintly. 406
David then asked, “The hell did Reggie go?” 407
Pete looked up at that name. 408
“Who knows?” She answered. “He went all crazy and said, ‘stay the fuck away from me!’ See if I ever let him take me out again...” 409
Brian glanced at David, who was looking tired. “You okay, dude?” 410
“It’s fucking hot in here,” David replied. 411
“It’s fine in here. You hot, Natalie?” She shook her head no. 412
Pete stood up. “I’ll take him out to the backyard. There’s a pool out and I think that’ll cool him off.” 413
Brian blinked. “This house’s got a huge pool?!” 414
Shondra stated, “Oh, the owner of the house said the pool’s closed. But there’s some chairs out.” 415
“Great, I need some fresh air,” David muttered. “Man, my head’s starting to hurt. I think I’m getting dizzy.” 416
“I’ll take him out,” Pete said. David nodded and went through the dining room to the backyard. 417
Shondra then said, “If Reg asks for me, tell him I’ll be upstairs in the bathroom.” 418
“ ‘Kay,” Brian replied. 419
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Reg decided that needed to apologize to Shondra. He looked all over the place but upstairs and the living room. 421
There was a slow song on. Brian and Natalie sat there, Brian bored from the party, Natalie nervous. Brian could tell that she was. But god he wanted to kiss her... “You okay?” 422
She nodded. “Thanks for taking me on a date, Brian. This is the best time I’ve really had.” 423
Brian raised an eyebrow at that. “You sure? It’s boring as fuck here.” 424
She shook her head at that. “It doesn’t matter. As long as I’m with you.” And then she did something bold. She leaned closer to him and softly brushed her lips with his. Brian was surprised at first. Soon, however, he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her back. 425
“Aww. How romantic.” The two broke their kiss and saw Reg, who was obviously being sarcastic. 426
Brian, pissed off at Reg for ruining the moment, asked, “Are you looking for your girlfriend?” 427
“Maybe.” 428
“She’s using the bathroom.” 429
“Great.” 430
“Well aren’t you going up there?” 431
“I’ll wait for her outside. Tell her I’ll be out in the back porch.” And at that, he left. 432
Brian shook his head at him in shame. 433
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David and Pete sat on the long futon chair by the pool. No one was in sight and the pool and the chares were far away from the house. David’s head was increasingly in pain. “God...I’ve never been this fucked up before...” 435
Pete was staring at him the entire time with a different, more sinister look on his face. “I’ll make it better...” He leaned toward him to brush his lips against his neck, but David moved away, disturbed. 436
“Whoa...what are you d-doing?” He asked. Was this guy gay or something? 437
“I’m making you feel better. Now c’mon...” He moved closer, but David moved way again, holding his head. 438
“I c-can’t. I-I’m not like that...” 439
And then Pete held his hands and began choking David. 440
“Stop!” the horrified David tried to breathe... 441
That caused Pete to punch him hard on the face. David fell to the ground. He didn’t even get a chance to get up when Pete pulled David’s pants and underwear off. David, too weak to fight him off, was pinned face down. He knew exactly what was going to happen to him. 442
As soon as he heard Pete unzipping his own pants he panicked. “Sto-hop! Please!” David sobbed, blood from his nose tricking down his face. 443
“Shut up faggot!” He shouted, pulling on his hair. 444
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Reggie, waiting for Shondra, was sitting at the back porch, contemplating about what he should say to her, besides, “I’m sorry.” She would probably ask him, what was wrong. He wasn’t going to tell her the truth, so he had to think of something else to say...like his ex-girlfriend was here. But Reg had told her awhile back that she herself was his first. 446
Suddenly, 447
“HELP ME!!” a familiar voice shouted. Reg looked up. The hell? He stepped down from the porch and saw two people sprawled out on the ground by the pool. One on top of the other. Immediately he saw that the guy on top was about to rape the girl. 448
He ran toward them. 449
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David, screaming and crying, was helpless as Pete was about to tear through him. 451
“Is gonna hurt a little,” Pete simply said, licking David’s ear. 452
“Get off her!” It was Reggie who shouted that. 453
Pete had no choice but to stop what he was doing and stand up to face the consequences. And then he turned around. 454
That’s when everything stopped. 455
Master and former slave. Face to face. “Reggie! Long time no see,” Pete managed to say, breathing heavily. 456
Reggie, shocked and horrified that Pete was right there, looked down at the girl. She looked up at them. And all of a sudden, it was David! His face stained with blood and tears. Laid there with his bare backside and legs being spread apart. David could see Reggie and Pete standing there, but was too dizzy to see anything else. 457
Reg was horrified at David’s appearance. And Pete did this to him. David... 458
He balled his fists up and gritted his teeth. His eyes suddenly became dark with acid rage. “You son of a bitch!!” Reggie shouted and lunged at Pete. And with one hit, he punched the motherfucker and sent him on the ground. In rage he ran over and stomped on Pete, ignoring his cries. David watched dizzily, but in shock as Reg nearly beat him to death. 459
“You’re still at it, huh, mother fucker?!” Reggie shouted, kicking him hard. He kneeled down and punched him repeatedly. “This is for ruining my fucking life all these FUCKING years!!” And then he looked for a hard chair and threw it at him, injuring the man even more, “And this is for hurting my friend!!” 460
“I’m s...orry...” Pete tried to say but Reg punched in the nose repeatedly. 461
“FUCK YOU, FAGGOT!!” Surprisingly, he managed to top killing him. He got up and spat on his face. “You’re nothing but a fucking parasite, Pete,” Reg uttered in a very low voice. “You can burn in hell.” 462
“Reggie...” David spoke out, his voice very weak. Reg turned to him and picked the younger boy up, also picking up the pants and underwear. He managed to sneak around to his car so no one could see them. 463
He put the passed out David on the back seat, started his car and left, without a second thought. 464
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Two hours later... 466
David suddenly woke up, with a wet rag on his forehead. There was still throbbing pain on his head, but he had noticed his face was cleaned up, with a big band-aid on his nose. He sat up on the bed, thinking he was dreaming until he realized this wasn’t his room. No, the room was blue instead of gray, and the bed sheets were of a different color too. And then he realized that he was without his pants or underwear. Turns out they were on the chair, and his shoes were by the bed. 467
It wasn’t a dream after all... 468
He heard a phone ringing and then some faint talking from another room. Being a curious person, he put on his pants and underwear, and slowly walked over to where that sound was coming from. And to his surprised, Reggie was there on his dad’s bed, getting screamed at on the phone. 469
“Look, I’m sorry I left without picking you guys up!” 470
“Natalie was supposed to be home an hour ago!” that was Brian. 471
Reg sighed. “Look, something very serious came up that I had to leave. No, I’m not telling you. Yeah, David’s with me. We’ll be there. Yeah, I am aware that Shondra’s gonna kill me. Whatever, goodbye!” And at that, Reg slammed the phone shut. David lightly knocked on the door. Reggie looked up and saw him, surprised that he was already up. “You okay, man?” he quietly asked him. 472
“My head still hurts,” David answered. ‘I’m okay, though.” He’s actually looking out for me. He wanted to cry. 473
“Well,” Reg looked away. “A little thank you would be appreciated, you know. For letting you sleep in my bed and all that.” Then he saw tears forming out of David’s eyes. “David...” 474
David suddenly ran to him and embraced the older young man, sobbing uncontrollably. “If you weren’t there, Reggie...” 475
Reg, surprised at David, could only say, “David...” 476
“He tried to rape me, Reggie! He was calling me a faggot and everything!” Reg shushed him, trying to make him stop crying. David then looked up and continued, realizing how loud he was crying, “Oh god...I’m sorry, Reg. I usually don’t cry like that.” He managed to stop crying, his voice back to normal again. As he wiped the tears off his face, he suddenly smiled, “God, I sound just like a girl, now...” 477
Reggie wrapped his arm around David’s shoulder. “That guy had the nerve to give you a fucking date-rape pill. That’s why you’re feeling dizzy and stuff.” 478
“Date-rape pill?” 479
“Yeah, they make a victim go dizzy and weak that they’ll be less willing to resist.” He laughed rather lightly. “Shame he didn’t do that while he was still in high school...” 480
David looked up at him, confused at that remark. “What do you mean? He did this before?” 481
Reg swallowed hard. Should he tell him the truth? “Yeah. I dunno what he was doing between then and now, but...there was only one other guy I know that had to go through this shit.” He might as well tell him. 482
“Who was that?” 483
Reg then made eye contact with David and sighed. “You’re looking at him.” 484
It took David a moment to get what he was saying. And when he did, his eyes widened in horror. “No...” 485
“Yeah.” 486
“He did it to you?” Tears fell out of David’s eye again. “Why...?” 487
“But hey, you should consider yourself lucky. No one was able to save me. And he didn’t even need a roofie then. He flat out raped me and...he’s been doing it to me for two straight years.” This was somewhat scary to Reg. He ever told this to anyone before. At all. 488
“Why didn’t you tell anyone?!” 489
“I don’t even know, David! You know how some dude would keep telling you that he loved you, but...you knew deep inside he doesn’t. Plus, no one would believe me. He was a popular jock in high school, you know.” Tears fell out of Reg’s eyes. “And if that wasn’t enough, I ended up liking what he was doing to me. And I’m not even gay, so...” 490
David simply stared at him. His tears ran down his cheeks in streams. 491
“But hey, I finally got to do what I should’ve done a long time ago. I don’t care if I did kill him...he deserves it.” He looked up at David and then noticed his nose was bandaged. “You think your mom will panic when she sees that?” 492
“Probably.” 493
And then Reg noticed something down his neck. Finger marks. “Oh god...” He leaned over and caressed the finger marks on David’s neck, not even knowing that he making David nervous and blush at his touch. “He was choking you too?” Reggie finally managed to whisper. He couldn’t believe Pete would step that low. David nodded. Reg then did something he rarely did with David: he wrapped his arms around his waist and embraced him. “I’m so fucking sorry, David,” he whispered. “This shouldn’t even happen to you...” 494
David gasped as he felt something strange from Reggie. He felt lips touching his neck. “Reggie?” Reg soon kissed every finger mark on David’s neck. Reggie then looked up at David’s face, caressing his cheeks, wiping out the tears off his face. As soon as Reg realized what he just did, his heart began to beat very rapidly. So did the shocked David, who was blushing furiously. Even so, his hand’s still caressed David’s face. 495
What the hell’s wrong with me? Reg thought in his head. All of a sudden, despite the band-aid on his nose, David was becoming somewhat stunning, thanks to his dark eyes, dark hair, and luscious red lips. David looked up at him, nervous, unsure of what he would do. Reg was always handsome to him. Without even knowing it, his hands caressed Reg’s face. 496
Reggie slowly leaned down...and brushed his lips against David’s. 497
David sat there, shocked. Oh god...he’s kissing me! Reg wrapped his arms around David’s waist again, this time even tighter. David’s arms went around Reg’s neck as the kisses went deeper. Then Reggie broke the kiss. 498
He sat there, trying to breathe, shocked at what just happened. He just kissed another guy. He knew he wasn’t gay, despite everything that happened with Pete. And yet, he couldn’t stop looking at David, being mesmerized by his features. He caressed his lips with his thumb and ran his hand over his hair. Why can’t I stop myself?! Likewise, David, shocked that the love of his life had just kissed him (and that this was his first kiss with a guy), simply froze, wondering what Reg would do next. Would he do it again, or would Reggie regret what he did? He wanted his lips to touch Reg’s soft lips again. 499
God, he was so handsome, he wanted to cry... 500
“Why the fuck can’t I stop touching you?” Reggie whispered, his face only inches apart from David’s. 501
David could only whisper, “I-I don’t know...” Reg leaned down and kissed away David’s tears. David meanwhile planted kisses on Reggie’s cheeks. And then, Reg leaned down and inserted his tongue in David’s mouth. 502
Oh god! Was the only thing he could say in his mind. Things became even more intense when he felt Reggie rub on one of his thighs. 503
While this was a dream come true for David, it was a nightmare for Reg. I gotta break away...gotta break away...something happen, please! 504
Well, his prayers were answered. 505
The phone rang again, nearly giving the two heart attacks. They broke the kiss right then and there. While David simply sat there, staring in to space, Reg slowly and nervously picked up the pone. “H-Hello?” 506
“Reg, where the FUCK are you?!” It was James. Yeah, he forgot he had to pick the others up. He simply hung the phone up. There was a long, awkward moment of silence between David and Reg, who couldn’t even look at each other now. 507
Finally, Reggie stood up, still not facing David. “We gotta pick up the other guys. They’re still at the party.” David slowly nodded. 508
Before they left his dad’s room, Reg then whispered in a low voice, “This never happed, David.” 509
David became disappointed by that remark. It was too good to be true after all... “Right...” was all he could say... 510
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A half hour later... 512
“Yeah, and some guy in the backyard got JACKED THE FUCK UP!” Rick exclaimed. Since Shondra was on Reg’s lap, Rick had to drive them all. 513
“Yeah, it was gruesome. Everyone though he was dead,” James added. 514
“Yeah, I was talking to him earlier. Weird,” Brian stated. They were referring to Pete. 515
“You do know how to drive, do you?” Reg glanced at Rick. “Because if you tear up Big Reg’s car, He’ll slit my throat, and before I die, I’ll slit yours.” 516
“Whatever,” was his reply. 517
Reg had apologized to Shondra when they caught sight of each other. And when they kissed, Reg and David somehow glanced at each other. Now David, who did not even want to be in the same car with the couple, glanced out at the window. 518
“So tell me again why you deserted us,” Brian began, “And what’s with the band-aid, Dave?” 519
“I bumped my head into something,” David answered rather dryly. “People can be clumsy you know.” 520
“That town faggot almost got killed by some jocks, and Alyssa called me to help him out. David was with me,” Reggie explained. 521
“Oh, that guy that scared David with a dead body?” James snickered. 522
“That guy. His name’s Jonathan.” 523
“You know, even if he is gay, why would those idiots beat the shit out of him?” Shondra asked. 524
Reg shrugged. “He was always a little weirdo. I oughta know; Ma used to baby-sit him when we were knee high.” 525
“Maybe you should be more nice to him.” 526
“I have no choice, but to...” 527
This conversation scared both Reg and David. If anyone found out that they had kissed...well...it just wouldn’t be a pretty sight, now would it? Bakersfield had reeked with homophobia for who knows how long. First, because it was a sin. Then because of AIDS. 528
But David didn’t care. He would still love him until the day he would die. In fact, since they had already kissed, whether Reg regretted it or not, he vowed soon to tell him everything. Tell him what he had stole his heart. 529
But little did he know, Reg from then on, would not be able to get David out of his mind...530
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NINE: TREEHOUSE
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Couple of days later... 533
The guys went out for pizza after practice. Because they felt they’ve deserved it. Brian wasn’t with them as he was out with Natalie. But whether they would go second base is not important in this chapter. 534
“I think we should change our sound,” James said, sipping on coke. Rick looked at him, kind of annoyed at the remark. David looked up, wondering why they should even do that. Reggie however looked up at the thought. 535
“But I like the songs we were playing,” Rick replied. 536
“So do I,” David spoke with his mouth full. 537
Reggie sighed. “No, he’s right. We go copying Motley Crüe, and we’re just gonna be another heavy metal band. No, we need some...I dunno...” 538
“Groove?” James inquired. 539
“Yeah! You know I’ve been listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers lately.” 540
“They’re any good?” 541
“They’re different. Half funk, half rock.” 542
James grinned. “Oh, see I like that. How about Faith No More? Have you heard of them?” 543
“Yeah! They’re awesome.” 544
“Where does this lead us?” David asked Reg. 545
“Okay...” Rick spoke. “Look, I admit, when I saw David’s braids I knew we had to be a little different. And yeah, I like Faith No More, too.” 546
“They‘re not fucking braids, I’m making them into dreads!” David banged his fist on the table. 547
“Hello? You gotta put that wax or coconut stuff on your hair and twist. Not braiding and using rubber brains, shit for brains!” 548
See that pissed David off to see the other guys laughing at him. “You know what?!” He shouted, standing up, “Fuck you!” 549
And as he stormed out, James shouted, “Hey! We were just joking!” 550
“I wasn’t joking,” Rick said. “Man, he’s been in a bad mood lately.” 551
Reg rolled his eyes. “I’ll straighten him out. He’s been slacking off lately, so I’m gonna get him to talk so he can actually...you know...DRUM good again.” With that said, he got up and walked outside. 552
David was out smoking when Reggie came out. 553
“All rig—” 554
“What, Reg?” David cut him off, not even looking at him. 555
“...What’s your—” 556
“Why are you here?” David snapped, putting out his cigarette. “Hmm?” 557
Reg sighed exasperatedly. “You know you can stop acting like a bitch!” Although, after what David had been through, he guessed that David had every right to act like that. 558
But then David whirled his head at him, pissed. “You don’t know what I’ve been through!” 559
Reggie scoffed. “Excuse me? I know EXACTLY what you’ve been through because I’ve fucking been there! I swear to god people don’t know how to thank someone!” 560
David scoffed at that. He wasn’t really talking about that night. No, he had oddly enough got over that, because Reg saved him (and kissed him). No, this was about his undying love for him. “I’ve thanked you so many times, Reggie!” 561
Reg walked closer to him. “If I hadn’t saved you there you would’ve been his bitch by now!” 562
“Oh, like you were?” 563
That did it. Reg backhanded him across the face. Hard. Rick and James, who was watching (but couldn’t hear them), saw the whole thing. Their jaws had dropped. 564
Back outside, Reg whispered, “I’m no one’s bitch, David.” He and David (with his hand on his slapped cheek) had glared at each other for a moment when a car pulled up. 565
“Yo dudes!” It was Brian, with Natalie (who simply waved). 566
David turned to him and walked towards him. 567
“Hey David, What’s—” 568
“Take me home,” David muttered in a low voice. 569
Brian didn’t see Reggie slap him. “What do you mean—” 570
David glared at him, his eyes dark and cold. “I said take me the fuck home, Brian! Right now!” 571
Natalie sat there, worried. 572
Brian turned to Reggie, who simply sat there, looking down. “The fuck did you do to him?” 573
“He did nothing!” David shouted. “Ju-Just take me home, please? I-I’m not in a good mood right now. I just need to be home.” 574
Brian, after contemplating what to do, he sighed, “Whatever.” 575
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Reggie lay on his bed, wanting to sleep, but he couldn’t. Why the fuck was David acting this way? I mean, David had always had a temper (like himself), but never like this. It had been awhile since the two had fought at all. But before it would be something less dark than their fight today. Maybe he shouldn’t have slapped David. He would have to apologize for that. 577
In fact, he was going to do that right now. Maybe for some odd reason, he wanted to hear his small puberty-prone voice. Maybe even see him again. See his face, his hair made into single braids, his lips— 578
“Whoa!” Reg said to himself. “No! Get it out!” He ran his hands through his hair, frustrated. Ever since he, for some odd reason, had kissed David, those thoughts would come and he would try to block them out. Because he was not gay. But why did he have the urge to kiss those lips and/or hold him earlier today at the pizza place? He got up and called out, “Can I use the phone in your room?!” to his dad. 579
Who replied, “Whatever!” 580
Reg shrugged. He was probably drinking and watching wrestling, so he didn’t even care. Don’t get him wrong—he loved his old man and they were pals and all. But he needed to stop throwing up all over the place and passing out. Then his mom would stop yelling at Reg for not helping him. Obviously his mom couldn’t handle that anymore so she took the girls (who would still drop by sometimes) and left. 581
He walked to his dad’s room and dialed David’s number. 582
“Hello?!” A very small voice shouted on the phone. Must be Andy. 583
“Hey, kid. Where’s your brother?” 584
“I dunno.” 585
“........” 586
“Andy, who are you talking to?” he heard David. 587
“The boogie man. April fools!” 588
“It’s not April yet! Hello?” 589
“ ‘Sup Davey.” 590
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David nearly dropped the phone when he heard Reggie’s voice. 592
“Look, I just called to say that I’m sorry for slapping you like that.” 593
Reg... David sighed. “No...um...it was my fault I should have said that...you were his...you know...” 594
“What’s wrong, huh? Why are you acting this way?” 595
David looked down. “I dunno.” 596
“Because it’s obvious that you need someone to talk to. So we can get this band up and working again. You gotta listen to the Chili Peppers for inspiration.” 597
How typical. “Is that all you ever think about? Screw you.” He was about to hang up on him. 598
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“Whoa! Wait a fucking minute David!” Reg shouted. “You’re not gonna hang up on me!” 600
“Don’t tell me what I’m not gonna do, Reggie!”601
“That’s it.” He stood up. “I’m coming over to your fucking house!” 602
“No you’re not! I’ll make sure no one lets you in!” David’s voice sounded as if it were breaking. But Reg didn’t care. 603
“Make them.” And he hung up the phone. 604
And he didn’t care if Big Reg was going to use the car tonight. Reg would walk over to David’s house if he had to. 605
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Late night... 607
And he did. He realized that everyone had went to bed for the night. David was probably asleep, too. He sighed and started to turn back. But then he heard the sound of a bass guitar up there in the tree house. He walked up to it and glanced up. He knew that was David, because David at one point was curious about how to play it, and Reggie had lent his first bass guitar to him. A soon as he stepped on the ladder, the music stopped. 608
“Whose there?!” David had called out. 609
Reg answered, being sarcastic. “It’s Romeo.” 610
David slowly peaked out and saw him from above. When Reg saw him, he was surprised to see how David looked. His dark, unbraided, somewhat curly hair shielded his face. He had a serious look on his face and his lips were only half-parted. Somehow that made him look...very sensual. David never looked like that to Reggie before. It was frightening... “Am I your Juliet, then, Reggie?” he asked softly. 611
Whoa! Where did that come from? “What are you talking about? I was fucking joking.” He climbed the rest of the way up and came inside. 612
David simply looked away as Reg sat by him. “Who said I wasn’t joking?” 613
“Nice place.” 614
“My stepdad built it for me and my brother, but only because Mom asked him to. Why are you here?” 615
“I told you I was coming.” 616
“Why?” David looked at him, almost as if he were pleading to him. 617
Reg looked down. “Why won’t you talk to me?” 618
David looked down. “I can’t tell you...” 619
“Why?” 620
“Because I can’t!” 621
“Look, I’ve been there David—” 622
“This has nothing to do with Pete!” David shouted. Might as well tell him, now. He sat down and whispered, “It was...when you kissed me...” 623
Oh god. “Oh. Um...look about that...I...” Reggie sighed trying to think of what to say. “I’m sorry I did that.” 624
David, without even knowing it, had moved closer. “I wasn’t mad...until you told me to forget it happened.” Reggie stared at him, confused. “I could never forget that kiss. I...I’ve always wanted a kiss...from you...” 625
What is he saying? “Whoa...what are you talking about?” He was even more confused. 626
“Remember that letter you got from that girl?” 627
His secret admirer. “David, what the fuck does that have to do with anything?” 628
“Because I wrote it!” David shouted. “I wrote that letter, to you!” 629
It took him awhile to let that sink in. When he finally found his voice, he said, “You were joking around with me by writing some fucking fake love letter. To make me think some girl actually liked me. What’s your fucking point, David?” 630
David couldn’t believe this. He laughed dryly, while tears dropped out of his eyes. “You still don’t fucking get it, do you?” 631
“Get what?!” 632
“That I’m in love with you!” 633
That’s when everything became silent. 634
Reggie stared at him; his jaw dropped, and his eyes wide. He slowly turned away, trying to sink into his head what David just said. “Wait...you...” 635
“I felt this way since the day I’ve met you,” David said, quietly, while Reg continued to stare into deep space... “You don’t know what you’ve done to me, Reggie...” 636
“So you’re a fag,” Reg whispered in a low voice. David looked up at him at that. Reg slowly got up and was about to leave. 637
“Reg...please?” 638
He turned to him and whispered, “Just stay away from me, Dave,” before he climbed down, leaving the completely hurt David behind. 639
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Shondra was just getting a midnight snack before heading back to bed, when someone knocked on the kitchen door. She closed the door and opened the door. There was Reggie, with a gloomy look on his face. “Hey,” he whispered. 641
Next thing either of them knew, there were on a couch in the basement, smothering each other with kisses. Reggie climbed on top of her, ripped open her buttoned shirt and pulled off her panties. In frenzy she took off her bra, and pushed Reg’s head down to her breasts, who was all too happy to bless them with his tongue and mouth. She gasped at his warm mouth and tugged at his hair, wanting him to go down further. 642
But he wouldn’t go down on her. Why do that, when he could just fuck her brains out? 643
He sat up and grabbed her legs. He unzipped and pulled down his pants and boxers. She pulled him down and locked her lips with his again. Her legs were wrapped around his waist. After he was able to put on a condom, he pushed himself inside, causing them both to moan at the feeling. 644
But then he pulled out of her. Before Shondra could say anything, Reggie whispered, “I want you to ride me.” She was all too happy to oblige. So she climbed on top of him and sat on his lap. He took his member and held it up so she can push herself on him. She began riding him, her hands on his shoulders. His hands grabbed her waist so he can push her down and she can pull herself up. Both moaned loudly as she fastened her pace on him. 645
Eventually, she threw her head back, moaning loudly in ecstasy and calling out his name. Reg arched his neck back, on the verge of coming. But as he began moaning ecstatically, he wasn’t calling out her name. 646
Instead, he had to bit his lip to say another name. 647
God...David! 648
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Next Day... 650
651
As the guys prepared for practice, Rick was drinking a bottle of water when he happened to see Reg, with his bass, sulking in his seat worse than usual. Rick went up to him. He knew what was going on... 652
“You slept with her, didn’t ya?” 653
“Huh?” 654
“Like it was that good, that when it was over, you became depressed.” 655
Reggie raised an eyebrow at that. “...no, but we did do it. Why?” 656
David was listening on them the entire time while grabbing his sticks and checking in his drum set. “I think you’re bored. Maybe you and Shondra should try something different.” He had a nonchalant look on his face as he said that. He even smirked. “Like have her use a strap-on so she can do you in the ass.” 657
Rick laughed his ass off. “That’s sick, dude!” Reg, however, stared at him in complete shock and anger. Not only because he was there, looking ever more sensual, but because of what he said. He simply got up. 658
“I gotta use the bathroom.,” he muttered before running off, leaving Rick and James confused, and David feeling guilty... 659
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Guys weren’t supposed to have sexual thoughts about another guy, even if one of them was another’s bitch for some time. And for guys to fall in love with each other...well, that’s even worse, wasn’t it? But he was having these lustful thoughts about David. So much he began hating him. He hated the way David was suddenly torturing him with his glances, his voice, and his looks. Just because he couldn’t love him back. 661
He hated the way that the best sex he ever had, even though it was with Shondra, was because he was thinking about David. God he wanted to taste David’s soft skin right now. 662
“Oh god!” He exclaimed to himself. In frustration, he grabbed his hair. “Stop it, stop it, stop it!” He even resorted to banging his head on the wall, just to get these thoughts out of his head. 663
“What are you doing?” He turned around and saw his older sister Candi staring at him like he was retarded. She and her fiancé (named Chad) came by to visit, after telling the family that she was getting engaged. 664
“Um...I think I’m gonna get dreads,” somehow escaped his lips. 665
Her eyes brightened. “....so are you finally gonna lose that hair metal hair of yours?” 666
“Probably.” 667
“Good,” she smiled. “About time.” 668
“Candi!” It was Chad. 669
She rolled her eyes. “Well, Chad’s calling me.” And at that, she left. Reg began turning on the faucet and began rinsing off his face. Just then... 670
“Reggie?” 671
He looked up, and to his own surprise and horror, David was standing there. He turned away. “What, David?” Reg muttered. 672
David was unsure of what to say at first. Then he spoke, “I’m sorry...” 673
Reg would hear none of it. “You know what? Why don’t you just leave me the fuck alone?” 674
“But...” 675
Reg pushed David out of the bathroom and slammed it on his face. 676
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Couple of nights later... 678
The Arvizu family and Chad (who would be in the family anyway) had decided to have their celebration at a local Japanese restaurant. All night Candi sat there, embarrassed with her mother talked about when her parents were getting married. Big Reg decided to save her and Chad. 679
“Candi doesn’t wanna hear any of that,” he muttered at her. “You’re boring the kids, too.” 680
“I’m not a kid,” Reg muttered. 681
“You sure are short for an adult, dude,” Chad laughed...before Candi hit him in the arm. 682
“I’m short too! In fact Mom and I are shorter than he is.” 683
Their mother sighed, playfully, “I’m sorry, kids for making you short.” 684
The two slowly smiled back. “It’s okay mommy,” Candi hugged her mother. Because short people are the best people, according to their mother. 685
And then Robyn spoke out, “Does that mean Mandi and I are gonna be short, too?” 686
David just happened to be there. His mom suggested that he needed to get a job. So he decided to get a job here. Tonight he had filled up an application and sent it to the manager. 687
“Well, I’ll look at this and call you up,” The man said. 688
David grinned, “All right. See ya!” 689
David turned to leave...when he saw Reggie with his family. And right at that moment, Reggie looked up and saw David staring at him. They both looked at each other, shock. Oh hell no... Reggie thought. Why did he keep appearing everywhere Reggie went? David panicked and ran to the bathroom. 690
“What’s wrong, Reggie?” his mother asked. 691
Reggie stood up. “Um...nothing. I gotta take a piss.” 692
“Reginald!” She scolded at “piss.” The little girls were laughing their heads off. He didn’t even listen to them. He stormed right to the bathroom. 693
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David paced back and forth at the bathroom, wondering how pissed off Reg would be at him. He didn’t expect Reg to be there at the restaurant. Why couldn’t Reggie love him back? Suddenly, the door opened, and there stood an irate Reggie. He stormed toward David, as if he was ready to actually punch him. 695
“What the FUCK are you doing here?!” He shouted. 696
David, on impulse, shouted back, “Me?! What the fuck are you doing here?!” 697
“My family’s here!” 698
“I’m applying for a job!” 699
Suddenly, they heard an “ahem.” A man was using the bathroom, which motioned the young men to talk a little quieter. And since it was about David being in love with Reggie, they would have to whisper. 700
“I didn’t think you’d be here,” David continued, his words barely a whisper. 701
Reg’s face softened, and he looked almost as if he were pleading to David. He whispered, “Why is that everywhere I go, I fucking see you?” 702
“Everywhere I go I see you, Reggie.” 703
“You don’t even realize that everytime I see your face, I lose so much of my sanity!” David’s eyes widened at that. “You drive me so fucking crazy...” He turned away from David. David was shocked to see that he had that much affect on Reggie. Is it possible that he could...? He moved closer to Reg, but he pushed him away. “I’m not in love with you. I don’t want to fall in love with you. And I’m not a fag. And besides, I’m with Shondra.” 704
David spoke angrily, walking closer to him, “Then why do I drive you so fucking crazy, Reggie? I just don’t get it! If you don’t have any feelings for me, then why don’t you fucking move on? Why do you get so upset when you see me?” 705
Reg replied angrily, “You know why?” And then he moved closer so their faces were only inches apart. He whispered in a low voice, still angry, “I want my dick inside you so fucking bad, David...” David’s eyes widened at that remark. His dick inside him?! 706
“You mean...you want to fuck me?” David whispered, very hurt by what Reg had said. “You don’t love me, but you want to have a secret, one-night stand with me?” Somehow that was way worse than just not loving him. Suddenly he became frightened as Reggie continued to glare at him. 707
The sound of the toilet flushing prompted them to end their talk and move away from each other. The old man walked out, staring at the young men uneasily, casually washed and dried his hands, and walked out of the bathroom. 708
All of a sudden, David grabbed hold of Reg, pulled him closer and locked his lips with Reg’s. The alarmed Reggie tried to pull away, but then David’s hands grabbed Reg’s head, he wrapped one of his legs around one of Reggie’s, and he forced his tongue in Reg’s mouth. He soon broke the kiss, and before Reg could say or do anything, David whispered in his ear, “I want your dick inside me, too.” And with that said, he left the bathroom, leaving Reggie completely paralyzed. 709
Despite what Reg had said and despite how frightened he was, David decided that he’d do anything to be near Reggie—even if it meant being his whore. 710
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A Week Later… 712
The next day, after the incident in the bathroom, Rick and Reg convinced a bar manager, to let them play at his steakhouse. They set the date for eleven o’clock at night, a week later. Even though they were excited—that they would finally have an audience, the whole band was afraid. In Bakersfield, the coolest music for adults was country music. Still, they had to come up with five good songs, and come up with the best good lyrics. 713
At the night of their performance, Brian drove them up here; James and Reggie brought their guitar and bass with them. The guys had to tale the amplifiers to the bar the day before. David would use the drum set that was already at the bar. 714
“Are you nervous?” Brian asked. 715
“I think we’re gonna suck,” James muttered. “Not because of our music, but the audience. Why did you guys pick the country club?” 716
“It’s not a country club,” Rick answered. “It’s a steakhouse bar.” 717
“But steakhouses only play country music,” David muttered. 718
“Look, we’ll be all right...” Rick paused. “As long as they don’t hit us with food or glass bottles...” 719
Well, during their first ever show, they weren’t getting hit by glass or food, but they didn’t get much positive feedback, either. Only someone shouting, “GIVE US BACK CRACKER DAN!” 720
Oddly enough, the guys didn’t care. They had fun time playing their songs. Reg joked that at least they weren’t in the Apollo Theater, or else they would’ve been pulled out of the stage. The guys however, had no idea what the heck he was taking about. Some of their peers (Well, it was just Melissa, Brian, and Natalie) were there, applauding. As long as SOMEONE liked them, it was all good. 721
“You guys were totally great,” Melissa smiled, embracing David. “Were you nervous?” 722
“Not really,” he grinned. 723
“Well, those people definitely didn’t like it,” she jerked her thumb at a fat cowboy, using him as an example. 724
“They’re fucking gaywads.” 725
“You guys could even get signed to a record company,” Natalie said, surprised she even blurted out that. 726
David grinned. “You know, you’re right! All we have to do is record a demo.” 727
“You know what we need to do, though?” James began. “We need to find a target audience. And obviously these people aren’t our target audience.” 728
“Our prom’s coming, you know...” Rick said. 729
“And...?” 730
“We can play our music then. I’d like us to play at Highland High, too, but most of the students like pop music.” 731
James scoffed. “You think our school’s any different?!’ 732
“It’s actually worse,” David added. 733
“Why is Reggie sitting by himself, drinking?” Melissa pointed out. “Like, where’s that one girl he’s with?” 734
Rick shook his head. “They split yesterday.” 735
David looked up at that. “They did?” 736
“No wait...SHE left him because of something about getting a career, and that music wasn’t a career,” James said. 737
“Oh, I’m sorry,” was all Melissa could say. 738
David continued to stare at Reg, who was looking completely vulnerable right now. If only he could embrace him; give him soft kisses of comfort; tell him that he’s here for his friend. And if he had to, he would give himself to him. Even if it meant losing his virginity to someone who would throw him away after he was done. 739
Reg sighed, fingering the tip of his bottle of beer. Did he really love Shondra? They had a good relationship. It wasn’t all lovey-dovey like Brian and Natalie’s relationship, nor was it erotic. He did like her, he thought she was hot, and he was so spellbound by the fact that this girl liked him, he declared himself a born-again virgin and “lost it” with her. She supported him up until now and he was happy with her. But since they broke up, he realized that all along there was emptiness in his heart. She wasn’t his true love after all. He liked her but was never in love with her. 740
Suddenly he looked up and glanced at David, who suddenly looked away nervously. He hated him so much, ruining everything—especially his relationship with Shondra (although it was because of him not getting a real job...), all the while wanting to fuck his brains out and taste every last inch of him. And when David attempted to seduce him like that in the bathroom, saying that he wanted to sleep with him...well, he ended up hyperventilating so, that his dad had to help him get better. 741
He needed to leave. 742
“Hey Reggie!” Brian broke him from his dark and forbidden thoughts. “You doing all right?” 743
He looked up at him. “Actually, Brian, I’m not doing all right. I wanna go home.” 744
Brian felt sorry for Reg when he was dumped. Poor guy. “So......you want me to drop you off home, huh?” Reg nodded. Brian smiled. “All right.” 745
David watched as the two guys headed for the door. Brian turned back to the others and said, “I’m dropping off Reg.” And since the others understood about what had happened, they simply let them go. 746
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Two hours later, the rest of them decided to go home, too. Brian and Natalie laughed at Rick, James and David, who were so drunk. Melissa could only think, Men... She turned to David and said, “You better, like, sober up before you get to the house.” David could only grin sheepishly at her, causing her to groan exasperatedly. “I SO give up...” 748
James wrapped his arm around her. “Whadaya say you and me have some fun, huh?” 749
She calmly took his arm off her. “Gag.” 750
“Come on...Jimmy,” Rick slurred. “Can’t you see she wants a real man?” He wrapped his arm around her. “How about it, hon?” 751
“No!” She scoffed and shoved him off. “Gawd.” 752
James said, “We should check on Reg tomorrow.” David looked up at that. 753
“Oh yeah,” Rick agreed. 754
The car stopped at David’s house. “Here you are, man,” Brian muttered. Boy did he want to drink himself silly instead of driving everyone.... 755
A sense of doom took over David. “It’s one in the morning! Mom’s gonna kill me! I promised her I’d be home an hour and a half ago.” 756
“Tip-toe your way in the house. C’mon, I gotta get Natalie home, too.” Brian knew that Natalie lied to her mom (she couldn’t believe that she did that) that she was having a sleepover at he friend Melissa’s house. 757
“See ya man!” Rick slurred. 758
“Bye mothafuckas!” David shouted and grinned, putting a strain on Melissa’s ear. 759
Though he was drunk, he was nowhere near as wasted as James and Rick. So he was able to walk to the house. 760
Only, he decided to stay at the tree house, to wait there until the coast was clear. 761
After he climbed inside, he slumped on one of the lazy-boys and sighed. He felt so guilty about what he had done to Reg. Maybe I’ll talk to him tomorrow, he decided in his head. He sat up and looked for the bass he was practicing with. He turned his head over to one of the corners behind him, and he gasped. 762
You see, Reggie was sitting in one of the dark corners, staring at the bass he was holding, and then back up at David. “Hey there, Juliet,” he simply said. 763
David shocked that Reg was there in his tree house. “Wh-what are you doing here?!” David managed to ask. 764
Reggie looked around the little house. “I don’t even know...” Maybe he just wanted to see him...to tell you the truth, he “somehow ended” up there in the treehouse. 765
David pulled himself together and slowly walked to Reg (who became increasingly uneasy the closer David became) and sat next to him. They both stared at the floor, saying nothing for a few moments. Then, David took a deep breath and whispered, “I’m sorry. For everything.” Reg’s eyes slightly rose at that. “What I did at the bathroom...I don’t know why I did that.” Without even knowing it, David took hold of Reggie’s hand and held it tightly. “I just wish you didn’t hate me, you know. Maybe I should’ve known you’d reject me and stuff.” David’s soft touch was enough to drive Reg toward madness. He took his hand away from David’s and began entwining his fingers with his. Then David took Reg’s hand, brought it up to his face, and touched it with his lips. He didn’t kiss Reggie’s hand—his lips simply touched it. 766
Reg stared at him in complete shock. To him, that was the most erotic thing that anyone has done to him. He whispered, in a low voice, an ultimatum. “You got three seconds to release my hand and run away...” 767
David looked up at that, shocked at that. Reg really would do it to him. But he didn’t care anymore. Putting his fears aside, he shook his head, and kissed one of Reggie’s fingertips, whispering, “I would never run away from you...” 768
And then Reggie pulled David towards him with that hand and locked his lips furiously with David’s. He grabbed his waist and pulled it toward his waist. David then sat on his lap with both Reg’s body between his legs. They gave each other small, but hungry kisses as Reg unbuttoned David’s white shirt. Reggie softly bit at his neck and David gasped at the bite. David whispered in his ear, “I love you...” whose voice excited Reg even more. It made him push David off him, who yelped fell on the floor. Reggie leaned down and David yelped again as he grabbed the rim of David’s pants and pulled that and his underwear off David’s legs. One of his socks and shoes even came with the pants and underwear. David, who was now afraid, could only glance at his pants, boxers, and his shoe and sock, scattered away from him. He felt Reggie grabbing his legs on each side and pulling him closer. 769
The only thing David had on now was a sock, a shoe, and his white shirt. It was unbuttoned so his bare chest was exposed as well. Reg could see David blushing, becoming afraid. He even saw a tear. But he continued to stare down his naked body, mesmerized by it. The only sounds out now were strained breathing, David’s sniffling, and the sounds of the crickets outside. David’s small, pink nipples appeared hard. Reg’s trembling hand reached down and each of his thumbs softly caressed them, making David gasp and look away. Reggie then ran his hand over David’s trembling abdomen and then used both hands to caressed his tender, virgin thighs. Every warm touch brought David closer to breaking. 770
And then Reggie saw David’s erection. 771
It surprised Reg that David was as big as he was. He swallowed hard as its head was staring straight up at him. But Pete’s dick was bigger than this. Sucking it should be a piece of cake. He thumbed the head and David jumped, whimpering. David tried hard to not break down. He was finally going to lose his virginity, but he was giving it to his love, who didn’t love him back. Could things be even more wrong? David whimpered softly as he felt hands caressing the shaft. He could even feel Reg’s own erection. After Reggie slowly took off his shirt, revealing a black Chilli Peppers shirt with the sleeves cut out, David decided to speak first. 772
He looked up at Reggie and all he could say was, “Reggie...” No one said Reg’s name better than David. Not even his family. He took the next step and leaned down on him. They were now face to face. David was so gorgeous to Reggie, that it almost made him guilty that he was going to defile his body. He leaned down and softly kissed David’s lips. David couldn’t decide whether to wrap his arms around him or keep his arms clumped on his chest. “Go...where no person has gone...just do whatever you want to me.” 773
“Sure,” was Reg’s reply. He took David’s arms and wrapped them around his own neck. He went lower and blessed David’s neck with his kisses. He heard David both sigh and whimper at each kiss. He planted soft kisses on his collarbone and on his chest; the soft skin his lips felt was enough to drive Reg crazy. David began to look away again, up at the ceiling. He couldn’t bear to watch Reg kissing his nipples. He trembles and whimpered when Reggie’s lips touched one of them. Reggie stared up at him as his tongue began licking both of the buds. David tried not to cry. He covered his mouth, so he wouldn’t make any noise. Eventually, however, Reg’s warm tongue made him sigh pleasurably (and shamefully). 774
As Reg began to trail kisses down to his stomach, his face caressing David’s skin. David both withered in pleasure and in fear when Reg went lower and lower, knowing what would come next. Reggie gave one last look at David, who still stared up at the ceiling, and then he took him in his mouth. David whimpered loudly as he felt Reggie’s hot mouth on him. So many emotions filled his head. Tears were pouring out of his eyes as he sobbed with fright and pleasure. In fact, he had to grab his two drumsticks that he saw and bite them to keep himself from crying hysterically at what was happening to him. 775
Reg had watched David while trying to swallow him whole. He rubbed David between the thighs to relax him, wanting David to enjoy this as much as he was. 776
They were in their own little world. It was one forty-five in the morning. Was David’s mom up waiting for him? Was Big Reg home passed out or sober, or was he out? Nothing like that was on their minds now.... 777
Reg sucked him off faster and he felt to need to stroke himself off. He began to moan on David as David moaned loudly. His back arched and he needed to hold on to his Reggie, but Reg had to let go of his own erection to pin David’s arms down. David whimpered as if he was actually in pain. As he wrapped his legs around Reggie’s neck Reg had to shift his shoulders so that his upper arms could pin David’s legs down. 778
“Reg! Oh god!” David cried, feeling something tingling down there. 779
Reg, sensing that David would come soon began biting him. David cried in pain and in pleasure. 780
Reg’s eyes widened as he felt small streams of hot salty liquid enter his mouth and down his throat. He slowly took David out of his mouth and wiped his mouth off. He looked up at David. Who was sobbing. This was confusing to Reg. If David didn’t want this, why was he pushing Reg to this? Reggie’s mind was telling him to stop, but that night he listened to his cock and went on. He laid back next to David, who decided to look up at him. To Reg’s surprise, he cupped his face and kissed his forehead. “You’re great,” David whispered. 781
“So are you,” Reggie whispered. “Everything about you...” they kissed again. Reg laid on top of David again. David could hear Reg unzipping his pants. David then turned away in fear. He tried so hard not to cry. Reg had to say it. “Stop pretending you’re not afraid, David.” 782
“I’m not...” And then he gasped. Reg’s erection had touched David’s member. It was so hard... 783
“You like that?” Reggie whispered in his ear, grinding onto him. 784
“Yes!” David moaned. He wrapped his legs around Reg’s waist. 785
“So do I.” As Reggie continue to grind on David, increasing his pace, David could hear a tremble in Reg’s breathing and sighing. 786
“I love you so much...” 787
Reg, who threw his head back, almost moaned at that. He wanted to be inside David. Now. He got up off David and turned him over, which caused David to cry in protest and in fear. David knew exactly what would happen next, because this almost happened before. Now no one would save him. He began to sob violently. Reg glanced down at David’s soft buttocks. His virgin buttocks. They mesmerized Reggie. “So divine,” he whispered, caressing hem. David whimpered at each touch. 788
Then things became even more intense. David felt Reg’s warm mouth on his rear end. “Oh god...” Davis could only choke out. He then felt Reg’s tongue licking the cheeks, which made David struggle to get away. Reg however pinned him down. It was far too late to back down now. “Please...” David pleaded. “I can’t...” 789
“Yes you can David. We’re almost done here.” David soon realized that Reg was putting on a condom. He mentally begged himself to wake up from this. To be back in the bed waking up to a new morning. 790
“You don’t even love me...” 791
For a moment, Reg stopped and looked up at that. It was now or never. Sometimes I wish I could... 792
He grunted as he pushed himself in him. David screamed at the pain. Reg pushed deeper, but more slowly. He wasn’t going to be brutal on David like Pete was on him. He couldn’t help but moan at the tightness. He never felt anything this good. The only thing that was stopping it from getting better was David’s cries of pain. He decided to shut him up by covering his mouth. He then kissed the back of David’s neck and whispered in his ear, “It’s almost over...” 793
With that said, he began moving in and out of David, no longer paying attention to David’s muffled cries. Tears flowed down David’s cheeks as he felt himself being torn open. 794
Reg let out a moan, wanting to increase his pace. David’s cries began to die down, and more whimpering and heavy breathing took place. That motioned Reg to go faster and harder. That made David sob in pain, and he gasped when Reg bit his neck. Reg in fact bit David’s neck to keep himself from moaning out loud. Reg took his hand off of David’s mouths and held on to dear life as he increased his pace. The repeated assault on his spot eventually made David moan and whimper. 795
“David...” Reg could only breathe. “You’re doing great...” David could only cry out. “Oh David…David David David...” Soon it was becoming too much for David, who heard his name being moaned by Reg. He moaned loudly as Reg continued to go faster and harder. Reggie, who by then had sat up with David’s rear in the air, reamed him, hard, his hands clinging on to David’s waist. Reg threw his head back and moaned loudly while David cried. Both bodies, though still somewhat clothes, were glistening in sweat. David’s face was becoming red, stained by his tears. 796
“Gaah!” David cried out. They both felt themselves crumbling. Still Reggie went on, wanting this to go as far as possible, even if it meant, scarring David for life. Soon David began screaming, almost in pure ecstasy. 797
“Oh god!” Reg groaned loudly. Every thrust made their moans louder and higher, and every thrust became harder and faster. 798
David came first. Seconds later, he felt the condom on Reg becoming extremely hot. Reg had come as well. He felt David’s muscles tighten. They both let out quivering groans before Reg laid on top of him. Both said nothing at first, they could only pant and gasp for air. And then as their high left them, David began sobbing. 799
It was over. Finally over. 800
Reg kissed his neck, trying to soothe him. “Shhh...” He began, his voice hoarse. “It’s over...it’s over...” he repeated that several times to David, who cried and sobbed. They laid there in the middle of the treehouse, legs sprawled up everywhere, Reg’s arms wrapped around David from behind. 801
Pretty soon, Reg didn’t know it, but his own eyes began to erect tears. 802
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Reggie had to help David into the house, since he could no longer walk after their sex. He decided to let David walk the rest of the way by himself. Reg didn’t know what to say. What could he say to someone whom he just had sex with? “I guess I’ll see you tomorrow...” David nodded meekly. Reg looked down at David, mesmerized by his features. He cupped his face, leaned down and kissed him. David broke the kiss, saying nothing to Reg, and limped the rest of the way to his room. 804
Reg slowly walked back home. 805
His father was asleep on the couch. Reg slowly walked upstairs, so he wouldn't disturb Big Reg. He quietly shut the door in his room. He leaned on the door. 806
Only then did he begin to cry. Tears poured down his cheeks from his eyes. 807
“Fuck!” he sobbed, walking slowly to the bed. Why did this have to happen? Why couldn’t David stop doing this to him? He felt so guilty? A huge part of Pete was in him in the treehouse. The thing that haunted Reggie even more was David’s blood after he pulled himself out of him. It looked alike like his own blood that washed down the shower drain four to five years ago. 808
Crying, “Oh god!” and “I’m sorry!” He cried himself to sleep, hoping he would never wake up ever again.809
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TEN: TE QUIERO
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A Week Later... 812
A loud whimper filled the entire living room. A low groan and a hush followed. Then a kissing sound. And David’s legs were up in the air. 813
This was their fourth time together. And it still made them feel ashamed. Reg only intended their first time to be a one time thing. However he soon stated having lustful thoughts again. David avoided him at all cost and soon began to hate him during the first two days. David would hang out with Brian or Melissa, Reggie with James and Rick. And then the LAPD (which the band decided to call themselves) and Brian went out for a drinking binge after a show at a high school party (with some surprisingly positive feedback). Rick, James, and Brian left Reg and David in the car to go to some guy’s place. David tried as fast as he could to leave with them, but Reg grabbed him and, after a few words of admitting his lust and after their slapping and struggling, had angry sex with him in the back of Brian’s car. It was so brutal, that David punched him and limped home with blood dripping out of him. Reg had a hard time explaining to the guys why David left. 814
And that was their second time. And it made each of them obsessed with the other to the point that whenever they were alone, even for a minute, Reg would steal a kiss from David, bite his neck, or even taste David’s fingers. David would be powerless to stop him. And they both would cry deep inside. One day, the day before yesterday, Reg told the others that he and David were going somewhere while they were practicing. They left their confused buddies and went down to the basement, way in the back. They had to bite into cloths so the guys wouldn’t hear them. And at that time, it was strictly moans, instead of cries and grunts. They had to wait until David stopped crying and cleaned up his face before going back to the garage. 815
It became an addictive drug to them, and Reg couldn’t understand why he couldn’t stay away from tasting David’s skin or lips and tongue or fucking him. David only went along with it, because he still loved him. 816
Today, it was no different. Only, there was no angriness between them, only Reggie coming into David’s house, begging him to let him fuck David. He begged David not to cry, and he promised that he’d be gentle this time. But David cried right after those words, shut the door, and—since his mom, stepdad, and Andy weren’t there—let Reggie had his way with him on the couch. Reg’s voice was gentler now. He was gentler on David, too. David was on his back with his legs in the air, sobbing in pain as Reggie moved in and out of him. Why did it still hurt? Reg nibbled on his neck, moaning loudly as he moved faster, moaning, “I want you so bad.” David began to cry out now, wrapping his legs around Reg’s neck. Reg’s hands held on to the couch as he was near his climax and David arched his neck, crying out Reg’s name, unable to make up his mind whether to beg him to stop or to beg him to go faster. 817
David came on Reg’s shirt. Reg came inside David soon after. Reg collapsed on top of David, exhausted. David simply laid there, tears falling out of his eyes. After their breathing became less heavy and after the high left them, Reg glanced up at David to see those tears. It almost made him tear up himself. In fact, he had to get off of him. 818
“I gotta use the bathroom,” Reg muttered, his voice hoarse. David tried to keep him from leaving, clinging on to his shirt, but Reg pulled up his pants and simply ran upstairs. 819
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He sat on the toilet seat, wiping his tears. He felt so ashamed, doing this to David, and to himself—because he knew he wasn’t gay. And yet, not only was he becoming addicted to David, but David wasn’t pushing him off. 821
Why? 822
“Why?!” He sobbed to himself, crying out David’s name. He straightened himself up and cleaned up his face. He remembered that he was not in his own home, and he needed to get there. 823
He slowly walked downstairs, and saw David, clothed again. David was lying there, watching television, grabbing the bloodstained towel he had laid on during their sex. His face and eyes were still blotched with tears, but he ceased crying. He just stared at the screen, looking ever so dead inside. Reg sat next to him. But before he could say anything, David muttered in a low voice, “They’ll be home soon, so just leave, please.” Of course Reggie could sense the anger in David. In fact he understood why: because Reg didn’t love David back. Sometimes he wished he were in love with David, and that he or David was a girl. Then it would feel just right. 824
Still he wanted to say something to him. He bit his lip and walked out the door. 825
David made a mental note to wash himself off down there later. 826
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Next Day... 828
“Some Metallica fan trashed LAPD?” Brian asked Rick. David was there, too. They were at the pizzeria, waiting for Reg and James. 829
“Damn straight! He said that Motley Crüe were faggots, and that we just plain sucked because we’re trying to be like Fishbone and they suck too.” 830
“Are you serious?! They can’t be faggots because they fuck girls all the time,” David stated. “And I don’t even know Fishbone.” 831
“That’s what they said. Now I like Metallica and all, but their fans piss me off. And I got the same slack from Slayer fans. And you’ve been living under a rock Dave.” 832
“Stop calling me that.” 833
“Yo!” Reggie called out, causing David to look away. James was with him. 834
“Anything you wanted to talk to us about, Rick?” James sat down. 835
“Yeah,” And Rick repeated to him and Reg about the angry Metallica fan. Only Reggie wasn’t listening. He could only stare at David, who refused to stare back. For some reason, he wanted David to look at him, to acknowledge him. And so, he made an advance on David, taking off one of his shoes and rubbing his foot on the younger boy’s leg. David nearly jumped at that. He glared at Reggie. Why was he torturing him like this? Reg was still stating at him, casually. And then Reggie did something he had never done to David before. 836
Shielding his face from the others, he licked his lips at David. David’s eyes widened in complete horror. He stood up, and ran to the bathroom. Only then did the guys notice that something was wrong. And when David was mad or upset, the guys almost always blamed Reg. 837
“Okay, I don’t know if there’s a rivalry or what going on between you two,” James began, “But could you two fucking stop?!” 838
Reg simply stood up and muttered, “Whatever,” and walked to the bathroom, ignoring the death glare form James. 839
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David backed into the bathroom wall when Reggie entered the bathroom. “Stay away!” David shouted. “I swear to god if you don’t back away right now, I’ll tell everyone everything!” 841
That stopped Reggie right there. Shocked at that comment, he then looked down and replied, “Why didn’t you tell them sooner, David?” 842
David whispered, “What do you mean?” 843
“I don’t care if you do tell them. I don’t even care if they fucking believe you. They always believe you anyway. Put me out of my fucking misery, David.” The words alarmed David. 844
“Then I would lose you,” David said. 845
“So? I deserve it!” 846
“Stop it, Reg! You don’t deserve anything!” He walked closer to him. “What, are you trying to be like Pete or something? Are you punishing yourself?” 847
Reggie glared at David with cold, dark eyes. “Don’t you EVER compare me to him, David.” 848
Before David could respond to that, he was pinned against the wall and his neck was bitten. “Please!” David begged him. He tried to get away, but Reg’s hand grabbed his member, causing him to gasp and moan. Then David was pushed inside one of the bathroom stalls. Reg grabbed his waist and kissed him, almost passionately. David’s hands were on his chest, wanting more. He moaned, “At least pretend that you love me...” 849
Reg stopped what he was doing and looked up at him, stunned by those words. After he was able to find his voice, he whispered, “You want me to lie to you David?” he slowly backed away. “You actually want me to fucking lie to you?” 850
David nodded slowly. “Yes. Whatever it takes to make me happy while you’re doing this to me.” Reggie stood there for a moment. The fact that David was asking him to do this somehow made him sick to his stomach. 851
“Fine.” He leaned down and kissed him again. He unbuttoned David’s shirt and trailed kisses down his neck and chest. And that’s when he whispered in a very low voice, “I love you...” sending chills down David’s spine. In fact, he let out an erotic sigh. When Reg realized the affect that had on David, he decided to continue, tasting his nipples, “I would die for you.” 852
“Oh god...” David moaned. Those words made him feel like he was in heaven as his heart began to beat rapidly. He guided Reg’s hands down to his pants, so Reg could unzip them. Reggie pulled down David’s pants, knelt down, and buried his face on David’s clothed groin. And that alone made David succumb to ecstasy. David grabbed hold to the top of the stalls as Reg fingered his erection. 853
“You’re gorgeous,” He whispered, staring up at him. 854
“You’re gorgeous,” David whispered back. Reggie pulled down the boxers and took him into his mouth. David moaned at the warmth, his hands on Reg’s hair. He looked down on Reg going back and forth on David, and it formed butterflies in David’s stomach. As Reg’s tongue began its assault on the head, David grabbed hold on the stalls and began slowly moving himself in Reg’s mouth. Reg looked up at that and rubbed his thighs, wanting David to move faster. He grabbed hold one of David’s legs and wrapped it around his shoulder. David, in carnal bliss, bit his lips to keep himself from moaning loudly. However, a cry of ecstasy escaped his lips as he thrust himself repeatedly inside Reggie’s mouth, 855
Soon, Reg felt David climax. David let out a shuddering groan before collapsing on the wall. Reg had to keep the panting David from falling on the ground. 856
A minute later, Reg was gargling with water to wash the cum out of his mouth. David slowly emerged from the stall, buttoned up his shirt and pants, and cleaned up his face (Reg saw through the mirror that pretending didn’t solve the problem of David crying at all.). As Reg spit in the sink, he said, “The only reason I’m not fucking you is because I don’t have a rubber on me.” 857
David nodded, “Great,” and ran out the bathroom. 858
Reg stood there, trying to suppress his own tears. This time it wasn’t just because of the shame and guilt he felt anymore. The words he said to David made him feel so different. He felt his heart beat and warm up the entire time. It was almost as if he actually meant what he had said. 859
And that haunted him worse of all. 860
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David and Andy were watching some Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, because Andy loved the Turtles. I mean REALLY loved the Turtles. And David just couldn’t get it. At all. He was bored. Maybe he should call Reggie over. 862
“David!” It was his stepdad from the kitchen. “I need your help.” 863
“GAD!” David stormed to the kitchen. He was NOT in the mood for him right now. He didn’t give a shit if the man was cooking “authentic” sushi. His mother was out at the grocery store. Andy could only look up, confused while eating crackers and watching Leonardo kicking ass. The doorbell rang and Andy ran to get it. 864
When he opened the door and saw Reggie standing out there. He grinned, “Hey, ReggieMonster!” 865
Reg raised and eyebrow at that. “What kind of a name is that, kid?” He asked as he shut the door. 866
“David said that because you were a fusking bustard...what’s a fusking bustard, Reg?” The boy obviously meant, “fucking bastard.” 867
“He is.” 868
“Oh.” 869
Reg looked at the screen. “Aw cool! You like the Turtles too?” 870
“Yeah! Leonardo’s my favorite.” And looked up at Reg. “Are you and David best friends?” Reg looked back, unable to find his words. “Because David acts like he hates you, but you too seem to hang out.” 871
“Really...” 872
Suddenly David returned to the room. And his eyes widened. “Reg!” 873
And Reggie glanced at David. “Hey.” 874
And Andy shouted, “Reg said you’re a fusking bustard!” 875
And David slowly glanced back Reggie, and laughed bitterly. “Oh really?” 876
Reggie continued to stare at him. He replied causally, “Hey. It takes one to know one, right?” 877
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David quietly locked his bedroom door, pulled off his pants and boxers, and led Reg on the bed with him. Reg pulled David close, David between Reg’s legs and Reg’s waist and abdomen between David’s legs. David glanced down at Reg’s pants and said, “Why don’t you take off your pants?” He caressed Reggie’s thighs, and Reggie took the hands off him. 879
“I’m not comfortable exposing myself to others.” 880
“But you had me exposed to you.” 881
“Why am I a bastard to you David?” Reg asked. For some odd reason, that comment upset him. 882
“Because you are,” David replied, quite angrily. “Why the fuck are we even talking? Aren’t you here to fuck me?” He moved closer and planted a kiss on Reg’s neck. Reg got up, turned David over and, as he sat back down, grabbed David from behind with him on his lap. David, surprised, asked, “What are you doing?” He felt Reg’s tongue over his ear and heard his pant unzip. 883
After Reg put on a condom, he whispered, “I’m not gonna fuck you today.” 884
David suddenly struggled to get away. Angrily, he asked, “Then why are you here?” And just to upset David, Reg plunged in quite brutally, making David cry out in pain. 885
To stop David from crying, Reg sucked on one of his earlobes and whispered, “I love you David,” which set them both off in different ways. Reg felt something strange in his stomach, saying those words. Somehow those words felt right, but that scared him. For David, the words cast him into a deep spell. Reg continued, “I just want to be inside you.” And David nodded, still teary-eyed. As they sat there, Reg gazed at David, watching his every move. David was quivering in pain under Reg inside him, and Reggie would feel the sensation of David tightening himself. Despite David making Reg pretend that he loved him, he still felt ashamed. It wasn’t working. 886
“I don’t want to do this with you anymore,” David whispered. 887
“Why?” Reg had to shift one of his legs, which caused him to sigh and David to whimper. 888
“It’s wrong, what we’re doing.” 889
“No it’s not.” 890
“Yes it is,” David whimpered. “Please let me go.” 891
“I’ll die if I let you go.” Reg surprised himself at that. Because, for some odd reason, he meant it. “You’re some kind of a drug to me.” 892
“Is that all I am to you?” 893
Reg slightly turned him around, causing them both to groan at that. But Reggie didn’t care how they felt down there anymore. “David, I thought you wanted to be with me.” 894
“Not like this!” David shouted, tears streaming down his cheeks. “I wanted to be your lover, not your fucking whore!” 895
These words stunned Reg. David was right about one thing; he was becoming like Pete. It was tearing him up inside. “I never wanted to hurt you David...” 896
“Oh shut up! You don’t even care about me!” 897
Why were David’s words hurting him like this? “I do!” He clung on to David as hard as he could. “You’re not leaving me.” 898
“Stop it!” David struggled to get away, crying out at the pain. He didn’t even realize Reg was silently crying his eyes out. 899
Reggie couldn’t figure out what was wrong with himself. Where did, “I do!” or “I thought you wanted to be with me,” or “I’ll die if I let you go,” come from? Why was he crying and clinging on to David, whom he didn’t love. He shouldn’t even care. And yet... 900
They were laid down on the bed and Reg somehow ended up moving in and out of David; both let out choked moans. Reg clamped down on David’s neck, moaning his name as he moved faster. He then sat up, grabbed David’s waist and reamed him. David cried out in shame, pain and pleasure as he was being reamed. He grabbed onto his bed sheets, and cried out Reggie’s name, wanting things to be oh so different, wanting this nightmare to end. And then they climaxed. 901
Reg collapsed on David and wrapped his arms around him. David was too worn out to struggle. He waited for the high to leave him. It took him awhile to realize that he wasn’t the only one sobbing. Reg?! 902
“David?” It was his mother, back from the store, calling from downstairs. And as if on cue, Reg pulled himself out of David, pulled up his pants and ran out, leaving David stunned and confused. 903
What David didn’t know, however was that when they climaxed, Red had breathed out, “I love you,” and meant it. 904
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He loved David. He LOVED him. He. Loved. David. Why was it so wrong? Why it torture him so? Reg stopped his car. In the middle of nowhere. He rested his head on the steering wheel and began to cry. “Oh god...” He couldn’t be a fag, he just couldn’t! What he knew though, was that he wanted to be with David. But after what happened on the bed? David would never accept him now. And besides, if anyone should find out about all this, it would be hell on earth. Jonathan, the son of his dad’s former bandmate, got the wind beat out of him every day just because he LOOKED gay. 906
He wanted to die so badly, to be away from this world. Away from David. “He would probably kill himself if I were dead,” he chuckled bitterly. 907
Suddenly, someone knocked on the car’s window. He looked up. “Mr. Davis?” 908
“Are you okay, Reg?” He asked. “You know boys shouldn’t cry. I tell Jon that everyday.” 909
Reg wiped the tears off his face and eyes and rolled down the window. “Hi, Mr. Davis,” He smiled lightly. 910
“Call me Rick. Just here trying to teach Jon how to be a real man. See we’re camping.” Reg nodded. “Jon’s by the fire. I gotta get some stuff, so tell him I’ll be back. And we can talk about whatever’s the problem.” 911
“Sure,” And at that he walked over to where Jon was at, throwing sticks in the fire. Bored. One thing that shocked Jon was how freaking tall he had become. “Hey, crazy weirdo.” 912
Jonathan, who was seventeen, looked up in dismay. The two never got along despite their dads. Even when Reg’s mom babysat him. When they were little, Reggie ran the poor boy over with a three-wheeler. Reg still thought that was funny. Or that time when, as an infant, Jon hit Big Reg when he was in serious pain from teething and pulled on Reggie’s hair. Okay, so that last part wasn’t funny to him. So Reg had pretty much bullied him through early adolescence. You’d think Reg would be more sympathetic. What, with the hell Jon went through all his life. His evil bitch of a stepmother, the bullying, the endless switching around from parent to parent to grandparent (He would soon move in back to his mom and half-brother), or being raped was a child... 913
“So why are you here?” Jon asked him, not that he cared. 914
“I just came upon this place,” Reg muttered. ‘You got any food here?” 915
“Not for you.” Reg took a piece of marshmallow anyway. Jon happened to glance at Reg, whose eyes were blotched. “Looks like you’re not so tough after all.” 916
Reggie slowly turned to Jonathan at that remark. “Excuse me?” 917
“You were crying.” How could Reg deny that? “Don’t tell me you’re freaking lovesick or something—” 918
“I am.” Reg muttered. 919
“She must be beautiful...” Jon said, staring into the fire. 920
He’s fucking gorgeous. “She is.” 921
“So? What the hell are you afraid of?” Jon said. “Tell her how you fucking feel.” 922
“She’s in love with me.” 923
“That’s shouldn’t be a problem, then.” 924
“But I told her I didn’t feel that way for her.” 925
Jon glanced at him. “And you love her now?” Reg nodded. “Well, then you better tell her how you feel before it’s too late and she finds someone else.” 926
Reg’s eyes widened. David could actually go out with someone else—even another guy. He sighed, “It’s not that easy.” 927
“It’s not like you’re gay or anything.” Reg whirled his head at him at that. “Write her some dumb love letter or something and stop bitchin’ at me about it.” 928
Reg soon realized that he was right, despite all the harsh words Jon said. He needed to tell David everything. At that moment, he didn’t care what he was in regards to his sexuality anymore. He wanted to be with David. “Thanks,” and he ran off. 929
Jon, surprised, asked. “Where are you going?” 930
“To tell her how I feel,” Reg grinned. The first time he ever grinned in a while. “Tell Rick I’ll heading home.” 931
Jonathan rolled his eyes. “Whatever.” 932
David’s house... 933
“I’m sorry, Reg, but David went out with, Melissa,” his mom said. “He’ll be at your house for practice tomorrow, right?” 934
Reg nodded, his hopes crushed. “Thanks,” And at that he left. She said he was with that Melissa girl. Was it too late already? 935
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David saw Brian sulking at a chair in the garage early next evening. He sat by him, “You look like shit. What’s up, man?” 937
Brian sighed, “It’s over between Natalie and me.” 938
David’s eyes widened and the others turned over to Brian. “What the hell?! You two broke up?!” 939
“Dude!” James sat by him. “Now I thought you two would last.” 940
“We didn’t break up,” Brian replied, “her dad did. Said he didn’t want his daughter around some drugged out, long-haired rocker.” He turned to his buddies. “Do I look like a fucking drugged out rocker?!” 941
“Yeah, a little,” Reg replied, before receiving a slap on the head from Rick. 942
James shrugged. “We ALL look like drugged out rockers. Except for David. He just looks like a chick rocker.” 943
“The fuck is that’s supposed to mean, James?” David gave him a death glare. 944
James waved his arms defensively. “Hey! I was joking! Man, you are angry!” 945
David sulked down. “I haven’t had a good couple of days.” 946
“Wanna talk about it?” 947
“No. Let’s cheer up Brian.” He turned to Brian and said, “All dads are like that with their daughters. I mean, my dad won’t let my older sisters date until each of them are eighteen.” 948
“They’re over eighteen, now, right?” Brian muttered. 949
“Yeah, but I still remember.” 950
“Well, anyway, they’re moving her to a private school—in ARIZONA!” 951
“Damn...” Rick could only say... 952
Brian buried his head in his palms. “Why does love fucking hurt?” 953
David’s eyes softened at that. “I dunno...” 954
“I mean,” he turned to David, “Do you feel that you and Melissa would—” 955
“Huh?!” David nearly choked. “I told you all she and I are just friends!” And besides, she likes girls... 956
Brian smirked, “Sure you are. And I’m Jesus Christ.” 957
“Come on, David. She is HOT! You’re not hitting that?!” James exclaimed. 958
“I gotta take a piss, excuse me,” Reggie muttered and walked out of the garage. 959
Rick glanced at Reggie and then frowned. “Oh...yeah...” he spoke. “Forgot about that.” 960
“We should go,” James said, glancing at the clock. 961
“Yep. You coming, Dave?” 962
“No, I’ll stay here,” David answered. He really wanted to talk to Reggie. Last night, while hanging out with Melissa, all he could think about was their argument and the sobbing from Reggie. “I have to talk to Reg about some shit.” 963
“Dude, don’t have him kill you,” Brian warned. 964
David laughed a little at that. 965
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Reggie slowly walked back to the garage. He then heard drumming to “True,” by Spandau Ballet. He opened up the door and the only person he saw there was David, practicing his drumming. David then looked up and saw Reg. And slowly he stopped. “Hi, Reggie,” David said almost timidly, setting the sticks down. 967
“Where’s everyone?” Reg whispered, not taking his eyes off David. 968
David looked around and sighed. “They left.” 969
Reg slowly shut the door and walked closer. “Why are you still here, then?” 970
“Because I wanted to talk to you.” 971
Reggie let out a dry laugh. “I thought you didn’t want anything to do with me anymore, you know? I thought you hate me, man.” 972
David’s eyes widened at that. He was stunned that Reg would believe such a thing. “I would never hate you, Reggie...” David then continued, “Do I make you that miserable and fucked up that you have to cry?” Reg looked up at that, shocked. He saw him?! “You haven’t been trying to kill yourself, have you?” 973
“I wanted to.” 974
David sat there, shocked at that. “I’m sorry that I make you want to kill yourself. But...” tears began to fall out of his eyes as he stood up. “I can’t give myself to you anymore, Reggie. Not if you don’t love me back. I would rather live alone than be a whore to you.” There, he said it. If Reg didn’t return his feelings to him, he’ll just be alone. In fact, he would kill himself as well. 975
Reggie stood up and walked closer to him. You don’t have to be alone any longer, David. He handed him a letter. 976
David, puzzled, asked, “What’s this?” 977
“Just read it,” and then he walked away. Someone was on the phone. Good thing too, because he couldn’t bear to stand there while David read this letter. 978
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At the living room, Reggie answered, “Hello? Hey dad. You’ll be back tomorrow?” Reg sighed. Big Reg’ll probably be drinking. He didn’t notice David emerging from the garage with the letter in his hand, looking distraught. “All right, see you in the morning. Bye.” 980
No sooner did Reg hung up when David spoke, in a very high voice. “What does tay kair-o mean, Reggie?” He actually meant, te quiero. 981
Reg slowly turned to him. “It’s tay ke-yair-o. It’s um...Spanish.” He couldn’t bear to look at the love of his life. 982
David slowly looked at the letter. A love letter. Then he glanced back up at Reg, tears falling out of his eyes. He whispered, “You couldn’t tell me that you love me in English Reggie?” Without even knowing, he crumpled the paper in his hand. “Why can’t you just say ‘I love you,’ to my face Reg?! Instead of writing ‘I love you’ in fucking Spanish! You’re a coward!!” In anger (because he certainly wouldn’t have done it otherwise), he threw the balled up letter at Reg and ran out, sobbing. 983
And Reggie simply stood there, stunned and paralyzed. 984
Outside... 985
David ran out the house and sat by the garage. Wiping his tears away, he immediately regretted doing that to him. He should’ve been happy. And in reality, he was. But why did Reg had to WRITE to him that he loved him, and writing it as te quiero? But then again, he did the same thing to Reg, even writing je t’aime, which was French, thanks to Melissa, but back then Reg didn’t know who that letter came from. David then knew that it wasn’t Reg’s fault. 986
Maybe what had happened to Reg caused him to be so afraid of real love (Shondra didn’t count), because no one had ever REALLY loved him before. That and his being afraid of the fact that he could be gay. He stood up and glanced up at the window of Reg’s room, the only room with a light on besides the garage. All these feelings were new to his Reggie. Hopefully the door wasn’t locked. And God forbid Reg done anything to himself. 987
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He swallowed hard and slowly opened the door to Reg’s now dark room. He had been in there before, with him and James, looking at the posters he had on the walls. Motley Cure were there, a made up poster of Ragtyme, the Chilli Peppers and Faith No More... 989
Reg was lying on the bed, facing the wall. Without even looking, Reggie muttered in a low voice, “What do you want, David?” 990
Now that they both know how they felt about each other, what could David say? “I’m sorry...” he said, his voice breaking. 991
Reg, still facing the wall, replied, “Well, I’m not.” 992
David had the wrinkled letter in his hand. “We both treated our love for each other like shit.” 993
“And now we’re even, right?” He didn’t notice David taking off his pants and boxers. He felt the weight of the bed shift. “What are you doing?” And then he felt a gentle hand touch his cheek. He pushed the hand away. “Go away, David!” 994
David, hurt, replied, “I’ll never let you go, Reg! You said you would die without me. Well, I’d die without you. I love you!” And he managed to grab Reg’s shoulders, turn him around, and kiss him. It was then that Reggie began to form tears. He refused to look at David. “I want to make love to you,” David whispered. 995
Reg finally looked at him at that, wide-eyed. “M-Make love?’ 996
David nodded. He climbed on top of Reg and sat on his lap. 997
Reggie looked away. “I can’t make love to you, David...” 998
“Why?” 999
“I’ve never made love to anyone, David...no one made love to me.” Again Shondra didn’t count. What he felt for her wasn’t real love. 1000
David studied Reggie’s features, wiping the tears away. “He fucked you up so bad, man.” He meant Pete. “He made you so confused.” He leaned down and brushed his lips against Reg’s. “I never made love to anyone either, but I know who I love, Reg. And I’m not ashamed.” And he never cared what anyone thought of his sexuality either. “Making love is like sex, but it’s with someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.” He began unbuttoning his own shirt. “Do you want to spend the rest of your life with me?” 1001
“Yes,” Reg answered, without hesitation. He stared in awe at David, now completely nude. He could feel himself getting hard, and David gasped when he felt it. David’s hands began to go under Reggie’s shirt. And that’s when Reg panicked. “I-I can’t...” 1002
“But I want to see you...” He leaned down, opened his mouth and dipped his tongue inside Reg’s mouth. Their lips never touched. “I want to see what you’ve been hiding from me...” Reggie looked away, closing his eyes. His heart began to beat rapidly as David grabbed Reg’s shirt and managed to pulled it off. David never saw Reg afraid of anything before. He glanced down at Reg’s bare chest, his dark pink nipples, his VERY slight flabby stomach. There were no traces of muscles, and the flabbiness was barely recognizable. David caressed every inch of Reg’s bare upper body. He smiled faintly. “You’re not fat, Reg.” 1003
“I know.” 1004
“So why are you embarrassed?” 1005
“Pete’s the only other person I exposed myself to.” 1006
David nodded. “Relax...” His fingers began to tickle Reg’s abdomen, making Reg sigh. He leaned down and kissed him passionately, David’s arms around Reg’s neck, Reg’s hands rubbing on David’s thighs. David sucked on one of the earlobes and tasted his neck, even biting it, causing Reg to gasp. He went lower and planted kisses on his chest and nipples, and he felt Reg’s hand on his head, meaning that he was doing great. And then he reached Reg’s abdomen, where Reg’s pants were in his way. He then decided to get up and unzipped Reg’s pants. He knew Reggie was becoming uncomfortable. He then sat on his lap again—this time his back facing Reg. He then slowly pushed the pants off. 1007
“We shouldn’t do this,” Reg whispered. He could feel cold hair hitting his now bare legs. Then he felt David grabbing the hem of his boxers. “You’re not gonna go down on me, are you?” 1008
“Why shouldn’t I?” David asked him, turning back to him. “I’ve never gone down on another guy before. Or on a girl either.” 1009
Reggie looked up at the ceiling. “Cum tastes bad.” 1010
“Don’t worry about me, Reggie. Do you trust me?” 1011
“Do you trust me?” David nodded. “Well, then, why shouldn’t I trust you, David?” He sat up and kissed David on the cheek before lying back down. David slowly pushed the boxers off, revealing Reg’s erection. David stared at it with awe, caressing it with a finger, making Reg sigh pleasurably. 1012
“It’s beautiful, Reggie,” David whispered, unaware that he had just made Reg blush. He could sense David being a little nervous about doing this, so he caressed his thighs, trusting him as he said he would. David slowly shifted himself, laying down on Reg. Since David’s back was facing Reg, Reggie couldn’t really see exactly what David was doing. “I’m going to love you as no one loved you before...” 1013
And then, he felt David’s hot mouth. He let out a quivering sigh as he felt David’s lips assaulting the head. David went further down, swallowing Reg whole. He soon began to suck him off, licking him in the process. Reggie soon let out a low moan, which set David off. David, realizing that Reg was really enjoying this, soon began to take it to the next level. Remembering what Reg did to him. He went up down on Reg with his mouth, making Reg moan while holding on to the head of his bed. He looked up at David, but all he could see was David’s rear end, his testicles, and his legs. 1014
David gasped as he felt Reg’s tongue under one of his testicles. His hand moved down to his own erection and moved it toward Reg so Reg could have access to it. His mouth never left Reg. He let out a muffled moan as Reg moaned on David. Soon, David began slowly thrusting in Reg’s mouth while he moved up and down on Reggie. They both began to let out very erotic moans on each other. Reg felt tingling down there. His back arched despite David on top of him. He wanted to warn David that he was going to come. But he didn’t want to stop tasting David either. 1015
Finally, when Reggie finally came, David almost choked at the on Reg’s cum that streamed right down to his throat. He let out a whimper at that, and then he sat up and thrust even harder in Reg’s mouth, about to have a mind-blowing orgasm as the bed squeaked. “Oh god!” David shouted in ecstasy. And then David climaxed. And he was pushed off. Before he could do anything, Reg was on top of him, wrapping David’s legs around his waist. 1016
“I wanna make love to you now,” Reg whispered. He thrust his tongue in David’s mouth, setting them both off. David arched his back so his member could have more contact with Reggie’s. Reg took that as a sign, sat up on his knees, pulled David’s waist closer so that their groins touched and began to grind slowly on him. They both let out erotic sighs as David thrust harder on Reg. 1017
“Faster,” David breathed. He began to lie down so their genitals had even more contact with each other. His back arched as Reg grinded faster on David and as David began to actually gyrate on Reg. They moaned loudly at the feeling, and thing became more intense when their members were rock hard. They decided to switch back to the head of the bed with David on top. David then began grinding and gyrating on Reg, more slowly now. “I love you, Reggie,” David moaned. 1018
And Reg, who was seconds short of crumbling, whispered, “Love you too baby.” Their nude bodies glistened as they grinded on each other, making the bed squeak slightly. Reg was able to opened up the nightstand drawer beside the bed, and pull out a condom. David leaned down and tore it open with his teeth. He didn’t want to get off Reggie, but hesitantly did so anyway so Reg could put the rubber on. David lay on his back and began rubbing himself while Reg put on his condom. David held his legs up to his chest and pulled Reggie down to him. “You’re gorgeous,” Reg whispered. 1019
“Thank you.” And then Reg pushed himself inside. David whimpered at the pressure and held on to Reg, while Reg groaned from the tightness. “God!” David breathed out before Reggie started to move in and out of him. David moaned as he felt Reg’s body rubbing against his erection. He held on to Reg’s shoulders, his nails clawing on Reg’s sweaty back, causing Reg himself to moan. Reggie was in heaven. For the first time he never felt any guilt or shame seeping with anyone. He began to thrust in David. “Aaagh!” David shouted in pleasure, his hands now hanging onto the head of the bed, his legs wrapped around Reggie’s neck. 1020
Reg’s hands were on there two, hanging for dear life as he thrust faster. 1021
“Harder!” David moaned, his neck arching. 1022
“Harder?” Reg breathed. David nodded. And then Reg began to thrust deep, no longer holding himself back. David began to scream as the bed squeaked faster. The head of the bed even began to hit the wall repeatedly. Reg moaned loudly as he sat up and grabbed hold to David’s waist, thrusting him faster. Both were nearing climax, but neither of them wanted this to end. Both of them were in their own little world, only thinking and wanting each other. The room filled with cries of ecstasy, becoming louder and higher in tone. Their bodies glistened in sweat as Reg began to thrust deeper and deeper into David, almost making him cry in pain. But David no longer cared. This guy on top of him loved him, and loved him back. 1023
They let out their last cries of ecstasy before their climax. Reg collapsed on David. Both breathed and panted heavily, still letting out quivering moans. They were so worn out, neither of them could move. 1024
They were so worn out from their lovemaking, that they quickly drifted into a deep sleep. 1025
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David quietly woke up first the next morning, the sun shining on him. He looked up at his surroundings. He wasn’t in his room. He then heard soft breathing. Reggie was there, sleeping like a baby. It wasn’t a dream after all. He was actually waking up to Reggie. Not only that, but Reg must have woken up in the middle of the nights and pulled the covers on them both. He slowly moved over next to him and kissed his forehead. He looked up and saw Reggie’s letter on the nightstand. He slowly reached over Reggie for it and began reading it. 1027
Dear David, 1028
There’s no easy way to say this. You haunt my thoughts and my heart every fucking day. I want you so badly. No, it’s more than that. 1029
I still have your letter for me (And I’ll never throw it away. Ever). You said you would die for me. Well, David, I would die for you. I’ll never let you go, even if it means hurting you. I’ll make you happy. I’ll give you whatever you want. Just please...don’t fucking ever stop loving me. And if I ever break your heart, just fucking kill me. 1030
Te Quiero, David. From now on, I only say these words in English. You’ll be hearing me say it and meant it from now on. 1031
Reg Arvizu 1032
Tears began to form in David’s eyes as he read it. “I mean it.” David looked down and saw Reg, who woke up. 1033
“Reggie...” 1034
“I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” 1035
David nodded. “So do I.” 1036
Reggie looked at the ceiling. “My letter isn’t as good as yours. Sorry about that.” 1037
“Yes it is. It’s better. You know, yours is more straightforward. Melissa helped me out on the writing, you know, because I was nervous. But I meant it, Reg.” 1038
Reg sighed and began to look anxious. “I still don’t want everyone to know, man.” 1039
“We don’t have to let everyone know, Reg. I’m nervous too, you know. We can be secretive if you want.” 1040
“Thank you,” Reg whispered, caressing David’s cheek. 1041
David then sat up. “Your dad should be back soon, right? We should get dressed.” 1042
But Reg guided him back, surprising David a little. “We can get dressed when he’s here. Stay with me David.” They wrapped their arms around each other and kissed passionately. 1043
“Love you Reggie.” 1044
“Love you too baby.” 1045
The two indeed planted kisses all over each other until Big Reg showed up later that morning. 1046
And little did they know, that by the year 2006, they would still have those letters with them.1047
Will I ever get past chapter 13?!!!!
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Woo! Great write! I love this story. Can't wait for more. ^-^
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