A letter

Dear Jason,1

I thank you very much for this four months that I had the pleasure of living with you. It’s been a wonderful experience living with you and finding out small parts of information about you. I’m sorry that because I moved in with you that things between you and mum have gone wrong. It’s also been interesting going out with you and actually having some fun.2

I have noticed that you are strong yet caring. You have gotten through Kyle being taken very well. Better then most people. You are strong in the mind even if you don’t think you are. I’m sorry for the fact that I cannot help you in anyway what so ever. I feel more of a pain and trouble being around you. I enjoy your company and you are caring. 3

You hide everything about how you feel so well that at times it’s hard to even talk to you. I do understand some of how you feel, but not all of it. You had both your children taken from you and it’s understandable as to why you are worried about Kyle since sandy turned out the way she did. I don’t think Kyle will be like that because he’s a little older and he knows what his mother is like and he does know that you love him. When I looked after him he would always tell me stories about what you would do with him and most of his stories at school were about you or his sister (if he saw her). He spoke about you more and more in the days before he was taken. He hardly spoke anything good about his mother, unless he was in trouble with you.4

Sometimes I don’t understand you. You are like a hard puzzle to put together. At times it would maybe help you to tell people what you are thinking about, what keeps you awake at nights and what you are feeling. I know that it cannot help but it can help others to understand what you are feeling and going through. You seem lost. I don’t think that you will ever start talking about what’s on your mind.5

I do think that you will meet someone that you can settle down with though. You are a wonderful person to be around and will miss you. You are upbeat and take me places even though you don’t have to. During the time that I’ve spent with you I’ve gone out more than I ever had in my whole life, which is great for my mind. 6

One thing though. You need to start to speak about how you feel and what you think about, even though the person listening may not be able to help them at least then know what you are feeling. It’s easier to relate that way to a person. 7

Anyway thank you for letting me stay with you, letting me have some fun for a little while.8

Take care of yourself, you have a strong mind yet mostly troubled. Keep it up; you have people behind you that do care even if you don’t think they do9