Breaking Point (Poem)

Sometimes it hurts so bad you wonder if it will ever end1

You wonder if tomorrow will ever come2

If maybe, just maybe, it might be better3

And you tell yourself it has to be4

Because nothing could be worse than today5

Still, an annoying little voice in your head whispers:6

'It isn't possible to survive this7

That just wouldn't be fair8

There is no light at the end of the tunnel9

Just pitch dark all consuming black'10

But you ignore it11

And remind yourself:12

Tomorrow you will smile again, and everything will be good13

And damned if sometimes the lie hurts more than the truth14

You wish someone would notice15

That someone, anyone, would finally see16

See that you are dying piece by piece inside17

That your smile isn't quite right18

That your laugh is a little off19

You wish that they would hear you20

But they don't21

Because really, you're invisible22

You're in the middle of a crowd23

And you swear you're screaming24

“Help! I'm breaking!”25

“I need you! Please fix me!”26

But everyone goes on with their lives27

And the world continues a little to easily without you28

Leaving you behind with your pain, wishing for the numbness29

All the while cursing how damn human you are30

And even those who are closest to you31

Are overwhealmed by your silence32

They don't hear anything33

Because they're not really listening 34

It hurts so bad, you wish no-one was there35

So you could just break in the open36

They don't see it anyway, you think bitterly37

And your mask is starting to slip38

But you don't want to expose to the world how weak and broken and fragile you really are39

Even though now, thats all you've become40

Because you hold onto the scrap of dignity you still have41

And figure they wouldn't care anyway42

And even as you say ityou're so patheitc43

So you pretend you're fine44

That you are perfectly happy45

And love your life46

That everything is fine47

But it isn't48

You silently wish someone would rescue you49

Ride in on their noble white horse50

And take you away51

Teach you how to smile again,52

How to be happy53

Because you aren't sure how much longer you can take it:54

It can't be long before you break55

And it's worse because you know nobody is coming56

That the horse is asleep in it's stable57

And the knight is safe is his castle58

Because nobody sees that you're breaking59

Slowly; painfully; piece by piece60

Crying and screaming and yelling for help61

But alone and silent in the crowd62

So all you can do is promise yourself:63

'Tomorrow will be better'64

And try desperately to believe it

Author notes

This is a really old poem, and yes I became a hypocrite by posting it on SW instead of AP, but the only reason it is here at all is because I figured I'd enter it in the depressing poetry contest. If you have read my story Breaking Point, it will have a familiar ring.

I almost snicker, reading back through it. How different my writing is now

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  • Walking Oxymoron
    October 5

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    I liked that...
    Now heading over to AP to check out sumya stuff.

    May even add you...
    Loved yours stories,.. (gotta read the rest.)
    Can I add you? Is that ok?


  • kitty ROSE
    April 26

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    Beautiful. I couldn't have told it any better than that. I used to feel that way, OMG, and seriously. It IS dark poetry. I love it. whats ap, btw? wait, its SW sister site, write? haha lol, i mean right


  • RxxSpiritWolfxxJ gold member
    April 26
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    Whoops, forgot these ...


  • RxxSpiritWolfxxJ gold member
    April 26

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    Bit long .. but well written. You were still good back then - better now, I might say.
    Kepp up the good job.


    • Paragonz Shadow
      April 26
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      I'm glad I've improved.

      Reading back over it I noticed you're right - it is a little long. Maybe when I have the time and inclination I'll fix that


  • SnowFlakeWolf Greeters member
    April 25

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    This is really good. ^^ Thank you for entering. ^^ I post all my poems here anyways. lol. i don't use AP for much. ^^ i wish u luck in the contest. ^^

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