Taylor Renee's Book of Poems! [You Don't Have To Read Them All! xD]

A NUMB, BLEEDING HEART1

I was always loving you;
I said hold me, never let go,
Until I flew to somewhere new;
I wish now you’d have said no2

Don't say a word, not even one;
Just shush, walk away
Impossible as a midnight sun,
Love starts with the first ray3

I’ve given all I had to give…
Now I’ve nothing left to lose
With this, no more can I live;
Done, my heart’s bloodily bruised4

Before my heart was locked,
With the key nowhere to be found,
But in your hands – then I was shocked;
I needed you to expound5

The key was what you used to cut,
And my heart was left in strips
Lock did not meet key; it stayed shut,
Rusted my heart where it still drips6

But no longer do I feel the hurt,
The ruby tears fall in vain,
Disregarded on the white shirt,
My heart’s permanent bloodstain7

Forgetting the depression and the cries,
I’ve almost forgotten you
Love’s nothing but pain, sorrow; lies:
All that’s left on my heart - a red tattoo8

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AMID HER FEARS SHE FOUND LOVE10

It was a dark and stormy night
She was scared of the coming light11

Daytime was a horror
She liked the dark so much more
She couldn't stand the sun
Into her soul it did bore12

It was a dark and stormy night
But at least for now, she was alright13

For now, right now, it was always now
She couldn't stand the coming day
She didn't want the loneliness or the sorrow
The world saying she wasn't okay14

It was a dark and stormy night
And she was hoping the monsters would bite15

She didn't want to go through the day
Alone and lonely, just one
And as she fell asleep and dreamt
She wished the night would never be done16

Then away went the dark and stormy night
And out came the dreaded light17

Forever she lived, it seemed
Always dreading the light
Until that one day
She was taught to fight18

How to fight the fear
And how to fight the dread
And finally learn to listen
If only to what he said19

This boy, so sweet
Made everything alright
This boy, so sweet
Taught her to fight20

Fight, not the light
But the sadness21

Fight, not only for herself
But for her happiness22

This boy, so sweet
Her one true love
Turned this pigeon
Into a beautiful dove23

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ARE YOU WITH ME?25

My eyes are finally opening,
As my demise is getting nearer.26

And I start to see,
This isn't what,
I want to be.27


So I'm a different person now,
And I couldn't be more happy.28

I've finally found my way,
I see now everything'll be okay,
Because it doesn't matter what people say,
I have finally found my way.29

I know what I'll do,
...And I'll do it alone if I have to.
But even if it is me and you,
I know this is what I want to do.30

There's no looking back,
I'm putting my life on track,
It seems for wrongs I have a knack,
But I'm putting my life back on track,
There is no more looking back.31

Will you join me?
Or will you leave me?32

The choice's yours my dear,
But I'd love to have you here.
I'd love to have you here,
Because I have no more fears,
And I cry no more tears.33

So let me know you're listening, at least,
Tell me, do you hear me? Do you?
Because I've found my way; I have it,
And I'd love to have you, too.34

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AUTUMN WITH YOU36

Autumn, how pretty
In sight and in sound
We love to hear and see
Grand leaves fall to the ground37

Autumn, how lovely
To watch and to hear
Especially, my friend
When I have you near38

Autumn, how merry
To our ears and our eyes
But, when we have fun in the fall
My darling, the time flies39

Autumn, so sweet
As I hear and see
Makes me almost as happy
As when you're with me 40

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BEST FRIENDS42

"Niko! Come on! Let's go play!
We'll play in the park- Let's go Nickolae!"43

"Yeah, Carrie, we can play in the sun,
We always have so much fun, fun, fun!"44

Best friends forever we'd always be,
Together forever: you and me.
Day after day, year after year,
My favorite times were when you were here. 45

Then of course came our very first fight,
Both of us throwing mean words out of spite,
But somehow it lasted only one lonely night,
And we learned and agreed we could both be right46

Then my feelings for you grew,
Into more than just my number two,
I was always, always thinking of you,
Praying you were thinking of me too.47

So I told how my stolen heart had you to blame,
And was amazed to hear you felt the same,
When you leant in to me, I felt my heart go lame,
Then you bent to my ear, you whispered my name...48

Together forever, me and you,
Best friends forever, and lovers too. 49

50

BURNING RAINBOWS51

This place is so awful,
Burning flames ever so warm,
But even here, eventually,
A rainbow comes after the storm 52

53

DREAMING54

I dreamt I was a flower,
In the middle of a valley,
Blossoming, flowering,
Beautifully
♥
I dreamt I was the waves,
In the middle of the sea,
Dancing, racing,
Splendidly
♥
I dreamt I was the moon,
High up in the dark night,
Lightening, illuminating,
Magically
♥
I dreamt I was the wind,
Everywhere in the world,
Churning, blowing
Endlessly
♥
I dreamt I was a baby,
In a big, warm blanket,
Crying, needing,
Naturally
♥
I dreamt I was a mother,
In the hearts of all my children,
Helping, protecting,
Lovingly55


EMOTIONLESS56

His face is a blank sheet of paper,
I can't read what isn't there
He has no hint of expression,
And me, he's starting to scare57

His face is a blank sheet of paper,
And I cannot bare to see,
Because that look of apathy,
Is slowly killing me58

So I turn my head,
To hide the tears
So I turn my head,
To hide my fears59

He's no longer happy,
He's no longer sad,
He's no longer anything,
Calm, sweet or mad60

I used to love his feelings,
That could go any which way,
They always were so captivating,
Different as night and day61

But now his face is emotionless,
I turn my back on it
As I wipe my eyes and walk away,
Onto the coffin the lid fits62

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SHE'S JUST A GIRL64

This place was an indigestible one
in her eyes
She was a shatterable butterfly
in it's eyes65

Wimper,
she would,
when left forlorn66

She needed certainty
And she needed somebody67

She needed consoling
And she needed subscription68

Whispered promises in her ear69

Needed a hand to soothe her hair
And needed someone by her side 70

An assisting palm71

Needed persistence to make
It through to the ending light72

She needed contemplation
She needed consideration73

Needed to be perceived
And needed to be known74

…This girl needed to be loved75

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JUST BELIEVE77

Life is like a river,
And the water is your life
You must avoid the falls,
Like a victim avoiding a knife78

Your life is the water flowing,
Every minute, every day, every year
You have to keep it going,
And floods, you mustn't fear79

Of course there will be challenges,
But if you try it won't be far,
Before the sun is back,
And you're left without even a scar80

Because as long as you believe,
You'll easily make it through
And if you have a good attitude,
You'll enjoy the ride, too81


MY SOLDIER82

My papa's a soldier
And, boy, am I proud
Everyday at school
I sing our anthem loud83

♥84

My papa's a soldier
And when I grow big
I wanna be like my daddy
A real big rig85

♥86

My papa's a soldier
When I do see his face
I send him this great, big smile
Nothing can ever erase87

♥88

My papa's a soldier
And I don't cry any more
Because I know he'll once again
Walk through our front door89

♥90

My papa's a soldier
Me and God love Dad.
We both know he's a great a soldier
Man, I miss my Dad.91

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PLEASE DON'T BE AFRAID93

We can, without thought, forgive
A child afraid the darkness will bite
But the scariest sight to behold
Is a grown man afraid of the light94

Men who won't stand, dignified and tall
In the brilliant light of the sun
Carry no courage, no hope, at all95

These men are like wilted flowers
These men are like crude pawns96

They're like falling tears
Like cold rainstorms
Sadly falling throughout their years97

And these men don't see
That they need to stand tall
And these men can't see
They're running too slow...starting to fall98

They need to keep running
They need to stand strong
They cannot stop singing
When they can't master the notes of their song99

They will find their way
And they'll finally see
When their world collapses around them
They'll finally see100

Maybe one day they'll gain as much hope
As those children afraid of the light101

...We can, without thought forgive
A child afraid the darkness will bite
But the scariest sight to behold
Is a grown man afraid of the light102

...Maybe one day they'll shine, oh so bright
Because they're finally happy in the light103

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RED TEARDROPS105

All she heard was the rain
And that was all that kept her sane106

She was a girl all alone
Pitifully frail and helpless
Alone, without a single friend
Her heart unable to mend107

The only thing she heard was the rain
And that only increased the pain108

She couldn't help how she felt
There never was one person
She only wanted someone near
And she fought to not shed a tear109

Because the only thing she heard was the rain
As she cut, staring out the window pane
And it was no longer about the gain
She felt after all the pain110

Because she was a girl all alone
Rain her one friend, night and day
...Until she met the boy
Who chased the rain away111

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THROUGH THE NIGHT113

She can't stop the tears,
From falling throughout the years114

...It is because of what she hears,
And that brings on her many fears
She hears the shouts,
She smells the beers,
She sees the hits, bruises and leers115

She cannot stop; she has to cry,
And with each tear she starts to die,
Inside her mind, she's trying to try;116

She can't help but sigh,
As she sees her mother high
Seems no one will try,
And she's asking herself, why?117

But she is going to use all her might,
To get herself through all of the fights,
And she'll fight, fight the fright118

She'll reach great heights,
Because she knows tonight,
She'll make it through the night,
And get to the concluding light119

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SECRET DREAMS121

My heart is diminishing,
Gradually becoming diminutive122

I seek solace in the slashing,123

The additional crimson,
The bonus liberation,
The more aching pleasure124

It’s better to suffer,
Then later stroke and mend, 125

Than to not feel the sensations,126

And not let out the tension,
And not see the scarlet127

Letting out the interior agony,
Is the only release I experience128

I cut,
Then I weep129

I sob as I slash;130

Shedding clear and ruby tears,131

Never ending;132

My miserable limitless existence,133

Not concluding as rapidly,
As I yearn for it to134

And I’m a vile, despairing demon,
Yearning to one day develope
Into an euphoric angel 135