If Only (A Twilight Fanfic)

A searing pain coursed through my body as my gaze fell upon the happy couple. Envy clouded my troubled dark eyes. Breathing deeply, I fixed my gaze on the man. The smile on his face was enough to crush my attempt at an indifferent expression. There had been a time when that wonderous smile had been aimed at me.1

I remember the details all too well. There were too many years of blissful memories for me to simply forget. I've never forgotten the way his eyes used to light up when he was around me. Those secret, adoring looks were, at one time, just for me. It's impossible to forget how amazing those years were.2

I was his highschool sweetheart. It was me he was supposed to pledge his eternal love to. And he did. He promised to love and care for me until the day he died. I believed him too. I even promised to him the same thing. The only difference is that I kept my promise.3

All was great until that one day. Most relationships fall apart over time. My relationship seemed to fall apart in a matter of hours. When Sam Uley met my second cousin Emily Young, I was yesterday's news. All he left me with were shattered hopes and distant memories. Well, maybe they're distant to him, but not to me.4

Everyone in the pack insists it's not his fault and that he 'feels guilty'. After all, you can't choose who you imprint on. But you know what? I don't care how unfair my beliefs might seem. They weren't the ones who had to feel the indescribable pain. They didn't have years of promises broken in an instant. I'm the one whose world was destroyed.5

Oh, and look, he gave her a flower. How cute. Before her, he'd done the same thing for me. I'm sure he's showering her with loving words and promises that he'll keep forever. Only for her, his words are true.6

I think my life would be easier if I could forget about all of our history. Maybe the sight would become more bearable if I couldn't remember the taste of his lips that day he kissed me in the rain. If only I could just push each and every painful memory to the back of my mind and never think of them again.7

There's my problem. I can't just forget. Now, as I watch them snuggle in the field of spring flowers, the hatred has left my eyes. Contrary to what the others think, I don't hate him. I never have and I never will.8

Biting my lip, I can feel the salty tears silently stream down my cheeks. It's taking all of my self-control to not break down here. He may have forgotten about me, but I will never forget about him.

Author notes

This is told through Leah Clearwater's point of view. It's not during any particular scene in any of the books. This is merely a situation of my own creation. The characters belong to Stephanie Meyer.

Option 3.

My favorite book is Twilight by Stephenie Meyer.

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  • Rhubarb
    March 22

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    Leah is one of my favourite charcters, but in the Twilight series, her charcter isn't explored very much. You have made a new side of Leah that isn't as strong and independent as she always appears. Well done!
    This is good writing.


  • Kyndal Laran
    March 21

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    this is very good! i enjoyed it a lot because no body really had paid any attention to how she must have felt. i bet tht would have been a good book to be published. nice job on bringing thought to Leah.


  • Rose Hathaway
    March 20
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    Leah is not actually one of my favourite characters because of the way she behaves. But having said that you have doubled my personal respect for by writing this. It was detailed, romantic and emotional all at thhe same time. The story had quite a nice flow to it as well so I enjoyed that. Well done and thanks for entering.

    ~~Rosalie


  • Yumiko Kizaka
    February 7
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    that was a good story


  • TheFemmeFatale
    July 18, 2008
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    If this is moonwriter, which I think it is, I think I remember reading this in chemistry when you were first writing it. Either that or this is an extreme coincedence. Well written, and it actually made me more sympathetic toward Leah, rather than what I thought before: "LEAH, SHUT UP!"
    Nice work!


  • Doll Faise
    July 16, 2008

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    Wow. To be honest, before this, I had never even thought about Leah that much. But when I did think of her character, it was never positive. But this is a whole new perspective. I like it.


  • Namoopf
    June 12, 2008
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    You entered this right at my most vulnerable moment...I got dumped yesterday =/


  • Memoirs of a Girl
    June 5, 2008

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    Hmmm...

    I'm not a fan of Leah's. In fact, she's probably one of my least favorite characters, just because she's a bitch. That being said, I really like what you've done here. You've created a sense of loss, longing and nostalgia. I really like it. Well done!
    Thanks for entering!
    ~Memoirs


    • moonwriter
      June 5, 2008
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      If you'd rather, I could enter something in a different POV. I have likr ten different Twilight fanfics, none of them focusing on Edward and Bella.


      • Memoirs of a Girl
        June 5, 2008
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        Well, no, as I said, I like what you did with the story. It made me almost feel sorry for her.


  • iBubbles
    June 4, 2008
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    this was a really nice peice i LOVEd it! x]] keep writing ;D


  • Yoko
    June 3, 2008

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    So sad. Loooove this. How cute, she can never hate hime. That is true love. That jerk, he deserves to get walloped. She is such a sweet girl. I loooove this story. Keep writing. Hehe, mew!

  • sugarrrainbow
    June 2, 2008

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    Cool stuff.
    I love the idea of doing something in Leah's perspective, I can almost taste her bitterness.
    And I liked the end when you said that she will never forget him. Maybe you meant it to say that she will always love him, but to me it says that she'll never forget how much he hurt her.
    I love it!
    Good job and good luck!

    • moonwriter
      June 2, 2008
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      Thanks! Actually, most of the stuff I write for Twilight goes into Leah's POV. I just haven't typed most of it up.

      I like how she's an interesting character who has had a lot to deal with. It's fun to go into how things effect her.


  • Reaver Greeters member
    May 20, 2008

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    Sad but hopeful. The way you ended it made me feel like she might just go for it...regardless. I only read about half of Twilight...but i caught on. Well done with this! i enjoyed the read! ~D

  • trackrunnengirl24
    May 17, 2008
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    wow i liked this a lot. i really enjoyed the whole thing. thank you for entering, and good luck!


  • Vampiric souls
    May 16, 2008
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    well I've allready commented and I still think that this is great


  • Vampiric souls
    May 15, 2008
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    I loved this, this is some really brilliant writing, this is so good, and yet really sad.


  • Lover of Stories
    May 10, 2008

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    ^w^

    I loved this piece...Poor Leah. Even though I support Leah x Jacob. XD *wants to give Leah a hug* You're a great writer, keep it up! Oh, and good luck in the contest! =)


  • NinjaMegami
    May 10, 2008
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    =)

    oooooo..........


  • xMoonlightxDreamsx
    May 8, 2008
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    Very nice piece... I like the perspective and the raw emotion you put into this.


  • J.R. Coleman
    May 5, 2008
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    WOW! I loved this, it sucked me in within the very first sentence.

    There's one thing that I found: "I think my life would be easier if I cpuld.." should be "could" in paragraph 7

    Anyways, fantastic write and welcome to the finalists.

    xoxo julia


  • FallenShade
    May 3, 2008

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    Ooooo! I love it! I really like the complexity of Leah's character in the series. The scorned she-wolf, forever having to live in the shadow of her once lover and tragically beautiful cousin. Such drama! Your writing style is wonderful, as well as your word choice. Over all, this is a great start to what I'm sure will be a fantastic tale. Impatiently waiting for the next chapter!

    -Kat-


  • xxHeartbrokenxx
    April 28, 2008
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    i like it... alot


  • Rosen Rot
    April 24, 2008

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    I like it....
    I think you've got a few run ons, but the language is a nice balance between a stark style and a flowery style
    ill keep a look out for more ^_^

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