Lover of Stories - My Book of Sonnets and Other Poems

This poem collection was last updated on: August 16th, 2008. There are now two categories, ~~Sonnets~~ and ~~Other Poems.~~ In each category, the oldest piece is at the top and the newest piece is at the bottom.1


~~Sonnets~~2


FORGOTTEN PARCHMENT3

Tears drip on the parchment, blotting the words.
Again and again it is thrown away.
Letters form on the page like graceful birds.
It is hard to find the right words to say.4

Unforgotten wounds rise to the surface,
Breaking through a tempest of sharp writing.
Blood boils hot, trying to quicken the pace.
There is no way to dull the harsh biting.5

A message is sealed in an envelope,
Never to see the outside world again.
Trapped in company of deserted hope,
And hurled out to drown in puddles of rain.6

Its usefulness has passed, and now, is done.
It becomes forgotten and read by none.7


TYBALT'S SOLILOQUY8

All the others are dancing and laughing;
No one knows of the pain that I suffer.
Romeo speaks, into her heart pathing.
Juliet smiles back - I ought to cuff her!9

How can any man bear to just stand there,
With a cursed Montague among us?
At Lord Capulet’s words, I can but stare.
He doth not care, for he wants not a fuss.10

I dare not make to kill Romeo now,
But someday, he shall lie dead at my hands!
By my blood, the crimson drops, this I vow!
They say it is I who misunderstands…11

Well, they are imbeciles, the lot of them!
Die, Montagues, it is thou I condemn!12


REFLECTION13

Gazing at my distorted reflection,
My eyes are met with a face not my own.
Memories lose me in recollection,
And I stop to think on how I have grown.14

I always seem to be running away,
Things left in shambles, never coming back.
Everything I touch starts to decay,
And I know it won’t be long ‘til I crack.15

Shadows steal past, creeping up behind me,
Set to strike as soon as my back is turned.
A tumult of waves brings me out to sea,
Where I drown in what for which I once yearned.16

The river of my tears has long dried up,
My life nothing more than an empty cup.17


I'M NOT COMING BACK18

Don't you understand? I'm not coming back.
Stop pretending I'm still the same person,
Because I'm not. My heart has turned black.
You stare at me, making my pain worsen.19

Just forget about who I used to be.
You, once my friends, don't know me anymore.
It's who I am now that matters to me.
Thinking of times we shared makes my heart sore.20

You aren't even worth remembering.
Stay out of my way and out of my life,
Or your corpses I'll be dismembering.
Don't cause me such unnecessary strife.21

Leave me alone, before I start to crack.
Don't you understand? I'm not coming back.22


FESTIVAL23

Running about in the midst of the dark
Laughing and shouting while the song rises
Bright voices ring out like that of a lark
Little ones in their gifts find surprises24

Candied nuts crunch behind happy lips
Delighted children run wild through the street
Stopping to hand the serving men their tips
Shaking hands with each new person we meet25

Streamers breeze airily around the bend
Vivid colors rejoice along with us
Too soon the festival comes to an end
The disappointed start to make a fuss26

Slowly people begin to head for home
Young ones follow clutching toys made of foam27


ALONE28

Alone, trapped here in the sharp, dismal dark,
With none to worry about but myself.
Ripped, torn apart by a madness so stark,
Insanity waiting on a near shelf.29

I keep saying it's better off like this,
But I don't know if I can believe it.
Once, I too held that sweet, unknowing bliss,
Which withdraws when you've seen death's fatal hit.30

I've seen far too many innocents die,
Cringed too often at a dead figure's thud,
Wept so much I have no tears left to cry,
Heaved up scarlet 'til I noticed no blood.31

It's easier being alone, as one,
No one's left behind when your life is done.32


DROWNING33

Hurled far into the waters falling fast
Clutching to threads of hope for a second
Then casting them off to the blue at last
Giving in to waves which below beckon34

Watching bubbles float up before your eyes
Whereupon they pop without a meaning
Lungs giving out in wait of slow demise
Unstirred by your struggles' intervening35

Never again to glimpse the bright sun's rays
Filtering softly through the fair white clouds
Or feel the warmth of blissful summer days
Without the sun concealed by cotton shrouds36

Surfacing mercifully in the bay
You cry with relief as the sky turns grey37


SOMETIMES38

Sometimes I sigh and wish for better days,
Days when the rain doesn't just keep falling.
I'd spend time in more beneficial ways
If my depression would cease its calling.39

Sometimes I heave burdens upon others,
Although they have so many of their own.
I'm the one starting fights with my brothers,
Ignoring the kindness that they have shown.40

Sometimes it's like everything's my fault,
Despite the fact no one blames it on me.
Tears drop to splash emotions, moisture, salt;
Droplets of bittersweetness are set free.41

Sometimes I feel life's nothing but sometimes,
Strung together with repeated glum primes.42


SENSES OF DEPRESSION43

Look to these hands, they are stained with warm blood.
Look to this mind, find blackened memory.
Look to these eyes, red as a rose's bud.
Look to this fear, all that's left of me.44

Hear this stone heart, ice cold but still beating.
Hear this thunder, it storms through my doomed soul.
Hear these cries, from my lips they pour fleeting.
Hear what was once calm silence, now unwhole.45

Taste this sweet blood, bursting upon your tongue.
Taste these wet tears, dripping thick with malice.
Taste this poison, of those who died so young.
Taste this blade, ender of lives so callous.46

Breathe in this sadness, glazed over with death.
Breathe these noxious fumes, perhaps your last breath.47


I'M SORRY48

I'm sorry I couldn't be there that day.
You were always there when I needed you.
You needed me to help you brave the fray.
When I didn't, you hardly made it through.49

I'm sorry I'm so unreliable,
That I could never keep my promises.
And my wrongs are so undeniable,
Covering up your pain with calm kisses.50

I'm sorry I didn't believe in you,
So untrusting of what I could not see,
That half the time I knew not what was true.
I know now that with me here, you're not free.51

Don't come after me, that's all I implore.
I'm leaving now, before I break you more.52


FINDING THE LIGHT53

Blood has been shed and revenge is complete
The storm has ceased and it's finally done
Finding the light is a difficult feat
But darkness has fled; new life has begun54

What lies on the road ahead is unclear
There's so much that you wish you could take back
And you're gripped by uncontrollable fear
Longing for the friendship of which you lack55

Those you betrayed have full right to hate you
Going back to them may lead to your death
But that matters not, with what you've gone through
So square your shoulders and take a deep breath56

Leaving the darkness and making things right
You're finally close to finding the light57


LEFT BEHIND58

That cold feeling of being left behind
Haunts my memories, lives on in my dreams
I can't be content watching fate unwind
Not with this ripping my soul at its seams59

I can't stop thinking of the night you left
My words failed to penetrate your hard shell
Seeming to you like unmeaningful breath
My spirit broke long before my tears fell60

I didn't even get to see you leave
One moment you were right in front of me
I woke to find you gone and couldn't breathe
Now I'm trapped in darkness and cannot see61

I find myself wishing that I could find
The reason for why you left me behind62


OUR LOVE63

Our love bloomed once, like a beautiful rose
Magnificent as the great Northern Lights
Filled with the radiance of the sun's glows
And the silver moon's song on star-lit nights64

Our love withered once, like a forlorn rose
Dejected and cast off to die alone
Trapped for eternity in still repose
Left forever in darkness unbeknown65

Our love hurt once, like the thorns of a rose
Piercing at our hearts where it hurt the most
Replacing our joy with sorrows and woes
Ripping from suppressed thoughts with sharp riposte66

Our love bled once, a crimson-spattered rose
Dripping scarlet which our torment bestows67


THROWN AWAY68

I have been used, rejected, thrown away
A broken tool whose use has long run out
Left in my ashen nightmares to decay
Sinking thoughts twisted to hatred and doubt69

You discarded me like so much dead weight
As if I was nothing, nothing at all
Though, countless times, I saved you from your fate
You treated me like I would cause your fall70

I'm sorry I can't be of use to you
That I failed where I should have succeeded
I'm sorry I couldn't be strong for you
And that your wishes could not be heeded71

But I have one last thing I have to ask
Remember me after death lifts my mask72


IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT (SOLILOQUY OF FRANKENSTEIN'S MONSTER)73

I try to understand your twisted thoughts,
But still can't see why you did what you did.
My heart laces itself up into knots
As I reach out for the love you forbid.74

Why create me, only to show me hate?
You feared me because of how YOU made me.
I lie here, resigned to my dismal fate...
Once-human, soul-less, now-empty debris.75

It's all your fault that this came into place.
It's not like I asked to be created.
I wish it was you no one would embrace,
And you were the one who the world hated.76

Then you would understand my hate for you.
Then you would feel the pain I'm going through.77


THAT SMILE78

That smile, the one always reserved for you.
Do you miss it? Do you care that it's lost?
Do you see the corpse, blood-stained black and blue,
Of one determined when death was the cost?79

Those eyes, the ones that sparkled just for you.
Do you still remember them when they've left?
Do you see their tears, fresh as morning dew,
Lingering in your dreams, your one heart's theft?80

That laugh, of sweet bells only heard by you.
Do you feel it ringing soft in your ears?
Do you wish you knew where it's gone off to,
Wish you could hear it after all these years?81

That smile, forever burned into your soul,
Is all you've held onto to keep you whole.82


HOPE (or WEAK)83

And she cries, not knowing what else to do...
Cries because she is so weak, so helpless.
Because she has so little to cling to,
Because she's collapsing in her distress.84

Humans are such fragile beings, so weak.
They break down over the littlest things.
Just because they think the future looks bleak,
They give up on mending their broken wings.85

And he falls, unable to stand back up...
Falls because he is so frail, so unsure.
Because he has no one to help him up,
Because he's too scared to see through the blur.86

You don't have to fall. You don't have to cry.
You can stand firm, and look them in the eye.87


PUZZLE88

We're like a puzzle, fitting together
Completing each other, like fire and ice
As opposite as the shades of weather
And never making the same picture twice89

We're like a puzzle, so hard to finish
So many ways to lock us into place
Through all we face, this bond won't diminish
It only strengthens with each vanished trace90

We're like a puzzle, complex to the brain
Trying to figure out why we're so close
Why we can smile, trapped within all this strain
How we can laugh, around all we oppose91

We're like a puzzle, in sweet harmony
In need of each other just to be free92


WE WRITE93

We Read, trying to impress our mothers.
We Read, entering neatly cut pages.
We Read, drinking in the work of others.
We Read, wandering through future ages.94

We Think, immersing ourselves in a dream.
We Think, storing ideas in our minds.
We Think, trying to decide on a theme.
We Think, breaking imagination's binds.95

We Write, grouping sentences into herds.
We Write, slashing characters in cold blood.
We Write, trying to breathe life to cold words.
We Write, waiting for our stories to bud.96

We Write, searching through garbage for rare gems.
We Write, hoping that someone will read them.97


~~Other Poems~~98


CRY99

Cry, pour your tears out; watch them kiss the ground.
No need to listen - they don't make a sound.
Don't bottle up the brokenness inside.
Just keep waiting for the pain to subside.100

And even if it never does, stay strong.
Because you know this is where you belong.
When others take their anger out on you,
Don't pretend you don't care; I know you do.101

This world is strange and frightening at times;
Survival will take many trying climbs.
Cry, there's nothing shameful about those tears.
Someday we all must learn to face our fears.102

That day might not be soon, but it will come.
And when it's here, be ready; don't succumb.103


TRUTH'S ENEMY UNFURLED104

There's no one but myself to blame this time
Washing off the soot-black layers of grime
Couldn't bring myself to apologize
Always too scared to look you in the eyes105

Time races on but our scars never heal
Not knowing what is false and what is real
I can't get the blood to come off my hands
And can't take back my meaningless demands106

We'll pretend that nothing came between us
Act like there's nothing we need to discuss
Hide our pain behind a brittle facade
Forcing fragile smiles in loosely-fit fraud107

Behind my mask, I look out at the world
Living a lie, truth's enemy unfurled108


----More to be added in the future----109