I walked in desperation. The lack of feeling was making me depressed. I had spent a long day feeling sorry for myself and everything else. My friends say that I care too much, maybe this is proff. Today, I had found out that my best friend's couisn died. I feel really bad, I did nothing mind you, but I am sad for my best friend. She says that it doesn't matter that much to her, but it matters to me so it should matter a little bit to her. All day I have been thinking, what if I die, would my friend care? If she doesn't care about her cousin why would she care about me? Then I started thinking I was the worst person alive. I run away from confrentation, I will not talk to someone who likes me. I think I destroy people. I am a murderer. My friend is walk home with me right now, and I believe that I am more and more like a murderer every second. 1
"HEY!"2
"what?, yea." I said shocked to hear her say something.3
"whats wrong, why do you look so depressed."4
"maybe because I am depressed." 5
"what do you have to feel depressed about?"6
"MAYBE WHAT I DID TO NELSON, JASON, AND EVERY OTHER GUY THAT HAS ADMITTED TO LIKING ME"7
"shouldn't they be the ones depressed?"8
"exactly!"9
"you are depressed for them."10
"no, well thats not all."11
"then what is it?"12
"everything."13
"EVERYTHING? You aren't responcible for everything!"14
"no but I feel bad for everything."15
"you can't be responcible for every little problem."16
"but I could have stopped it, she could have stayed alive she could still be here!!!"17
"My cousin? Look, if you stood infront of a bullet you would have died!!!"18
"its not like you would care any more."19
"It isn't that I don't care its just I have a weird way of showing that I care, just like you have a weird way of caring about everyone on this planet."20
"okay!"21
That day, I learned something new. Everyone is different. NOt just there looks and personality, but also the way they handel things. I relize now that it wouldn't solve anything if I ran infrount of her. I do miss her, and it shouldn't have happened, but life must go on, even with death happening.22
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yay i like! (well, except for the whole part about being depressed. you know i dont like depressing stuff lol) the whole plot seems kinda wierd though... lol so you could have been shot to save this girl's cousin? but it's very well written and I like it.
oh, and if I didn't know you I'd tell you that everything in the world isn't your fault, and you're not that wierd and care about everything, it just seems that way cause sarah doesn't care at all, and u compare yourself to her. lol oh, and don't think I didn't catch that referance to you-know-who (not voldemornt lol)...
don't be depressed, sami, cause then I would feel bad.
great job on this story, by the way. ok, i've written way too much now, and mr hartley is starting to look at me wierd...
Jen
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