The Apparition Man- Part Eighty-Nine#

Chapter Twenty-Three – Part Eighty-nine #1

I could feel a cold chill in the room, lingering and surrounding me as the door closed behind Lisa.2

I was alone, finally alone, and I would never have thought that it would feel like this. I felt slightly empty inside as I held my hands across my body like a sleeping vampire in its coffin; Relaxing with rest, shivering the more I breathed, as the room got colder, and colder.3

When Lisa came back I would have to request that she get me a heater. That was of course unless my Sixth sense was already in action, that was in case maybe, just maybe it was not a cold breeze that I was feeling.4

Could it be my precious Kerry? Could it be him letting me know what he was really here?
Could it be that he was watching over me? Just like he had done in the past.5

After all It was not as if this feeling was uncommon to me. I had felt it many times back at home after dad had died, even when I thought about Kerry, I would always get a cold sense as if he was watching me. Whatever it was, the sudden chill was starting to make me feel slightly ill in the stomach.6

I stood up stretching my arms, hoping that it might help with my aching bones; My sore,tired muscles. 7

I still could not believe that I had walked all that way. Never in my whole entire life had I ever expected to have to. I had never been a fit person, or the outdoor type. Now I had an aching body, and an insane mother to prove that I had.8

I looked around the room, it was a lot smaller than it had been when I had arrived inside; more closed in now that I was alone. Though that could have all been inside my head.9

After all I had been rather delirious in my state of mind. The heat had really knocked me around, and I had heard once that it was not uncommon for people who have endured an experience like mine, to react badly yo getting their lives back into shape, back to some kind of normality. Why would I be any different? 10

I had already lost one love to suicide, my father to a tragic accident, and another love to a mix of stupidity, and promises. And now that my Mother's negligence had been put into the spotlight, their was a secret that she neglected to tell me. One that would damn near eat me inside, as it already was starting to gnaw away at me as I tried to think of what she had truly meant.11

So if Kerry was watching, then I hope he was watching over me with good reason, and will. He knew the sacrifices I had made to come back, to risk everything, to lose and opportunity of real love, and a fresh start in life. All for him, all so that I could fulfill our promise, and more, more than anything else I had hoped for ; He would realize how much his love meant to me, and how much it always would mean to me.12

I sat back down. Lying back on the mattress, and looked up towards the ceiling; its cold, steel Interior sent shock waves of sickness pulsing throughout my body, as I felt myself shivering. This place was so dull, so lifeless and bleak; depressing was the first word that came to mind. Yet all in perspective, this place had become the only real place that I could ever call home in this sorrowful town.13

Everything about my life, every memory, every scent. My dreams, my goals, my future desires, all in which would be washed away, and put to rest in this very place in which God took my lover away.14

Though somehow, it seemed to make the journey more see able, more realistic now that I was enclosed inside the walls of my beloveds bedroom. The very same room in which he took his own life not so long ago. I shuddered thinking of that awful day. 15

The hair on my legs pricked, the hair on my arms raising high. I closed my eyes, feeling as his hand glided across my skin, all the way down my body, towards my toes.16

It was Kerry, he was here. I knew it, my heart began to beat faster as the hand touched my cheek; freezing against my skin.17

I opened my eyes, seeing nothing, but feeling everything as my senses came alive. I was in my element. He was with me. Tracing my body, filling em up with so many mixed emotions. I wished I could just see his face. Just his face would do. I needed to touch him, to feel him, to caress him just like he was doing to me. I knew it would reassure mt faith in our love to see him again, even for a few moments. I desperately ached for it. 18

I sat up, my body feeling sensually aroused. I was hungry, a lot more hungry than sweet comfort.19

“I love you Kerry,” I whispered,”I never meant for things to happen the what they did, for me to feel this way about another man, but it happened, and now that relationship is over. I am here Kerry, here for you, and only you.20

I smiled, hoping he heard me, hope desperately that he would forgive me for my betrayal.21

Instead I suddenly felt a sense of dread , a terrible feeling that seemed to take my breath away. Like there two were cold hands wrapped around my throat. I clutched my throat, gasping for air as it felt like the life was being sucked from within me.22

The room began to blacken, and blur. My heart thumped insanely against my chest. Wheezing, I tried to make my way towards the White button. This was an emergency. I could not breath. I would die here alone, suffocating in a ghostly grasp.23

I reached forward, feeling the cold hands grip my shoulders, and pull me violently away from the door. I gripped the bedside table, my fingernails scraping painfully across the wooden surface. 24

In time, the door opened, my savior. As the door swung open, the feeling of suffocation and dread disappeared just as quickly as it had started.25

I stood still, with my hands gripped around my throat as Lisa walked through the door.26

Stopping she jumped a mile high in the air, throwing the clothes behind her shoulder in shock. She turned her head, seeing that my hand was seemingly close to the White Button. Horrified she pulled my hands away. A stern look upon her face of fear, and confusion.27

“Reidy Hope, what the hell do you think your playing at?”