I'm Sewing Myself Together because I feel like Falling apart

I'm slowly sewing myself together with tainted thread
You'll find out soon enough that inside I am dead1

The needle goes in and the needle goes out
In fear and in pain I fearfully shout2

What am I doing? Why can’t I succeed?
Why am I sewing? Why don’t I just let myself bleed?3

That’s what I wanted from the beginning
So I can put all my pain and misery to an ending4

I’m getting closer to my last breath as I bleed to death
This is the final step; there will be nothing left5

My heart pumps harder and harder as it tries to sustain
My body goes into shock as it tries to maintain6

Any resemblance of life has now left me
The coma has set in now I’m almost free7

All that is left is for me to let go
So I’ll be fully free from pain that made me stoop this low8

I see my childhood flash before my eyes
I look so happy; is this a disguise?9

Maybe I’m happily insane, now that would explain
Why I enjoy bodily harm and I love pain 10

A toxic smile forms on my lips
As my blood quickly drips11

On to the floor causing a shiny gleam
My life's more messed up than it may seem12

To someone that didn't care
Someone that let me drown in a pool of my own despair13

I'm laughing now
As you wonder how14

How am I laughing at my own death?
How can I be happy as I take my last breath?15


This is my revenge because you tore my heart
You ripped it to shreds and you tore it apart16

Leaving the remains in the dirt
Leaving me torn and brutally hurt17

Scrounging and looking to find all the pieces
Then I gave up after I checked all the creases18

I was only missing one little piece
You still had that one part my face fell and my crying increased19

I wanted it back, and I wanted you too
Even after you said 'I didn't love you'20

So I gave up on sewing back together my heart
I just let myself slowly begin to fall apart21

As I continue to fall to pieces
My breathing stops and my heart seizes22

I’ve finally let go; I’m no longer in existence
You can forget about me cause there will be no repentance

Ummm...haha

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  • Living.Disaster
    September 21, 2008
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    OH MY GOODNESS.
    that was soo like really...good i got teary eyed..thank you for that.


  • Dreams of Insanity
    May 21, 2008
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    You're Patches!?! SINCE WHEN!?
    I thought you were Natasha Rutabegga the Eighth!!?!?!
    ZOMGOSH! My whole perception on reality as been shattered now! Whatever shall I do now! OMG! OMG!
    *explodes*


  • Mr.Teatime
    May 14, 2008

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    This is so emotional; I almost cried...because I feel like this toward this boy: Jesse. He says I'm ugly and wierd and stupid and he doesn't like me but I still love him. Amazing work yet again and, of course, it's going to my: *Favs*


  • Nocturne Moderators member
    May 1, 2008
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    I clicked, fully expecting a prose story and then was taken aback, seeing that it was a poem. But it was a story as well, I realized, as I read. I think it's very clear that you were feeling strong emotions and channeled them while writing this.

    Expressive.

    I'm glad I clicked.

  • Dreams of Insanity
    April 29, 2008

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    Wow...this one was super good...
    Haha...you sew...ZOMG! ARE YOU SEWING YOURSELF TOGETHER!?
    AHHHHHHHHHH! My sister is a Patches!!!

    Hehe, no, but seriously, super good! Loooooooved it!


  • Hinata-is-me silver member
    April 12, 2008
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    wow. this is really good. I'm just amazed.

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