When I held you, 1
Close to me. 2
I Never wanted3
It to be painful. 4
To know, 5
I would 6
Ever7
Have to let go. 8
It’s like a dagger, 9
cutting me slowly,10
taking away my sanity. 11
I can’t take this, 12
I can’t make this13
Pain, agony, despair,14
Pass on me. 15
I don’t blame you:16
I knew you would leave me,17
Eventually.18
But I need you:19
To be with me,20
I care too much for you, 21
I can’t go on…22
I need you too much,23
Please…Hark me out.24
I’m lost,25
I’m empty, 26
I never wanted to make you want to27
Leave me. 28
And now 29
I pour my soul out for you. 30
I sit here mourning for you. 31
I am in need..32
I absolutely need you, 33
To breath,34
To live,35
To continue on this life36
You were the thing that kept me going, 37
But now…38
I Don’t even want to be here. 39
You were my light: My hope in life,40
I thought you would keep me happy,41
You wouldn’t believe the way you made me feel:42
I would take my heart out of my chest, 43
Place it on the road, 44
In the path of on an on-going semi, 45
Just to show you how much I love you. 46
That’s how I feel right now… I feel like my heart has been ran over, 47
The pain…the unbearable pain throbbing at my being, 48
Shattering my soul, 49
Destroying my sanity, 50
I am a mess with out you..51
I can’t describe it..52
I use to be so close, 53
I knew you so well, and I could simply look at your face54
And think “ Here is my life, before my eyes “55
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Now, when I look at your face, my heart throbs, 57
It bangs at my chest; wanting out, wanting to be with you,58
And I think “ How could I let you slip away from me.. “59
I blame me, 60
I blame my selfish actions : it’s my fault, 61
I treated you like crap..That one time. 62
Regret fills my heart, Pain, Despair, Envy,63
Sorrow, I am being ripped apart right now, just thinking about you. 64
I made you cry… not just once, but twice. 65
It hurt me so bad inside, to see you crying because of me, 66
what was I thinking? And now, because of what I did, 67
I can never….never….hold you that close again.68
Those words you pierced me with, 69
The knife you used to do it, 70
It has been pulled out, and now, I’m left with a scar, 71
A scar that will never heal. I still bleed for you, the 72
Wound you placed upon me still bleeds, still calls out73
For your gentle touch. 74
You are my angel, 75
well.. You were…76
But every time I see you77
Every time I hear your voice, 78
Every time I think of you, 79
I think to myself..80
“ At least I ‘had’ you.. But I still want you. “81
I don’t know what to do any more…82
My life is falling apart,83
Out of all the things that happened to me in life,84
You were the only good thing. 85
Despite the things that happened to me,86
I use to have you to look forward to.87
Now… I have nothing.88
Please,89
Heed my call, 90
come back to me..91
You were my everything. 92
You were my bandage for my heart, 93
And now, that bandage has been removed, and you stabbed 94
Me with the knife… and a scar is there, again. 95
Please..bandage it up again.96
Author notes
ugh..stupid emotions.
What do you think?
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*deep breath*
ok so i finally built it up again to read another...and yet again i have to stop.
i didn't cry like most who read this, i did more of a look away from screen, i didnt think i was goin to be able to finish it but i did....
maybe its because i know who its about, more of a behind the scenes thing, i originally came to your page to message you but.....somehow....i ended up down here.......reading this 0_o
wierd >>
anyways
i liked it from what i could stand to read without looking away......so yea.....you know what im tryin to get at -_-
later cupcake
>.<
*goes to message and get away from poems......* **needs another week break** -_-
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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Made Me Cry
Wow... I had to cry when I read this. I've only ever cried when something was REALLY BEAUTIFUL or SAD.
But this was something else. This fell into both categories of REALLY BEAUTIFUL and SAD.
And you aren't stupid Oneesan.
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OUCH this poem was painful. I could feel your pain as I read the words.. Very good. It was... Wow, Painful. O.o And you most certainly dont sound like a needy little girl..>.>
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omg!! :[
*stares blankly before bursting into tears* Wonderful! Yet so heart stabbingly depressing!! I love it and I look forward to reading more great writes by you!! ^^
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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*weeps*
That's so great Winter. I really loved this. I really really really really really really really loved this. It seems so true, so pure. No fake thingi in it. *laughs*
Thanks so much for writing this. I really enjoyed this. You're really good.
Aaez.
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Beautiful
It's beautiful...I can hear it as a song in my head, even if that isn't what you intended, W.
Still hurting, I see...hm, must find some ice.
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aww....that's sad. are you writing it towards someone specifically? i like it.
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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wow..Im stupid. I sound like a needy little girl.
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