Back In Your Arms

"Jason!" I yelled when I saw my boyfriend of three years across the street. I ran to him and literally jumped on top of him. He wrapped his arms around me, hugging me tight. I pulled away from the tight embrace so I could get a good look at him. 1

Jason was built very well, he had a muscler frame but he was still tone. He was tall, he had slightly messy brown hair that I loved. He also had big blue eyes that made me melt inside, and to top all that off he was a very nice guy. 2

Jason always made me feel special, like I was the most beautiful person in the world. He could always make me laugh no matter what mood I was in also. We were now in our senoir year of high school, which ment we were deciding which colleges we would go to the following year. My grades were really good and I was getting offers from all over the country, Jason on the other hand was not doing so well in that department. His grades were usually C's and B's which were pretty good, but he was getting no offers from any schools and he did not have the money to pay for it. Lately he had been distant, and I think the whole college thing is why. I had been doing my best to comfort him and reassure him that I would always be there. 3

He slowly leaned down and kissed me passionately. At first I liked it, but for some reason this kiss seemed really different. I was almost like a goodbye kiss. When he finally pulled away I could see pain and hurt all over his face, this got me worried. "Jason, whats wrong?" I asked brushing some hair out of his face.4

He was silent at first and I was not sure if he had heard me, but finally he spoke up in a pained voice "Taylor, I think we should end this." he said. "End what?" I asked getting a little paniced. "This...us...our relationship." he said not looking at me but at the ground. "Why? Why so sudden? Have these past few years meant nothing to you!?" I yelled about to break down. "These past few years have been the best of my life, but lets face it your smart and will go off to some college. While I stay here and work at a fast food resturant for the rest of my life." he said. "No no no, you are going to go to college one way or another. Listen, I love you please do not do this!" I pleaded with tears sliding down my face. "I love you too, and thats why I am letting you go. I want you to find someone who will be as successful as you, and who will be able to provide all the things you will ever want." he said also crying a little bit. "But I want you! You Jason, you!" I said now sobbing. "I want you too, but you have to go and live your life and I refuse to drag you down." he said hugging me. 5

I took in his scent while crying uncontrollably. "I have to go now, But never forget that I will always love you, and maybe someday we will see each other again." he said. Then he kissed me one final time and ran off. I stood there for a moment, but then I broke down on the side walk and began to sob and sob.6

Five Years Later7

It had been five years now since that day, and yet I still can't stop thinking about him. Sometimes I still even cry myself to sleep because I think about him. He was not just a boyfriend to me, he was the love of my life. He was my soul mate, my rock, and my glue that held me together. But I guess I wasn't that for him, because if he really loved me like he said he did, he would have stayed with me no matter what. I would feel so angry towards him sometimes, but I have never stopped loving him.8

Now I was a very successful archetict, and lived in New York City. I was single as of lately, probably because every guy I went out with I would compare him to Jason. It was like no one was perfect for me except him. I was in a black fancy dress waiting for my car to pull up to take me to a party. Now, of course, though my mascara was running down my cheeks because of course I was thinking about him. So I went and got some tissue and wiped off the smudges and touched it up again. My hair was hanging down in loose waves and I had to say I looked pretty good....on the outside. On the inside I was a wreck, it was just one of those many days I would decide to take a trip down memory lane and think about him. 9

Finally the car arrived, and I rushed downstairs and hopped in. The party was in some fancy building downtown, and the place was very nice. When I got there I walked inside and went straight to one of the many dinner tables. I sat there alone for a while, just watching everyone talk and mingle. Then suddenly someone put a whine glass in front of me. I looked around to see my best friend, Katie, with one too. She sat down next to me with a nervous look on her face. "Katie, I can get my own drink you didn't have to. " I said. "Oh believe me you don't want to go over there." she said. "And why not?" I asked now getting suspicious. "He's here, Jason." she said. I froze in horror. I figured at first she might have made a mistake, until I turned around and looked over at the while table. There he stood, looking as great as I remembered him. He hadn't really changed a bit, except that he was wearing a very nice suit. Suddenly he looked up, and we made eye contact. I saw his mouth drop and immediatly turned around. "What the heck is he doing here?!" I asked. "I don't know but I heard he is single." Katie said. I looked at her in disbelief "So what? Why would I ever take him back after he broke my heart? And even if I did want to talk to him I would not know what to say." I said. "Well you better think fast cause here he comes, go to go." she said and left. 10

Then I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was a hand whos touch always used to make me get butterflies in my stomach, and it still did. I looked up to see his perfect face staring at me. "Jason?" I asked. "Taylor!" he said and hugged me. "Let go." I said in a cold tone, remembering what he did to me. "Taylor, its me Jason, come on." he said sitting down next to me. "No you come on Jason! You broke my heart five years ago, and haven't even called me since! I honestly hate you." I said. I could tell my his expression that I had hurt him. "You know why I broke up with you, I wanted to give you a chance to live your life and meet someone great. I wanted you to be happy." he said putting his hand back on my shoulder. I shrugged it off "Well I haven't been happy at all, I have been too busy thinking and crying about you." I said and got up and tried to leave but Jason grabbed my wrist gently. "Please can we just talk?" he asked in a sweet voice. No, I wasn't going to give in to him. "Get away from me!" I said and he let go and I stomped off.11

Once I got back to my apartment building, and got back inside my room, I broke down crying, again. I was sobbing so hard that my chest began to hurt. The whole in my heart aching once again. Finally after about twenty minutes, I managed to calm myself down enough to change out of my dress and into my silk short red night gown. Then I sat down on my bed, and stared into space basically. Trying not to let my mind wander to him, but it was no use. Suddenly the doorbell rang, causing me to jump. So I got up, put my robe on, and answered it. Speak of the devil. It was Jason.12

"What do you want?" I asked trying to wipe the remaining tears from my face. "To talk, and get some things off my chest." he said. "Just go away okay? It hurts to much with you just being here!" I said. Then I was about to shut the door, but he put his foot in the crack to stop it. "Please, just five minutes." he begged. I gave up and nodded and walked away and sat on my bed. Then he began to speak "Okay, listen for the last five years, seven months, and sixteen days your all I have been able to think about. I kept on trying to tell myself that what I was doing was best for you, but I soon found out that I was dead wrong. I basically threw away the most important person in my life, and for that Tay, I am so sorry." he said sitting down on the bed next to me. I scooted away from him, "Sorry? Sorry is all you have to say?! I cried, I don't know how many times for you! I thought that you didn't love me anymore and obviously I was right! You didn't even call me or contact me what so ever." I said now starting to cry a little. 13

"I know I caused you a lot of pain, I know. And I love you still, and always will. The reason I didn't want to contact you was because it was just to hard. I figured you were having a great life and I didn't want to bring drama to it." he said. "I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!" I started chanting. "Taylor, you don't mean that." he said. "Yes I do." I said now standing up. "Are you trying to convince me of that, or yourself?" he asked also standing up. 14

"Just please go away! You make me crazy!" I yelled now sobbing. "No, I'm not going away. Not ever again." he said. "Your so beautiful." he said smiling. "Just stop!" I yelled. "Stop what?" he asked. "Stop making me want to run and jump into your arms and kiss you right now, because I know if I do I won't be able to let you go!" I said. "Good, because I never want to let you go again." he said and got close to me. We were so close now that our noses were touching. Until finally I couldn't take it anymore, and I grabbed the back of his head and kissed him roughly. At first he was taken by surprise, but then he started to kiss back and wrapped his arms around my waist. I pulled away from the kiss finally and was breathing heavily, "Promise me that you will never hurt me again." I said. "I promise Taylor." he said and began to kiss me again. Then he slowly slid my robe off of me, and then I slid his tux jacket off of him. I began to unbutton his shirt, and eventually took it off. Then we laid there as he kissed me and held me in his arms. It felt so good to be back in his arms again, and I was never going to let go of him again. He pulled away from me this time and whispered with his lips up to my ear, "I love you Taylor." Then I whispered back "I love you too Jason."