A wish... (contest, not story)

My wish dosen't need many words to explain1

I wish for the hallucinations to stop.2

I hallucinate of rape, torture, regularly. I feel the pain and the shame each time. As far as my minds concerned it's real, even after it's over, I feel the anger and shame and hurt. When it's happening I feel the punches, and the thrusting... I hear my attacker, it's real. They started a year ago, when something else ended... something worse ended. But they're getting harder... it's currently 3 or 4 times a week...3

It might be a selfish wish, I'm not wishing to save people, help others, world peace, whatever. But I may not live to help anyone else if this dosen't end, and is it really so selfish to beg for this to end? If it were 'real' in your eyes, there would be no shame in asking it, but there is here.4

You should grant me this wish, so that I may live to help others, to share my experiences and help others in my position. I beleive the things I've been through are to empower me to help people, but it's hard to see sometimes...