Goodbye Is Forever

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I glanced up nervously from my seat in the corner of my room. The footsteps stopped at my door. 7

"Phoenix, you in there?" asked my brother.8

"Ya." I whispered.9

The door opened and my baby brother ran in and sat next to me. I looked down at him and smiled faintly. I hugged him and thought about what I was going to have to say.10

"Syria, I'm leaving."11

He looked up at me, clearly not understanding.12

"Where are you going?" 13

"Somewhere, Where I can get away from this damn placed."14

"Did Sam leave you?"15

"Ya.. she did. I'm going though. I'm sorry ,but I'm not coming back." I whispered and shifted my weight off my bad leg.16

When I was six or seven my origonal mom threw me down the stairs and broke my leg, it never healed right. 17

He stared at me with tears in his eyes. I couldn't expect him to understand he was only eight after all. What I wouldn't give for that life again. 18

"Can I come with you?" he whimpered burrying his head in my shoulder. 19

I hugged him tightly and replied "No, I'm sorry you can't."20

He started crying so, I lifted his chin and added "You will see me again one day though. Now go to bed before mom gets home." 21

He seemed somewhat better and ran off to his room. I waited until I was sure he was in there for the night, and pulled out my nifty little razor blade. I cried silently as I lifted my purple fishnets up. Looking at the pale skin, I quickly drug the blade across it and pushed. I watched as the blood started to rush out. I smiled at the liquid that had kept me sane. After that arm was open I did the same to the other one and me neck. 22

I drug myself to the closet and hid. I watched everything around me start to blur together and then loose color completely. After a few more minutes it was all gone. 23