The Apparition Man - Part Eighty-Two - Novel Three #

Chapter Twenty-One – Part Eighty Two # 1

I sat still. My hand on my cheek, touching feeling.2

I wanted to run after him, but my body remained still.3

He was gone;gone forever, and he would remain a fragment, a distant memory of my life. Though I would remember him till my dying day; the one that got away, The one that I let slip away. I missed him already, and he had only been gone Five minutes according tho the clock that hung on the wall above the waiting room door.4

In the room my mother shook Doctor Hewitt's hand, before reaching for the doorknob. A sullen smile on her face.5

I wondered if she had been given her last warning, as I looked towards the both of them, they raised their heads towards me. Paper work in their hands. I knew the drill. I would have to sign them all before she could leave. 6

It was like selling your soul, only worse since evil prescribed medication, and I knew that from here on in if I did not co-operate with these people I would be taking back pills and getting jabbed every time I looked sideways. This was the life of a bittersweet torture intended life. The preplanned death were these were all just complimentary factors along the way.7

“How are you feeling right now? Doctor Hewitt asked, handing me a pen along with the bundle of paperwork.8

I flipped through every page, signing my life away. It had to be better than the life I had right now. What was the risk? I did not even hesitate to ignore the fine lines.9

“Pretty crappy,” I answered, handing her back the pen and the bundle of forms. “I just lost the best friend I could have ever had,” I said coldly looking directly into my mothers eyes. “Only one person to blame for that.”10

My mother frowned stuffing her papers underneath her arm,11

“There is no point in making spiteful comments like that Reidy, I find you to be quiet rude young lady.”12

I snickered, where the hell do you get off saying bullshit like that. I care so much about you, it is utter crap, and everyone knows it. So just drop the act. It's a bit rich coming from someone like you; a person who can't even keep her mouth shut when she knows all their attention could be on her,” I cried, feeling myself heat up, It was enough to erupt me into hysterics. My blood began to boil as voices and images came into my head.13

*** I don't think I could stop if I wanted too --- Mummy I want to go home, take me home Mummy--- Come on Reidy come to daddy***14

Snapping out of it real fast. I shot up out of my seat, pushing her out of my way.15

“You know I don't even know why the hell you are here; you obviously are here for the attention. Are you really that desperate for everyone to think that you are the perfect mother? You're pathetic, not to mention a Freud. You are the one lucky yo have me, not the other way around, and don't you ever forget that.”16

I could see the frustration burning up in her face. Her read blood-shot eyes made mine water to look at. She was going to drive me insane. I had needed to escape, and she had followed, and now she had done her piece it was time for her to go. Time for her to leave and let me be. Let me relax, even if I had to be sedated, it would be pleasant to me, just anything to be free from her suffocating grasp.17

“Reidy I think that if quite enough, it has been a long, hard day, and you need to calm down and relax.”18

How could I relax with such an ugly presence in my view? How could I when I could not even think straight.19

More and more flashbacks erupted in my head, stirring thoughts, memories of Taylor, and that pleasured moment.20

I waved my arm, holding it to my head, trying to stop the thoughts.21

“You don;t even know the half of it,” I hissed, digging deeper into my mind.22

*** Oh Reidy, oh yes--- Mummy I don't want to go back to that man, he hurts me--- Make him stop daddy, MAKE HIM STOP***23

“Reidy you need to stop, and calm down.”24

My eyes grew dark, I could feel the squinting as I clenched my fist.25

“Yes, stop just like I told you too, but you never did, did you?”26

“I said stop,” my mother snapped, advancing towards me. Her hands by her side, her own fist clenched.27

“Or what huh, what the fuck are you going to do that you haven't already done to me a hundred times before? Nothing is the answer, you cannot say or do anything, and now you won't even give me peace of mind in this hell you instilled upon me. So how dare you tell me to stop, and calm down. I was you who has done this to me, and just like you have to me. I will bring you down, and there will be no Mercy.”28

Doctor Hewitt stared between my mother and I, watching, ready to pounce in case she went into full swing.29

My mother took a step forward, so that we were almost face to face. Her tears were falling fast, her eyes twitching. Her teeth were clenched tightly.30

“Reidy you can cry all you want, tell who-ever you want, do what-ever you want. I tried to save you, and this is the thanks that I get. So go on, tell the whole wide world what a big bad wolf your daddy is, go on Reidy cause I guarantee you, if you think you are in hell now it will be nothing compared to to the living hell you will be in, if he ever finds out that your secret has slipped.”31

Confused, and furious I searched her venomous eyes for closure.32

“My father is dead,” I said in a low hiss; my anger spitting all over her.33

She smiled a menacing smile, one that I had never seen before.34

“Was dead, is dead in your mind, and now it is time for you to know some home truths dear. But I will leave that up to you to dwell on in your sanctuary, because to be quite frank I hear a bottle of whiskey calling my name, and it sure beats the hell out of standing around here wasting my life on someone who doesn't even give a shit about me.”35

Doctor Hewitt, who had heard every last word that my mother had spoken, stood between us, handing her the bundle of forms.36

“Mrs Hope, I think that is enough. We are here to help Reidy, not destroy her. Think about her before you think about making this all about yourself.”37

I looked at Doctor Hewitt. I felt her need to protect me, I saw her eyes meet mine. She understood me. I did not need to fight.38

My mother was slowly backing herself into a grave, and I had never seen her this angry before, Her screws were becoming looser, and while I was happy about that, at the same time her comments regarding my father had frightened me.39

He had died, died in a car crash. How could he possibly harm me if he was dead? I had my memories, and while they did hurt me emotionally, they could never hurt me physically. His hands could no longer touch. And yet she was determined to make me believe otherwise.40

She stepped back, her sinister smile disappearing.41

“Oh I am done now. I just hope she heeds my warning. He will come for you Reidy, so keep your mouth shut, if you want to go on living.”42

Inside my head I laughed slightly. That was not the plan, I was safe knowing she had no idea of my plans. Yet my heart raced, pulsing through the pain, and confusion she was making me feel.43

Placing her hand on my shoulder, Doctor Hewitt took me aside.44

“Do you mind if I have another word with your mother in private Reidy?”45

I shook my head, hoping that maybe she could convince the cold hearted bitch to leave. I had, had more than I could handle. If it was not enough to loose my father, she wanted to confuse me further inside the pain that I felt.46

“Alright then, I will have someone to take you to your room then.”47

Briskly she walked over to the reception desk, leaning into a microphone that hung on the wall.48

“Lisa to reception please.”49

Letting go of the microphone, the door swung open, and a young, sprightly woman entered the room, holding a clipboard underneath her arm. A generous smile covering her face.50

“Lisa this is Reidy Hope; our new patient, Reidy this is Lisa; your mentor.”