Too many years alone
The world heaped on my shoulders
As I look at you
my dear friend
with worry1
You smile in the right places
Laugh and joke with sad eyes
You say that everything is fine
What eats away at you?
It tears me up inside2
I've lost too many people
To not see that something's wrong
Though you shake your head
I know
I just know3
My friend, you're too persistent
and it kills me
I just can't help
though I would gladly take your pain
and keep it for myself4
For every minute we've spent
together
crying bored
I'll shed another tear
because we might not cry together again5
Your life is in God's fingertips
Why couldn't it be mine?
Instead we wait
we pray and hope
that just this once he'll be kind6
I feel I'm being selfish
But please
just don't go
If only because I've spent
Too many years alone
Author notes
I'm 19. Female. This isn't my favorite quote, but it's been on my mind, lately. "I heard some words from a friend on the phone (didn't sound so good)./The doctor gave him two weeks to live/I'd give him more/if I could."--Jack Johnson.
I chose option 4. It also fits option 6 (loss of a friend).
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You know, I can relate to this a lot, and it can go both way for my best friend and me.
She has major depression and a lot of times I wish I could just make her life become much happier and in better "working order." And me being a paranoid pessimist with some kind of suicidal tenancies and depression, I'm afraid of losing her for whatever reason, big or trivial. And then I'm not the most reliable person to find when you want to find someone that will promise to live until a natural cause of death.
Anywhos, I love this piece =)
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this is a nice piece you wrote. I like the way you described the feelings you have within.
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