My Dark Years


When Bring Me To Life first came out I was going through what I call my dark stages in life. I was addicted to cocaine, drinking heavily every night and the worst thing any parent could do, neglect my son.1

I was spending around £375-£400 a week on drink and drugs and wasn’t caring about the damage it was causing me mentally and physically. My friends knew I drank and did drugs but not to the extent I was, it got so bad that I once ended up running down the street just in my boxer shorts because I was having a really bad trip and started to freak out.2

My mum knew I wasn’t right as I had lost a lot of weight, she sat me down one Sunday afternoon and sat and talked to me about what was going on in my life and how my son didn’t know his real dad, all he knew was this neglectful waste of space in front of him.3

That’s when I first heard this song on TV.4

I don’t know what it was but I took note of the lyrics, they stayed with me and I kept going over them in my head, was the song that just came on trying to tell me something, was this my mum trying to bring me back to life, was she trying to save her only son’s life.5

Right there and then I broke down in tears and told her about my problems, about how for the last year I had been abusing my body and that I needed help, I had no money because of my habit and I had banks phoning me up asking for payments to be made on credit cards I had taken out, I was in dire need of help.6

We sat down and I told her everything, and she told me what I was doing was right, that my son needed a dad what would always be there and not neglect him, basically a father that was alive7

I went home and kept playing the lyrics in my head, what had happened was my mother had brought me back to life, she had stopped me from going over the edge in life, she was my safety net8

Every time I hear this song now it reminds of times that I regret deeply but also reminds me that there is always someone out there willing to make you stop and give you a second chance to live your life9

I have been clean from drugs now for 2 years and my drinking is not as extreme as it once was, I can have a drink but only in moderation, I realise all the time I spent wasting my life with drugs and not spending time with my son is something I will never get back but I’m making up for lost time now, and I put it all down to this song, it will always be dear to me and if I ever get tempted to go down that road again I replay the lyrics in my head and stop10

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I am ashamed to say this is a true story in my life that i'll never forget, i'm willing to help anyone ot there who has a drug problem

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  • rockin.reader123
    August 17, 2008
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    Read rule #5. Other then that I thought it was a beautiful story and even though I've never met you I am proud of you for turning your life around. I was hoping somebody would choose to write about the ending of an addiction, so thank you for that. If you message me your favorite movie (it will make sense when you read the fifth rule) then I'll wave it over .

  • parntsoftwins
    May 23, 2008

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    Very imspirational write! I applaud you for choosing the right road! Thank you very much for choosing my contest to share this in! I hope you are able to help others with your experience. hugs and blessing~Nikki


  • Zerstort
    March 29, 2008

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    I understand why you got the gold on this! This is good. Unfortunate that it was true, but it's still good. LIke an inspirational. I liked this.

    --Aden


  • emperess27
    February 25, 2008

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    Wow! This is an amazing life story. I am so pleased that you are free of those terrible habits you were on and I hope that you and your son are making up for lost time. I have heard alot from people about the damage drugs can do and am very pleased that you were able to kick the habit. Everyone here is proud of you. This is very good, and exactly what I was looking for. I like the fact that you put in some of the song lyrics itself. The grammar is good too. Well done and good luck in the competition. Kais =)