Your Set Ups and Sit Downs

This isn't a poem nor a story. This is me venting. So if you think you might not want to hear me rant and rave, or if you think you'll have a problem with me after you read this. Don't read it then.
... because I'm not happy right now. And it's contagious. 1

+++++++++++++++++Traitors never play hangman+++++++++++++++++++++2


Hurt, Hurt, Hurt. It all started off with promises, don't make this a fucking domino effect. Replacements, I knew they'd come. Because I'm always replaced. I am used to fill in another's gap, until I'm to worn out for you. Forget me already? I can do the same. Nobody fucking gets it. I can be alone. It's no different. Because thats how I feel around all of you. I know what you say behind me. And don't think I still love you because I could care less at this point about all of you. 3


Trust will be forever lacked on this fucking doomed planet I'm supposed to call my home. I don't have a home. I bring misery and complications every where I go. Give up on me like everyone else did. It's the right thing to do after all. If you want me... you want a lost cause. Truly I would apologize to everyone who has had the displeasure of meeting me. I'll send you flowers and a fruit basket to make it up I swear. 4

Gawd. How can I be so blind as to whats you've been doing? All this time... I let it go... I said it was a phase. Things will never go back. I miss that. I miss who I wanted to be, and I hate who I have become. This terrible person I am. I told you no one will like me, when they take the time to see me. I feel bad for my hired friend... because she's forced to know me. Poor thing. I'll send her a thank you card too. 5

You probably planed it this way. It has all of you written completely over it. Don't point fingers. No, please whatever you do...never turn against eachother. I'll throw myself in the fire for you. All along. You have let me on, to something that was real, only through a glass case, never touchable. Always transparent .... and have me searching in a circle... You left a transparent fingerprint right on my heart. All of you. I should forget all of you. What good have yo done to me? Everywhere I go, it's like the end of the world. And I know it. Maybe I should watch how close I get to the edge... because one of you will push me off.6


It has also been my misfortune to have met the ones who would eventually bring me this low. To the ground,I can did my own fucking grave. It's not that hard, I've had to dig a few myself. You don't know my story. NO one has ever known. Nor has taken the time. But I wasted my time with these people, who couldn't give a damn about me. They say " ohmegee... I can't live without you, I love you Mic.".... really then well how the hell do you survive those loooong weekends. I want to see how things would be if I were dead. Drastic fake little Bitches. You never ever know with me. 7

I'm not sweet.I'm seducing. I'm not pretty, I pathologic. I know it all when it comes to you. I'm not okay. But I can mimic your words, your habits too. I picked up over the years darling, theres nothing you can do. 8


Emotionless....I'm stuck in that state. Never answer questions that demand a heartfelt answer. I'll just hide behind this curtain of hair. Don't look at my eyes. Nor these spiteful lips. Where have I been.....9


I have been abandoned again. I am alone. But I am not going to let you see that satisfactory frown. Never...10

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