Mercy

Am I an angel? I guess so. Or at least - slightly lower then one. I just hear peoples thought. I can't help them. Unless I let them see me. 1


But never -ever - do that.2

3

They can hear me if I whisper.
Just beside them and if I don't touch them.
But even then, its only the softest breath of comfort. 4


My name is Creed. 5


I'm from pergatory. 6


I swore to pay for my sins and an angel must have heard me. 7

So they let me wander.8

Not too far away, but near enough to Los Angeles so I could just see my house.
Its that one over there; the one beside the part.
The house with the blue walls and the pool. 9

Yeah. 10

That one. 11


I even saw my mother once.
I couldn't catch the words in her mind.
But she was sad. 12

So very, very sad. 13

I hope that wasn't my fault.
I didn't mean to hurt her.
I thought I was saving her.
But it didn't take as long as I hoped it would for them to find the suicide note.
She'd barely recovered from my sisters death.
An angel told me she went to heaven. But I never saw her again.14

Maybe she's the one with the silver grey wings that watches me some times. 15

She must have seen me then - what I had done. 16


The rope. 17


And then the cross. 18


Ah yes, the cross.
I'd almost forgotten. 19


I crucified myself to the cross above the Church a mile from our house. 20

Took me a month to pay someone enough to help me to climb. 21


Then slit my wrists. 22


And I thought it would've hurt more. 23

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Someone told me once that I was lost. 25

Lost. 26


Lost? 27


No. 28

I knew exactly what I was doing. 29

I just forgot about everyone else. 30

I thought they wouldn't care.
Maybe most of them didn't.
But mother did.
And she cried so quietly in her mind.
I could hear the tears.31

Feel them burning the agony of her loss inside her heart.
It hurt more then the razors.
But I can't help her. I can't save her. 32

That was the price. 33

That was my punishment. 34

Not even one last goodbye. 35

My name is Creed.
I'm Mercy from heaven. 36

I can't save anyones life; I'm not that kind of angel.
But I can hear you when you cry.
And I'm sorry I can't hold you. 37

But I'll pray for you. 38

-fin