Hindering the inevitable Part IIIIIIIII

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As I sit on the back patio listening to the faint sounds of raindrops hitting the deck I think of you. 2

We haven't held a decent conversation in approximately forty-eight hours. I've been thinking about you all day, sitting at home alone wondering where you were, what you were doing, and who you were with.3

This is driving me insane. I call you but to my disadvantage you don't answer. I've listened to all of your voice messages, too many times than I care to count. Where are you? Why aren't you here with me? 4

The other night when we had our very erotic conversation it created a bond between us. I felt like for one split second we belonged to each other 100%. 5

Unfortunately, I have my doubts now. I miss you so much that it's beginning to depress me. I wonder if someone else is getting your time and your loving.6

You told me that you're working, but I'm sure that you could find some time in your schedule for me. 7

I think I'm going to fix me a drink. I guess I should have known that this wouldn't have worked out any better than my last relationship with a female did.8

I've come to terms with the fact that most of you butches would rather do things your own way other than to compromise.9

I don't know maybe I'm just being pessimistic. I won't doubt your intentions, because I always say that relationships should start off with trust. Until you give me a reason not to I will respect your word. 10

My womanly instincts are warning me. Maybe I'm a little insecure because of my past. Hell I don't know that could most definitely be the problem.11

I want to believe that you want to be with me, but then again what's stopping you?12