hit me again... 2

My heart stopped, what do i say? He can't help me anyways.
"Trent why would you say that, your never around anymore, you blew me off, i trusted you, i wanted to tell you cuz i figured you would understand!"
"Yo tried to fuck me at a party..."
Trent laughed roughly a hint of spite in is voice.
"I'm not sorry..."
"O know, and that's why were not friends anymore!"
I ignored his voice and sunk lower into the water to repress my hang-over, My face slightly under the surface, i blew bubbles as i let air out of my lungs. I thougt back to that night, only 4 months ago...1

"Trent, wait help me up the stairs, i think i'm drunk."
He laughed at my slurred remark, pulling my arms around his neck as he lofted my gracefully off hte oncrete ground. I liked it here, being in his arms, i was safe here no one could hurt me.
"Your lighter than i though you were..."
I giggled and held onto him tightly as he carried me up the stairs to our apartment.
"Sometimes you just surprise me matty, you come to the party already wasted, and then i have to carry you home."
I sighed playfully and a mischieveous smile came across my face. He kicked the door open and strode into my bedroom,laying me down on my back.
"Trenton, i want to tell you something, but i'm scared..."
He smirked and laughed a little bit.
"well tell me when your not scared."
"come'er."
My voice was queit and whiny. Trent walked over to me and sat next to me.
"Trent...I think i'm in love with you..."
He laughed taking my comment for sarcasm i sat up and pressed my lips softly against his, of course he pulled away, but he was pretty tipsy, so i easily pulled him back into me, rolling over pinning him under me.
"Matt, stop."
I pressed my lops harder against his forcing his mouth open our toungues attacked eachother. I sat up and pulled my shirt off, trent finally got control of the situation and ran away...
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I was screaming gasping for air. Shane grabbed me and held me tightly in is arms, tears stung my eye's he slowly rocked me back and forth in his beighe smoothes arms. I tightly grasped his shoulders.
"Hey, baby...i'm here your okay."
My body shook fiercly. HIs hands moved back and forth across my back trying tiredly to sooth me. I pulled my legs up and crawled into his lap.
"You've got to start sleeping kid...i'm gettin real sick of these fuckin nightmares. your 21 not 5."
I whimpered a little bit at his harsh words but like always i block it out.
"Fuck natt, i have to wrk at 6,"
I turned and looked at teh clock, 4:12.
"Just go watch some t.v. or something."
and with that he pushed me off of him and laid back down.
"I love you."
"yea, good night."
.....he used to say if back...
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The water turns off, i oen my eye's and through the water i see trent looking down at me, his arms pull me up and realize im not breathing. He's hitting me n my back. Water comes up and i scramble to get out of the water.
"Simmer! Chill out Matty!
"I want out!"
"Okay Okay, relax so i can,"
I relaxed in his arms, laying my head against his chest, making a sufficiant we spot.
"K, I'm going to pick you up, don't even look at me , seeing you naked has already scarred me for life."
I laughed into his chest. His arm slid under my thighs and the other around my back. He lifted me up and i gasped. My eye's closed tightly and i bit my lip hard. He slid me onto my bed. I pulled my arms up to cover my face. trent looked at my body carefully, looking for evidnece of his suspected abuse theory.