Hit me again....

I'm happy, yeah of course i'm happy... i live in a nice house well apartment really. anyways i'm happy...you believe me right? I'm in all all boy's college, i get good grades, well i did get good grades... i mean i'm ood looking, well sorta, i'm kinda depressing looking i guess, i was't but i am now. Well i'm hapy definitly happy...1

"Mathew, come on we're going to be late!"2

I pulled the blanket over my head and tensed my body. My muscles hurt to much to go to class, i'm jsut too tird...3

Mathew!!!"4

It's quiet now. I slip back into sleep. In m head i'm screaming. He keeps yelling fo me. He's grabbing me shaking me it's going faster and faster.5

"Wake up, wake up!"6

I'm screaming7

"Mathew, Mathew."8

Arms quickly consume my body holding me close. Muffleing my screams. My muscles are tensed and they're hurting me by forcing me to bend to his form. I'm crying. it hurts. Eventually i relax. I'm exhausted. I have to pee but i can't make myself move. I'm begging my body to move and my blatter to hold it. I can't. My leg becomes warm and wet. I lay there on my left side, alone, unable to express my pain, shame and sorrow. A single tear rolls across my nose.9

HOT!!!10

"Stop!"11

I scream as the hot water surrounded me. Hand made sure i stayed sitting in the bathtub.12

"He speaks...Mathew i was worried about you i know we don't tak anymore but i still care about you...as friends...you've been missing class, alot and i'm just worried, you're drunk aren't you?13

I nodded solemnly. I was but that's not why i've been missing classes...14

"are you okay?"15

I nodded again and pulled my knee's up to my chest, rest my head against them, water pooled around me, i flinched as it began to cover bruised on the back of my thighs.16

"I;m sorry i just intruded on you, i came earlier to get you, i figured you were sick...guess i was right." 17

"You were holding me???"18

"...Yeah you were having a nightmare."19

"O,"20

I sighed and closed my eye's.21

"Matty, that's not all that's wrong, is it? I know you better than that...."22

A smirk pulled at the edge of my lips. He did know me better, better than anyone. 23

"K, you know me so well, what wrong with me?"24

he sat down on the floor, leaning against the bathtub.25

"I think it's him, that guy your dating"26

"Trent if you were worried you woudln't have rejected me to nothing.27

He sighed softly.28

"I'm sorry matty, it was just to much for me right then. I still worry about you, matty....doews he hurt you?"29