The Apparition Man Chapter one - Life- Part Four- Edited

The Apparition Man
Tennille Chase
Chapter One – Life
Part Four1

My mother looked across at me, a shadowy smile cast upon her face, it practically screamed bad news. She stood up, dragging her chair over to my bedside. Her expression did not change with her movement, it just remaining the same. She rested her arm on my bed, looking deeply into my eyes as if she was searching for something.2

"So," I asked icily, "What did they drug me with this time."3

She looked disturbed, as if I was asking her to cut my throat and hang me from the ceiling to bleed to death, and though at this present time that sounded appealing, I wanted to get to the core of my fate. 4

For I knew this time, I would not escape with being deemed problematic or simply depressed. I knew this time they all thought I was insane, and I loved it with a passion, I loved to play mind games with their heads, manipulate their compassion. It was a cheap thrill for what there happiness cost me.5

"Morphine love."6

I nodded, I already knew that, I just wanted to hear her tone of voice when she said it; I wanted to hear her pain. I nodded again, "Very well done mother, and who's side are you on again?"7

She flipped her hair back behind her shoulders and proceeded to rub her red blood-shot, tired eyes. "I'm not on anyone's side, I was trying to help you ease your pain, and you were rather delusional love."8

Ah yes, the delusional speech, I had heard it one too many times before, each time being more pathetic and wasteful than the last.9

"In what sense was I being delusional mother, for as far as I can tell, I am pretty sane the last time I checked."10

She shook her head, "Your very far from being well Reidy, and you damn well know it to, and let me tell you this self destructing pattern you're go going on, is only going to get worse before it gets better."11

I shook my head, looking up at the ceiling and smiled, "I guess I will be the judge of that, wont I?"12

She shook her head, taking a deep breath, and looked at me, 'You are going to rehab," she whispered, choking on her sentence.13

My eyes widened, "You mean to say there institutionalizing me in a loony bin."14

She shook her head, "Rehab for the clinically depressed," she said, letting a tear escape her eye.15

I smiled wickedly, so I had been deemed insane, and depressive, had they finally seen my cry for a death wish, was someone listening to my prayers. 16

"Don't you mean insane, because I find myself more insane than depressed, but if that's what they want then I accept the vacation."17

My mother's lips grew tight as she squinted her eyes in anger, I knew that face, I Knew she was pissed of, she was just another time bomb ticking away.18

"STOP IT, just stop it at once, you selfish little bitch, can't you just for once in your life show some remorse for your actions, and consider the feeling's of the people who care about and love you."19

I held my head high, watching her fall to pieces, it was so easy, all I had to do was pick and poke at her until she snapped, like she already had, but I did not feel discouraged by her verbal abuse, rather I enjoyed infuriating her to the point that she snapped right out of her holy ways. 20

"I will start showing remorse when you take that self righteous pole out of your ass and stop mocking and questioning, my beliefs and faith."21

She cringed at my retaliation, it looked like it had hit hard, but I loved to see her quiver under my interrogation.22

“Kerry is dead, end of story, and you need some time away to think that over, so that when you can finally move on, you can move on with peace in mind."23

I smirked, "They should be putting you into rehab mother, you're more fucked up than I am, if you think that I will ever forget Kerry."