the diary of Brenda Spencer 1 night before the murders

dear diary,
i hate them i hate them all why is it always me, why do they always pick on me, what did i do to deserve it, i'm desperate to escape from this, i can't help it i can't help what my father done to me i just can't. i want revenge on the people that done this to me all the people at school hate me even the teachers pick on me, i want revenge they humilliate me in class and nobody at home cares about me. sometimes i feel like putting my gun to my head and pulling the trigger but then i realise it's not me and it's not my fault it's theres and they should pay for all this pain they should feel my pain. i have got to get revenge i'm desperate all the voices in my head reminding me of what they said and what they done i can't take it i am going to use my christmas present and i'm going to put it to good use. by the end of tommorow the whole world will know the name of brenda spencer. i like bright colours they stick out i will get them first and then the teachers that have humilliated me all my life. I WILL HAVE REVENGE!!!!!