I remember lying on the green grass looking up to the stars with Mary, her brown bangs covered half her face, her blue eyes sparkled, just right. She was perfect. Everything I wanted. I was so afraid she would leave me, leave me for someone better, leave me for....a guy. Mary, could hurt me, but only in my dreams.1
I got made fun of everyday in the hallways for holding her hand, for showing her and everyone else what I had was real. When I was with her everything seemed real. I wasn't so lost anymore, I could actually smile. And mean it.2
For the first time in my life, I had a reason to be happy.3
Mary was my reason. She was the reason I woke up smiling, she was the reason I stopped crying myself to sleep everynight, but stayed up talking to her. She told me she'll never leave.4
I believed her.
Stupid me.5
I remember that night in December, I will always regret it. I guess it was my fault. I wasn't enough. I wasn't there enough, and I blame myself everyday. I express myself by the deep, selfish cuts. But then again, I didn't deserve her. Not me.6
I still love Mary, I always will. But now I realize that she was only part of my imagination. Mary was never real. But what I had for her was. And I might be crazy, but falling in love with Mary was the best thing that ever happened to me. 7
Maybe thats why I'm on these pills, maybe thats why I'm in this place...
Author notes
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"It's hard to say, that everything will be okay."
A contest entry
- Another Song inspiration contest by Azzy Bear.
450 points, ended February 2, 2008, 1 entries
Gold trophy winner
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i... i know what the situation is like. i know what it is to have a voice like that...
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u r thte only one to enter my contest.
Im adding all the points from bronze and silver to gold.
congrats! -
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sweet
Thanks, sorry you didnt get any entries though
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O.O I LOVED THIS PEICE ^_^
So tragically lost in love
I believed her.
Stupid me.
what we believe when we are in love -
Im not much of a critiquer here, coz i dont have anything bad to add to this.
i was listening to the song while reading this piece, and i have to say, you nailed the beginning, not so much in the middle, but the ending was good.
Goodluck in the contest...whoever you are!
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I know the feeling of being scared of someone you love leaving you. it is the worst feeling ever!
this was really good. i enjoyed it thoroughly.
The only thing I suggest is changing the line
"Even though I got made fun of everyday in the hallways for holding her hand, for showing her and everyone else what I had was real".
It says "even though..." and then doesn't give you any more information... it just tells you what happened and not what happened despite of that. Do you get what I mean? Just read that line again and I'm sure it will be clearer.
Congrats on an interesting and enjoyable piece, I look forward to reading more of your work. -
hmm
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Ah Ha.
I understand it!
Wow, that was very interesting, deep, it's perplexing is what it is.
I loved it, and the ending twist. AH! I love it.
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good job.
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omg aww.
AWWWW!
fuck you fer writing so awesomely.
Is awesomely a word??
Anyway...
AWWWWWW!
This is amazing.
Fer sure.
Did you notice I say fer sure to just about everything?
Hm, anyway AWWW, still.
heehee.
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I don't get the Your Kind thing but It was good.
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