Don't Miss Me When I'm Gone

As I sit here in your arms, I'm reminded of all the little things we did together. It doesn't matter what they were. As long as we were together.1

Being in your arms was all I wanted the minute I saw you. We had always been friends. We were never more than friends until a few months ago. The only issue is I wish it had occured to you that I loved you even sooner. If only I had had the time.2

I didn't expect this to happen. I really hadn't planned on it. I had only done what my conscience and my heart had told me to. Funny! My conscience and my heart have never tag-teamed together so well until a few moments ago. Those moments feel like hours.3

I recount what happened during our first kiss. That was a Monday. We were at your house watching a movie. I don't really know what triggered us to do it, but I'm glad we had. Your lips on mine was the smoothest feeling I'd ever felt. And I liked it.4

Tuesday, we walked hand in hand down the hall, sometimes with our arms around each other's waist. Some of our friends were shocked beyond belief. Others shook their heads, saying, "It's about damn time!" All I knew was that I was happy to be with you.5

A couple of weeks along, we were getting yelled at for PDA in the hallway. Who'd a thunkit!! We had also become the topic of every story our friends had to tell! Isn't it funny how things work out? We really didn't care, though, did we?6

In May, it was a warm spring night with a full moon. Need I say more?!7

I never expected us to be so close, to be like this. I never expected to be in a car accident either.8

Now, as I stare into your eyes, you're hardly touched by the head-on collision with that truck. Just a wounded knee. You'll live to tell the tale. I, on the other hand, have glass embedded in my body, broken arms from trying to block my face from the air bag, shards of mirror bits piercing my organs, and many other pains that I couldn't have told you.9

Your eyes, so blue. Are you really crying?10

Don't cry for me, my love. I've had my share of happiness while being with you here on Earth. I'm just blessed that I've had the chance of meeting you, laughing with you, crying with you, sharing our whole lives from age six to the present, even loving you for such short time.11

No, I don't regret dying. I only regret not being with you for longer than just a few months. Besides that, I guess Cicely Tyson would say that I've been divinely favored. Just remember me. That's all that I want from you, my darling. As hard as it sounds, I just want you to remember me. There are many people out there that are a much better person than me.12

I know that I'm the one you loved. If you love me, you'll let me go, though. I beg you not to waste your life in misery because of your loss as many people have before us. You have a better chance of living without me than a chance of me living without you.13

I love you, my sweet. Just don't miss me when I'm gone. When I get where I'm going, I'll put in a good word for you. Live life to the fullest, even when things get you down. I've had my opportunities. You have plenty to live for.14

Don't miss me when I'm gone.