Reminise

Her world suddenly crashed without any warning, she didn't know what to do. She was so hurt. She couldn't move. She didn't want to. She just wanted to die. She wanted to die... so she wouldn't have to face the reality that he was gone. She sat at the computer and read all of her old poems. They were so happy, so full of life, so vibrant. What'd happened? Why did she let him go? He made her happy. She liked that feeling. She loved him, with all her heart. That's the past now though. The fact was and is that he's gone. She would never get him back. She is just fine with that now. Someone new came along. She really likes him. He loves her. She wants to love him, but she's afraid. She's afraid that he'll hurt her. She's afraid that if she loves him, he'll crush her, like that last person she ever loved did. She doesn't want that. She barely made it the first time, a second time will surely kill her. He's awesome to her though. She knows she's falling for him, no matter how hard she tries to resist. He hasn't done anything to her... yet. She wants to give him a chance. He deserves it. He's more than proven he's worth it. He's worth the time she's spent on him, but can she trust him? Can she tell him her deep dark secrets? Can she tell him the things that bother her? Will he listen? Will he leave her if he founds out something he doesn't like? She's scared to chance it. She's actually happy with him. She doesn't know where she would be without him. She had once thought that she would NEVER find anyone new,... that she would never love again and never be happy again. He changed that. He came. He opened up her fragile heart with caution and promised he'd take care of it. He asked that when it's healed, if she would let him in, give him a chance. Give him a chance to prove that he wouldn't break it. She didn't want to tell him, that she already knew that he wouldn't. That she's already handed her so once broken heart to him, hoping and praying that he wouldn't hurt her. She didn't want to tell him that she loved him already.1