Succumb to that Tantalizing Dream that is My Smiling Nightmare

My pillow beckons enticingly1

Inviting me to fall into the dark shadows of its nightmares.2

Should I give in to the temptation? 3

Should I Succumb to the possible peace that the slumber could 4

give me?5

I don’t know.6

You’re there, in the dream.7

Aren’t you?8

Well, if you’re there…9

But I’ve had that dream before,10

That dream that is more tantalizing than a mountain of chocolate…11

That dream that is more repulsing than the rank scent of death and decay.12

It is only there, in that dream, that you look me in the eye. 13

It is only there, in that dream, that your hand fits into mine just as well as it used to, fits like14

those perfect little Russian nesting dolls, each 15

cradling the other, protecting, 16

nurturing.17

It is only there that your fingers caress my hair, and18

It is only there that you memorize my face as I memorize yours.19

It is only there that I can feel the soft breath of your 20

whispered “I love you.”21

It is only there that I can forget that you are no longer mine. 22

There, you are my cup of hot chocolate after a trip out into the 23

snow. 24

There you are, 25

Smiling26

in a sea of27

Frowns.28

But I don’t know.29

Do you need me?30

Do you even want me?31

Because, 32

I need you.33

You’re there.34

Aren’t you?35

You are36

My nightmare.37