Him

You know, everyone says he loves me so much. It was only about half and hour ago I was told he cared a lot by his room mate, for what seems like the hundredth million time, and I don’t care! I seriously can’t get enough of it, every time I hear some one say he cares so much for me... it just makes me smile because the funny thing is, sometimes I don’t think he understands how much I actually care for him. Although I suspect he’s been told. I was told by one friend, who talked to him, that I was a major reason he hadn’t moved away yet. I’m so glad I’ve actually found some one who cares that much… granted I know all my friend care about me, don’t get me wrong, but this is different. This is a man that I have fallen completely in love with and I don’t ever want that to change. If it does change I better only be falling deeper. God he makes me so happy, he’s completely random and we have so much in common. With just one look he can make me smile, shiver, or sigh. That’s all it takes. I care for him so much; I don’t want to loose him. I really don’t want to loose him, he makes me so happy. And you know what… I don’t feel like I would have to suffer to make him happy, anything he wanted, anything, I would give it too him. And if all he wants is my love, he’s got it, good lord has he got it. He holds my weak heart in the palms of his hands. And this may make me seem ‘obsessive’ but I know I’m not.. I can go without seeing him, its just that I hate to… the thought of not being able to see him saddens me, I mean it doesn’t make me depressed, it’s just... I love being near him, because when I’m near him, even when I am depressed, I’m not, he ALWAYS gets me to smile, no matter how upset, or pissed off I am. He’s just amazing, and perfect in everyway... I just... I wish I could tell him myself how much I love him. I have no idea how to do it... I want him to understand, I don’t want to freak him out, but I don’t think I would... I want him to know, to understand how much I care, how happy he makes me, how amazingly wonderful I feel by just being near him. With him its like… I’m his yes, but I’m not just a girlfriend, I’m not just a girl, I am actually a friend to, we can actually hang out with others and just kick it, its so amazing... granted I know I am a bit clingy.. I like affection… but I’m trying to work on that… *sigh* anyways.. I should get going… it’s almost one in the morning… 1

You know what the best part is? Ever since I became his, I’ve had the sweetest dreams, not necessarily of him, just nice dreams, nothing nightmarish or anything… and I like that... cause it used to be I only had bad dreams… God he is perfect... and his imperfections... they only make him more perfect… Yes I know that makes no sense but love isn’t supposed to make sense  2

Night everyone3