life due to beer

when your young and just starting to learn about love that's when it is the best,there are no walls no leftover hurts and pains.1

the first love is so pure that's why everyone never forgets the first one they feel in love with.2

and can you look back to the day you got that first kiss how shy and good you was feeling at the same time.3

if we all could keep hold of the youth that was once in us this world would be a better place.4

but that ain't the way it is most of us have been hurt so many times the walls are so high we will never bring them down.5

this is my story and why I'm the way i am this day and sure i will always be till the day i die.6

i guess my life was OK for the first ten years,then my mom and dad started drinking with friends on weekends.and that was kind of fun for us kids because we were getting away with things.7

like we would say we was going to one place and then go to another,just because we could8

then we started to smoking,sneaking them from the pack left on the card table along with a sip of beer9

this went on for i cant even tell you how long,and wanting to feel all grown up i also had my self a boy friend10

we feel in love so strong and pure it just had to be the real thing nothing but the real thing could feel this good11

we was together all the time he was my first love and i was his we tryed to be together always12

mean while my mom and dad life was splitting up,the drinking the fights more beer more fights13

then came other partners this really hurt us kids allot,our home the once safe place was all gone14

our mom and dad i know loved us but they to was torn apart and could do little to help us kids15

we was bounced around from one town or state to another,with mom a few months then we was bouncing back to dad16

we had no place to call home we were just about on the streets many a time,in school a month then i was moving again17

its a wonder we all turned out as good as we did,not that i have anything to brag about because i don't18

i got married when i was fourteen just to get out of the mess my mom and dad was in,oh ya they did get together every few months to make their life and ours hell19

if only they would stop the drinking things might have gotten better but they just had to drink and i wanted out so i got pregnant20

i knew if i had a baby on the way it would be a way out,and i could make my own home,and that's what i did21

well as anyone would guess it turned out bad,i was way to young to be a wife at the age of fourteen,and my husband was only eighteen22

we lasted nine years and three children.(then it was over)23

i got married again real soon after and so did my x he went his way i went mine24

i was pregnant again and this time i had twins,and they was the last no more did i want25

well this marriage went OK for a while until the drugs came into it,things got so bad it was like living with mom or dad again i never did feel like it was a home26

i stayed in this marriage for eighteen years,i wanted to make my kids feel they had a home.(but really they didn't)27

and they told me they was happy when i at last left,there is no way to hide or cover up how you really feel.(and they say it)28

i left town went to stay with one of my children and that is when i ran into my first x husband29

and yes we hit it off and we are now to gather once again,our children are all grown up with kids of their own30

and now i have a place to call my home,I'm happy i wish things could have been better when i was young31

but its what made me who i am this day and I'm OK with my self now and for a long time i wasn't32

my mom and dad stoped drinking and never got together they both went their own ways and it was for the best for them I'm sure33

all my kids can remember their grandmas drinking days,and their grandpas too,but that was a long time ago34

mom has passed on to be with God,and dad is not so healthy I'm hoping God wont take him for a long while35

i have forgiven both my parents,but you can also bet on me i do not drink and i will never start36

if you ask me all the crap in my life was due to the grand old beer.37