I Am Him It's like a needle A kind of evil If you're the devil It's very simple .... "Nothingface" I AM HIM1
It all started in the summer of 2006...2
Way before I was even ready to admit that I was no longer the lesbian I made out I was..3
waste really.. thought it did make me who I am so one can really not justify that can they now4
MALE ON MALE SEX....5
I had it written on the top of my page.... 6
I had taken the televising in my room on a Monday night, it was 12 am.... I more hour to my favorite show was to come on.7
MALE ON MALE SEX....8
It was my secret ... I was so scared my mother would walk in and realize I was practically watching porn.. in the lowest form of t.v... It was all about homosexuals.. gays..fagots....fairies...9
It was my dream, I wanted to be like them.10
I wanted to be a man. I wanted to be gay... more than anything I wanted what they were well equip with..11
I scribbled down a few things down on the piece of paper12
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If only I knew how to be a man, than maybe I could find a boyfriend.. hate breast..must get surgery... surgery... yes.... 14
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I did not understand it... months ago I was fine with my large firm breast, I enjoyed them, spent many hours watching them, playing with them sucking them, doing anything with them... now they repulsed me.. made me want to throw up..16
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I wanted nipples, I wanted soft abs, I wanted a nice v line, I wanted a cock....18
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Still it was now 12:30 am in the morning I felt horny.... no not horny, confused... so I stumbled into my bathroom and switched on the night light, I knew somewhere here my older brother had a dildo, he was gay how could he not...20
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I was glad he wasn't home, But I found it, under a towel, there it was, a thick, rippled hard dildo...22
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I looked at it, feeling it, rubbing it stroking it... suddenly I had the urge and an idea...24
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I ran into my bedroom pulling my pants down and spread my legs, sliding the dildo up inside me... there it sat... inside my semi-wet inside..26
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The show hard started... it started with a bang... the kind of bang I didn't need but wanted.. sex..SEX.. sex... cock.. hardcore sex...28
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suddenly without realizing I had started stroking the dildo... fast and hard... though it was only lightly pressing inside me I felt some slight tingling ... 30
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I looked down, confused, tears falling from my eyes... I was stroking.... stroking.... STROKING my cock.... I started to cry... 32
Author notes
PART TWO... it is a bit erotic, but it needs to be said
In a list
Honest OPINIONS
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This has good thought to it. I am sure this is how all transgenders feel. even if they don't go through the steps to make what they feel they are real. It has to be hard to be one thing but feel another and to want what you should have but don't.
I can't wait to read the next part.
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Wow...tis really honest and raw...erotic and emotional...all at once. I am sure you spoke for a lot of people in these feelings and thoughts that you express here.
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This was really good I love the emotions and thought put into it it is very intense and so sad and confusing for her please keep up the good work I cant wait to read more of your work
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Wow, thats an interesting point of veow, that is rarely thought of. Great read.
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Good
This is healthy blair, good to be venting these thoughts
I really liked this, even tho the thought of the dildo kind've turned me off (And im gay. who woulda thought) this was a good write.
I'll read on!
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MIGHT *_*
YAY...omg so glad my buddy likes it.. heheh it wasn;t really meant to turn people on.. just explain, but if i did Well I guess I have another reason to smile
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I know I shouldn't be reading this, but I agree, it needs to be said.
You MUST write more! I will continually come back to check if you wrote more! xD
Keep it up!!!. Rewarded 4
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siby*_*
thank you again for reading and seeing my need to add this so early... its how it needs to play out and it is truth in my character... ^_^ love and thanks -
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siby*_*
thanks again and again lol *_*
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lol. you have a ghey brother? is this about you? x.x im a lil confused. but this was an interesting peice.
xox
ebb
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ebb xoxo
THE BEAUTY OF FICTION... No I dont but in my ficiton I can have one lol.....confused okay I am a girl who wants to be a guy..... a gay one..... love blair
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I love how you describe raw emotion, you have a knack for touching on a un-talked about subject so boldly, it is really good and has a great little plot line, keep it up. There are quite a few spelling mistakes and grammar errors but all can be fixed in time and with some editing, keep it up darling! x x
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crystal *_^
SLaps hand away from own face...... Lol spelling and grammar blair *_* thank you for seeing it ... reading it and understanding it
Love blair
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Wow, that's really sad, and really confusing. Not for the reader, but for you. I honestly hope this eventually works out for you.
I've read a few of your pieces, and I dont think I need to say it, but I will anyway. Keep up the fantastic writing. For some reason I feel you wont have a problem with that.. Rewarded 6
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midnight *_*
twas a confusing time..... but thank you for understanding and rreading my peices.. it means the world to me *_*
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