Smile

IT was Saturday morning when I awoke. This was Saturday with no worries and no problems. I never knew what was coming next and never thought it would change the course of my life.1

“Hey sweetie, Good morning, how did you sleep?” John had a huge smile upon his face.  It was a smile that every girlfriend would fall in love for. The only thing is that I was in love with him already. 2

“Bad; I don’t feel like I got enough of it.” John then gave me a small kiss on the cheek.  John is a year older than me and we have been together for the past year and a half. I met him at the end of my senior year right when I was about to graduate. I remember walking down the path to get my diploma and he had the same smile on his face with big red roses scented and shining. He was the love of my life and I wanted to spend the rest of it together with him always. 3

“Babe, you slept 12 hours. I think you got enough of it. Trust me. Well today I have you’re whole day planned. We’re going to go to the movies and I’m going to take you out to dinner. I want to take you out to some place special so I want you to wear something nice. Try to wear something that lightens up the occasion a bit.”4

I didn’t quite understand what he meant by that. I guess he wanted me to wear something revealing and silky. Either way I knew he would love what I was to wear. He always has loved what I wear and how I dress. 5

I got ready to go to work for 8 hours of my horrific day. I was looking forward to going to the movies and dinner. But there was something that was bothering me too at the same time. Why were we going to dinner and why is it special? 6

Then my phone rang; one that would change the rest of my perfect little life. IT was john and he had very important yet depressing news. 7

“Babe, I need you to come to me right now. I need someone here and you are the only one that makes me happy.” 8

“Sweetie I don’t understand what’s wrong?” I couldn’t even imagine what could be so important that john would be so depressed.9

“My mom was murdered today. She was found in her house in the basement strangled by her laundry wire. I need you babe, please come to me.”10

“Oh baby im so sorry. Don’t worry im on my way. Are you at the house? Where are you at?” I couldn’t believe what I just heard. Who would want to murder his mom? I didn’t have much feeling for her because she didn’t like me but doesn’t mean someone has to die a horrible death like that. Who could have done this to her?11

“Yeah I’m at the house. Please come and see me. I really need someone to talk to and you’re the only one I can think of because I love you so much. Please babe. Come and see me as soon as you can.”12

John seemed so sad that his mom was gone. He didn’t really have that close of a relationship with her because of me. He would always be fighting with her because she didn’t accept me in his life. But I understand why he would be so upset. His mom was murdered. “Yes babe, ill be there as soon as I can. I’m on my way as we speak, ok?13

“Ok just hurry. I love you. Bye.” He had hung up the phone before I could say anything else. I started to make my way home and I couldn’t take the thought that john was so upset. I hate to see him hurt and I don’t know what I should say to him about everything. How do you make someone feel better after something so horrible can happen like that? I had to think of something. I thought the entire way home. 14

I made my way up the stairs and opened the door to find John crying on the floor. Right at that moment tears started to run down my cheek. The love of my life was saddened by his mother’s death and I had no way as to what I would say to him. 15

“Jasmine, you came to me. That is why I love you. Why are you crying?” 16

“John, I can’t stand to see you cry. It hurts me when you hurt. Please don’t be mad at me when I tell you this. That I can’t give you the comfort that you give me. I don’t know what I can say in this situation. I am afraid that I will not satisfy you and your grief I can’t help. Please John I hope you understand….”17

John gave me a small smile. “Jasmine you don’t have to tell me anything. You being here next to me is all I need. That tells me that you really love me and that you are here for me always. That is what I love about you. You complete me and show me the true meanings to life. Before you came along I was no one. I had nothing to look forward to and I never smiled. Now look at me. I smile all the time and you are the reason as to why. I love you jasmine. I love you in my dreams, I love you when I am awake, I love you when you’re not here. I just love you. I hope you can understand that.”18

More tears ran down my cheeks and I rapped my arms around him. He doesn’t realize how great he is and how great he makes me. “ I love you John so much and I hope that you never change.”19

“Actually I am so glad that you said that. Look I didn’t like my mom and she made no sense to me. I have no clue why she didn’t like you.  I hope she rests in peace but this is all the tears I can give to her. Half of my heart had belonged to her but now that she is gone I give it all to you. As a symbol of my love I want to give you something. If you will accept it you will make me the happiest person in the world.”20

“John, before you try to give me anything I need to tell you something. Before you came along I never smiled as well. You make me shine. You make me grand and you make me want to make a better life for myself. I have never had feelings for someone like I do for you. You are the first guy that actually wants to be with me. And it makes me happy knowing that you are willing to give me you’re whole heart. As for me, I have given you my whole heart already and am willing to die in you’re arms.”21

“babe, you just made me the happiest person in the world. You answered all my questions as to if you wanted to spend the rest of my life with me. Thank you so much but I have one more question for you. Jasmine, will you marry me?”22

After I told John yes to his proposal I attended his mother’s funeral. It was a very nice ceremony and john didn’t seem too depressed. His tears dropped here and there and he seemed as though he was letting her go little by little. When she finally was being dropped slowly as “amazing grace” was playing I finally realized that she was gone. I still couldn’t think as to who would do this to her. It didn’t make sense and knowing that she could be gone was strange. 23

A week later after the funeral there was a change in John. I thought it was normal but he was being more distant from me. I couldn’t make out what it was so I gave his all his space that he needed. 24

“Jasmine can you do me a favor?”25

“Anything for you, what is it?” I hope he wanted to talk to me. I missed talking with him. I hope everything passes over.26

“I need you to meet me somewhere later on today. Meet me at the cemetery by my mother’s grave. I need to talk to you about something. Please no questions now just do it.” He got up and left the house. He was depressed still but no tears. He was hiding something and I was afraid to hear what he was going to tell me.27

I went to work that day and I couldn’t concentrate. My boss started to yell at me because I was off task. I don’t remember ever getting on task in the first place. I told him I couldn't think and was sick and he let me go home early. I spent the day walking around thinking about john. When 6 o’clock came around I started to head to the cemetery. When I got there the unexpected had happened.28

When I arrived at the tomb stone I saw john leaning against it. In his hands were a gun and a beer bottle. He was as drunk as Homer Simpson and tears were coming out of his eyes. “John, what are you doing?” 29

“Come and listen to what I got to say. Babe, you know I love you right?” I nodded my head as I listened to what he was going to say. “I love you so much. I wanted to take you out to dinner and propose to you that night my mother was murdered. I went to tell her that I was going to and she called you a low life with no future. And no one talks about my girl like that, not even my mother. I had to let her know that I loved you. The next thing I know I am strangling her and she stopped breathing. It is exactly what I wanted for us. No more problems.”30

“John, you killed your mother? You’re crazy! Why did you do that? How could you?”31

“I wanted to be with you. I did it for us babe. I love you.”32

“You’re a murderer john! I can’t be with you. You killed her. You have her life in your hands!”33

“Jasmine, don’t leave me. I need you still. I need you. If you walk away I'm going to pull the trigger.” He then pointed the gun directly at his head. “Jasmine, Please don’t do this to me. I need you. You are the only one that makes me smile. Don’t walk away from me now. The thought of losing you will kill me.”34

“John, I’m sorry I can’t be here for you. You brought this upon yourself. I’m sorry.”35

I turned to walk away then I heard the shot. 36

BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!37

I blinked and turned to see john lye there staring straight at me. “Why John?”38

“I had to Jasmine. I couldn’t have you walk away. If I can’t have you in life I shall have you in death. Please forgive me jasmine. I hope you still love me. For now I have your life and my mothers in my hands. 39

“You have my love John, and my smile.” I then fell to the ground bleeding from the bullet that hit my heart. 40

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John then pulled the trigger against his own head and lyed against his mother's grave. forever we have eachothers love in death.42