Sexual Abuse1
“No one should have to fear the shadows, but sadly, many do.” This quote was taken from a website about various types of abuse. In my opinion, it sums up sexual abuse in one sentence quite well.2
“Childhood Night”, “You Took Away My Childhood”, and “Untitled” were written by me. I have done a lot of research on child sexual abuse and I believe that these three poems are quite accurate.3
“How I Feel” and “My Life Story” were written by a friend of mine named Laura. I met her online after asking for some help with the poetry which is in this book. She’s been through a lot in her short life so far, which I think is quite visible in her writing.4
Childhood Night (Written by Cecilia R.)5
I wanted him gone but he was always there 6
I wanted to escape but no one seemed to care 7
All I wanted was love but that he couldn't give 8
He took away my freedom and my will to live 9
I waited all day in fear of the night 10
The coldness of his touch the pain of his bite 11
The harshness of his words the blood an his hand 12
He would beat me until I was too weak to stand 13
Then he would do things that I tried to resist 14
But that would be stopped by the strike of his fist 15
The things he would do would fill me with fright 16
He would keep on going for most of the night 17
And then finally everything would be done 18
I had given enough He had had his fun 19
He would turn his back without a care 20
Go off in the darkness and leave me there 21
He took away my childhood and filled my heart with pain 22
All because of him my life can never be the same 23
I'll keep on moving forward try to lock away the past 24
But no matter what I do the pain will always last25
You Took Away My Childhood (Written by Cecilia R.)26
As I was sitting down last night,27
I started thinking about this very sick person28
That molested me as child 29
Why was it a family member, And why me30
It's not a day that goes by31
That I don't think about what happened to me32
It messed me up in the head and also emotionally 33
If I ever had any trust in anyone it's gone now34
You messed up my whole life35
My dreams I wished for as a child36
You took away so much from me 37
I hate you for everything it's worth38
It kills me to see that you have went on with your life39
While I'm still here suffering from yesterdays hurt40
It's not fair that I have to go through this41
While you're living a nice happy life42
I've held this pain in for years 43
But now I can't hold it in any more 44
It's time to let it all out 45
Let these tears finally fall down my face46
As I look back of all the times you molested me47
It makes me go crazy just thinking about it48
All this pain & hatred you have caused49
Makes it hard to go on with my life50
If I only wanted one thing from you51
I would want to know why52
What was in your head when you was doing it53
what did I do to you, for you to mess me up like this54
Today I'm going to try to let it go55
I'm going to let god handle it56
when it's your time to go57
you're going to hell for everything you did to me58
You molested me for years59
days and nights I really feared60
Why did you take a way my childhood?61
I never thought a family member would62
You have totally destroyed my life63
I hate you, You damn lowlife64
You took my niceness65
For a sign of total weakness66
You really messed me up in the head67
Sleepless nights I can't get in bed68
Thinking about what you did to me69
Seeing that you have moved on makes me angry70
If I wanted one thing from you, I would like to know why?71
Why did you say all those dirty things to me & those lies?72
No one ever knew about what you were doing 73
All this power you had over me left me trembling74
Untitled (Written by Cecilia R.)75
I'm 15 years old76
And I cry myself to sleep every night77
I have for the last 10 years78
Since I was little my life has been full of fears and tears79
I'm afraid to go outside 80
I'm afraid to leave my house 81
I don't want guys to treat me like this82
when I was six I was abused by someone close to be and since that day 83
Life is scary 84
No one will know the pain I went through 85
No one ever will 86
I'm sorry for my parents for they knew it was going to happen but they had no way of stopping me 87
I'm sorry to everyone who cared about me 88
But I have to do this 89
Tonight I take my life90
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wow this is all gud it hits me bad though i have been,,,, n well neways it brings memories back that i to try to block out but they always seem to come back no maatter how deep i go or how hungry i get i like this page
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Thank you very much, Lauren. I know what the abused feels like and I know how much it hurts to say something, but I felt that I really must on this subject matter. If you have any poetry or stories on any form of abuse, whether you were abused by someone else or by yourself, I would appriciate it. Thank you so much, your comment means so much to me.
Cecilia. -
Thanks, Victoria Lin. I myself have been a victim of sexual abuse. I know what it must feel like for you to read this and have it trigger so many painful memories. I know what that's like. I'm so sorry. I truly am. No one should have to suffer what we have suffered.
I plan on writing a whole book on Abuse someday...once my dad's dead. O.O
Cecilia. -
.... I'm...Speechless.... this is so... powerful. I really love all of these. It's so sad because I can relate to all of them. But I guess that's what makes them so good in my eyes. They are so beautifully writen, the flow is amazing, and the emotion and feeling comeing out of it is spectacular. You have reallly captured how abused people feel, well, some feel. And what they think and would say if they could. I wish that I could applaud this more then once. Anyway, very exellent write.
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This is powerful and meant a lot to me...Being a victim of sexual abuse as a child I have written a few pieces myself but find I hold back on those that I release to the public...There is always that part of me that will remain guarded...Trying still to protect my soul in some way shape or form...Thank you for such a moving piece and raising awareness on this subject.
Victoria Lin -
For more information on this subject matter, read "Chapter Two". =/ I thought I told you about this earlier...maybe I just assumed you knew. Sorry you had to read this.
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I know that a lot of my writing is triggering. Even re-reading what I've written drives me insane because of what I've been through. For more information on that topic, read "Chapter Two". (In the list 'Crawling in the Dark') I'll make sure to read your poetry soon. That's a promise. I might not comment, but I'll read those three especially.
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Good luck with the writers block
Hope you un-block yourself soon!
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Awesome, Excellent
Wow...not sure what to say...umm this is just awesome even though it brings back some not so nice memories...excellent writing anyway, some poems I've written on my abuse are entitled 'A Quarter Past Three', 'His Smile', and 'Healed' you may read if you like...don't care either way.
Katrina
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Wow... Awesome... I don't feel like giving a real comment... I think my writter's block has now migrated to my comment-creating part of the brain... And I can't even think about where my story's going next...
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