Today was an odd day. Lately we've been talking about death in Literature, based off of one of the stories we just finished reading, The Scarlet Letter. To tell the truth, I detested that book. But death, I mean, come on! Usually, being the girl that I am, love that topic. 1
But not today. Somehow flashes came back to me. Don't ask me how they got conjured into my mind, but they did. See, when I was born, I had a bad lung, and I also had a twin. My twin had a bad heart. I barely survived birth because, even the doctor would tell you, I stole the last power of my twin to keep myself alive. To this day I blame myself for the death of him or her. I do like to believe they would have been a girl though. 2
But the flashes were of things no one would ever, ever see in their minds. I thought of being in the womb still, and actually saw it. I know you probably think I am crazy now, but I swear on my life I saw this. I felt the warmth on my skin, and could hear my twin's weak heartbeats. 3
For the first time ever, I wanted to ask to be excused from class. My eyes got watery. To you, being the reader of this, you may think "She never even knew her twin." But, let me tell you, I have an unbreakable bond with them. I do believe that twins, whether alive or dead, have an odd connection and closeness between themselves, therefore that's where I get the bond. 4
It's kind of hard living through life thinking "I could have a twin sister or brother that could help me through this pain, help cheer me up when I need it, etc." More than once I have told someone that I am a twin and they don't believe me for the fact that there is no living proof. 5
Some people say get over it, some say I'm sorry, and some just plain say you lost them, and to move on. But I say "I didn't just lose my twin, I lost my other half."6
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All of this in this 'story' of mine is true. Still haunts me to this day...
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Brilliant!
Very sad, but beautiful because you wrote with pure emotion.
I have a twin sister, and I don't know what I'd do if I lost her. I'm sorry you never got to know your other half. -
aww. its sad. gud though. very good
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Sorry I just now replied cosmic, but I didn't see your comment until now. You have a really good point with that. But who really knows...
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Or your other half was well aware that you had the best opportunity to be whole so that other half decided to share your breath... your vision... and your life with you as ONE EMPOWERED... instead of two in a perpetual struggle just to live.
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It's okay mom.
I bet the abortion thing is really hard to deal with too... 
I think we ALL hate The Scarlet Letter though, it just... sucks. 
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how sad! this is a deep story and it breaks ones heart to read it........ its so good tho
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Oh hun, I'm so sorry, I never knew! I don't know quite how you feel, but before my mom got pregnant with me she had to have an abortion, it was my dad's child too. I could have had an oder sibling to help me through so much, and to have to always be there for me. It's hard, knowing that it won't happen. But being a twin...I can't imagine. And for the record, you must get your loathing of The Scarlet Letter from me, I hate that book with a passion.
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Awwwwww! This is so so sad hun. I'm sorry you lost your twin at birth. Sometimes I feel as though I lost a part of me at birth because my mother was always so detached from me. She was never there for me in the ways that all mothers are there for their children.
This write was really sad and we all wish we had a twin to share in our pain and joy.
God bless your heart
StillReal
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