Part I

"So lately I've been having these strange feelings... I suppose the only thing I could relate them to would be panic attacks.. but not quit."1

The man was sitting in his chair looking at the young patient. He was kind of old,some would say middle aged. The girl, laying on the sofa was in her early twenties.. She didn't seem that old though, probably due to her small figure. She looked more like a teenager, she acted like one too. 2

"Define lately, Lilly." the man said. "Has there been some significant incident that may have caused these.. feelings?"3

Lilly didn't particularly enjoy the way he said that last word. She thought there was something mocking in his tone but chose to ignore it and went on...4

"Well, I don't think so.. I mean I cannot think of something right now... It doesn't matter really because when I feel that way it's got more to do with the future.. as if I am forgetting something important or whatever..."5

The man looked at her and let a small sight... She had grown up but was still a child... How could you help her? She doesn't want to help herself..6

"So tell me, Lilly, these feelings.. emm can you describe them to me?"7

The girl nodded and then turned her head facing the celling.. That was an old habit of hers... always looking up when she was about to say something very important. Important to her, anyway...8

"Eemm.. well, the thing is that I'm not sure how to express it.. it's kind of, well I don't know.. I suppose it's kind of like when you have lots and lots of things to do and you have to get them done immediately combined with the anxiety of a final exam and the excitement of a trip... only I have none of these.. I mean I can't remember having something in my to do list..."9

Her hands where kind of shaking as she spoke, that seemed to happen a lot and unexpected lately... The man was now smoking his pipe.. pondering and listening.. as the sun began to set and day gave way to night..10