Reliving my Horror;Haunting Me

BASED ON A TRUE STORY!1

Days...They could pass before my eyes,and I wouldn't care.But now,I live with horror.It grows inside me,depression following my every step.Sure,I did lose 7 people in the year of 2004.But compared up against this,losing them is nothing.Compared to this,horror and depression settle in my stomach.My crush,my love has his resemblance.Vincent's resemblance.I want to get this burden off of my chest,yet I know no other way than to tell the world.2

"I hate you!I never want to see you again!"I screamed at Vincent.I was a head taller than him and way more hotheaded.Yep,I was showing my dangerous side again.That's why James gave me my nickname,because I really way dangerous.I would chew you out in a second,punch you,whatever it to get you out of my way.I was Dangerous."I-I-I.."was Vincent's  hectic stammer."JUST SHUT UP!I HATE YOU!"I screamed,anger rising in my voice.I turned around and stormed out of the door.3

Those were my last words.I can cleanly remember the sorrow and sorriness that arose in Vincent's dark brown eyes.They haunt me.I never gave him a second chance.Never got to tell my best friend how much I loved him and how sorry I was.I never got to say good bye.4

A rumor has stirred saying Tomboys can't cry.What a lie.When the news that Vincent had committed suicide hit my,my tears were the floods of the Nile River.They say he was having trouble with his stepfather....But I say it was my coldness.5

Now,Chan looks exactly like Vincent,only taller and tanner.That Friday on the bus,i couldn't help but cry.I couldn't miss the resemblance.No,I couldn't ignore the pain that swelled up inside me,or the love that overflowed my heart.Hurting,yet loving.My emotions were whacked.His dark eyes,Vincent's.Reincarnation?I dunno.God,it hurts.Now,he means the world to me.Chan is so much like Vincent,it's hard not to picture him as Vincent in my mind.Everyday I see him,pain swells inside me.It hurts so much!I lower my head in shame now.The Lord has cursed me,yet I love the Lord for cursing me.....I hate having a broken heart.Shall the Good Lord have mercy upon my soul.6

I fall to my knees,cursing the Satan.Times like these,I swear I have no soul.I go mad thinking because I believe he was evil.I believe Vincent's stepfather was evil.I believe it was evil that drove Vincent to commit suicide.'Vincent,why?!How?!'My heart pumps out.'You never seemed like the sad person!'7

....A smile will hide 1,000 tears.Soft,chocolate brown eyes supposing warm are a mirage.Happiness distributed like eggs from the Easter Bunny's basket are foul.He gives out his only happiness.Then he steps up to the platform.Up to the rope..'Please no!'From the bottom of my heart I beg softly...8

This scene is mine for the taking.I wanna die,it hurts so much.Brown eyes bore into me.....and then,Chan saves me.Vincent takes me.A scrape more and I would hurt myself.9

Vincent,Chan,Vincent...I am crazy.He extends a hand out to me,saving me,yet not admitting.Help Me!I scream,falling into the black hole.He saves me.....10