Falling in love over myspace:part 1 (true story)

It started out as such an innocent thing,something small that didn't matter.how did it turn into something so huge,how did this become my life? i remember the day i started to talk to him.i didn't even know his name then.i knew him as "juggalo to the end".and he knew me as "we get back up and stand above the crowd.i met him on April 22,2007 at around 5:00 in the evening.i was on myspace,searching for someone to talk to.
i went on a myspace chatroom for teens and i found him.he caught my eye out of over a hundred different guys because his name was "juggalo to the end".and I myself was a juggalette.i type
Amanda:Hey any juggalos want to chat with a down juggalette press 420 and i'll tell you where to go
i knew he would type 420,no juggalo could resist talking to a juggalette.it took him a few minutes,but he replyed.i told him to meet me in a empty chatroom because i didn't have any instant messangers.we started to talk,he was really nice,but he didn't matter to me then.he was just some hot guy i said hi to.we talked for about an hour before he said he had to go.when i checked my messages,there was one unread message from him.it said
Juggalo to the end:hi i love ya juggalettes for real tho
i wrote back,not caring,not realizing how much pain and how much love this boy would show me
Amanda:i love ya juggalos too! MMFWKL
juggalo to the end:what does MMFWKL mean?
Amanda:it means
Much
Mother
Fuckin
Wicked
Klown
Love
juggalo to the endh thank you
that is how it started.we began talking about our friends who had kids,because at the time my best friend Adrian was telling me he might be a father.it was nothing special,not at all.then we got into more serious conversations.i sent him a message saying
Amanda:yep my parents are fighting
Thomas(yeah):i know how much that sucks
Amandah,i'm sorry that you know how that is.they are fighting about money.they've been really low on money latley because they both got fired.
Thomas(yeah):its because i know how to deal wit it,i mean my parents use to fight over money and then beat me for it and i did nothing.
Amandah my god,i am so sorry that that happend you.my ex use to do that to me,for a year i was with him untill it came to the point where it was either he kills me or he kills me.i'm sorry
Thomas(yeah):lol...its not your fault,and i know how that one feels to.
Amanda:really?
Thomas(yeah):yea
Amanda:i hope this doesn't make you mad,but i don't understand how a guy can go through that.
Thomas(yeah):go through what sweetheart?
Amanda:being abused by a boyfriend
Thomas(yeah):i'm not an abusive boyfriend,in fact i'm like one of the sweet ones you can find
Amanda:i wish the guy i dated was more like you then ,but i thought you said you understand what its like,you know to be in an abusive relationship
Thomas(yeah):a girl i went out wit she use to be really mean and make me bleed and almost made me die so yea,and no you don't
Amanda:you seem nice,why not if you don't mind me asking
Thomas(yeah):i mean if every dude you went out with was like me then you would have never met me
that was the begining to liking thomas.what i hate about this whole mess is that i always scolded my friends for getting involved with guys on the internet.i told them how stupid it was,and there i was starting to devolp a crush on a guy i never even met before.what the hell was wrong with me?