Trust and Deceit (The Story of Me) Part 2

I have not so great people in my life, but doesn't everyone? Nothing really changed last year, except me. And, because I changed, so did my friends. The truth is though until last year I didn't have that great of friends. 1

My friends: R, A, and Kaylah. Kaylah was actually a good friend. She was always there when I needed her, and we had some good times. R and A though were just kind of in my life. They never really helped me. Kaylah moved my seventh grade year, and we kept in touch for a while, but then slowly lost touch. Now, we're beginning to talk, again. 2

During the summer before my freshman year of high school my uncle had a heart attack. My aunt freaked out, called my grandpa who told her to call an ambulance. They took him to the hospital in Florence, but they couldn't really help him the way he needed. So, they took him to Eugene. All of this just happened so quickly. My aunt would call and tell my grandpa everything and then he'd call my family and I. 3

My cousins came down from Washington. It was pretty hard on them. Their mom is my aunt's daughter, so it was their grandpa in the hospital. Their mom was trying to help my aunt with everything. I mean, my uncle didn't just have one surgery he had like 3. My sister and I tried hanging out with them a lot, just tried to be there and help get their mind off things if only for a few seconds. 4

R and A called though. You would think that "friends" would understand why you didn't call them back, but they didn't. I finally did call back and R was angry, even after I told her what had happened. So, I decided to not be their friend anymore because they definitely weren't mine. I didn't do anything mean or rude to them; I just stopped hanging out and talking to them.5

That's when I started hanging out with V more and more. She's been there for me ever since. The month of August that summer her home was like a second home to me I was there so much. We were barely ever apart. If we weren't at each other's houses then we were at the lake together with T, M, Ar, and S. Those were the main four at least. She turned into the one person I could count on.6

Freshman year begins and all I get in the halls from R and A is mean glares. And, then, whenever I turned my back they'd mouth the word bitch at me. If you know, you know how nice I am. Sometimes, I'm too nice; I let people walk all over me. They were just mean to me.7

And then some things started really going wrong in me and V's lives. She was there for me and I was there for her. Then, she got a boyfriend, E. He was nice guy. Nothing really changed between her and me, though. We were both still there for each other.8

Me and my mom started arguing a lot. And, really it never started out with me being mad at her. It started out usually with me being tired of my step-dad's smart ass comments and the way he treated me. I just couldn't sit there and listen to him degrade me anymore. I was done with it. So, almost every single day for the first half of my freshman year I would go home, and he'd say something and I wouldn't do it--I wouldn't just sit there. I'd stand up for myself and I don't think he liked that at all. 9

It seemed like my mom was always taking his side. Like she never stood up for me. She just didn't want the arguing. 10

And then something changed. I did something stupid. But, you have to understand why and everything; what my mind and emotions were like at the time. I'm not making up excuses here; I just want everyone to know that reads this story why I now think it was stupid., but also why at the moment I didn't think it was.11