Fear of love (modern fairy tale)

Fear of love1

(A modern Fairy Tale)2

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far, away… Oh wait wrong story! Silly me, how could I have forgotten this lovely fairy tale, after all it is mine isn’t it? You see it all started on a splendid day, a day that proved to be like no other day before. Some say it was a horrid 3

day that quickly changed our extravagant lives. While others argued that it was a day that changed all of our cynical lives for the better. I don’t know, but I am going to let you be the judge of that. My fellow princesses Jenny, Stacy, Lexy, and I were all discussing the matter of marriage proposals. Each of us had something strikingly hypnotic about us and many prince charming and knight in shining armors would long to whisk us away.  But no guy would ever get in the way of our deep bond and primping life style, not even if they dare try. Jenny was the leader of our close nitch group of femme fatale princesses; she was the out spoken one. Having many young honorable men under her triumphant belt she had nothing to be ashamed of, but she was growing weak.  She started to feel this icky feeling deep down inside that most players ignored, the feeling was love. Jenny fell madly in love with this allusive young lad who challenged our whole morals and belief system.  We could not believe how she would give up everything for a man such as this. Because she was so irresistible, with her curly sue locks barely reaching her shoulders and her petite curvy figure.  How could she even settle for one man?  I mean this man was tall dark and handsome yes, but was he really worth the whole lose of identity thing? Apparently Jenny thought so, so with that she resigned as our leader and Stacy soon took over. All my worries quickly went away, but soon rushed back again. Because on the eve of Jenny’s wedding day Stacy started glowing and laughing almost 4

spontaneously. I wondered why she was acting like such a fool, but I soon realized she was under the same spell Jenny had been captured in. Stacy was the crazy one so of course I should have seen it coming with her olive dark skin and her big green eyes she had it written all over her face. I guess I was in denial but, Stacy was the most physically 5

kept out of all of us so her standards were quite high and yet she found someone that met the criteria she was looking for.  Maybe there was hope, oh bah humbug I need not think this way for I would turn into them, some lovesick has been players. I could never let myself be this way, I wouldn’t stand for it I’d rather be alone with many cats beside me 6

then some arrogant conniving man. Although Stacy fell for another she could not be wed because this other person happened to be a princess and the princess was none other then Lexy. Lexy was an exotic beauty with long wavy brown hair and a voluptuous body. She could walk into a room and everyone would notice her. The problem was that Lexy was the last person left in our group of confidants and she and Stacy had begun a forbidden love affair leaving me alone in the end.  I wept for days in and out hoping this nightmare would go away, but Jenny married and Lexy and Stacy ran away together.  I was alone just the way I thought I wanted it to be, only problem was I couldn’t keep on this way.  I was so heart broken and angry that I decided I would never ever fall in love with another person no matter what. I was very stubborn and ignorant too because love had ways of finding two people and putting them together.  I remembered the day I met this weird character, a man I had never been accustomed too, his name was Gregory. It was a beautiful sunny day as I walked in the garden (my secret hideaway). When I realized I wasn’t alone, because I could hear the clattering footsteps.  I turned to see this beautiful man. He was standing by the roses glaring at me almost as if he were mystified. I was use to guys falling before me and begging me to use them as my own personal boy toy, but Gregory actually expected me to treat him like a man. A man who deserved respect and wasn’t degraded for his self-image and brooding features. I suddenly noticed how penetrating his eyes were, as he looked right into mine. He had this 7

magical light blue shade with green outer linings surrounding each eye.  I was absolutely mesmerized with his smile his teeth were well kept and shinny not like many men in those days. I suppose it was the gold grill he had on the bottom of his teeth that made me love to see him laugh. He was very gentle, but aggressive and strong with these muscles 8

ripping through his clothes making me of course melt. I loved the texture of his skin it was as soft as a babies bottom and his hair was silky smooth, not nappy like many other men.  At this point in time I was going through the motions of loosing my best friends to love and I could not give into its tempting persuasion. Although every day and every night I found myself at that same stop we first locked eyes on. Each time I grew more and more fond of his personality and that scared me.  I’d do anything and everything just to make him stop mouthing the words “I love you” I’d even alter my appearance.  My long flowing blonde hair and my tall thin frame would be replaced with something grotesque and unattractive.  I could not have this man look at me like I was some goddess and act like he had seen no flaws in me.  If I gained some weight and cut my hair I know he would not love me or even give me a second glance. So I began a mission some called impossible, but I knew it to be a sure thing.  I cut off my hair and ate like a pig for three days straight hoping I could some how remove his pledges of love.  But Gregory would not stop loving me no matter what I did it seemed he didn’t care about my appearance as I greeted him with a smile. Gregory only looked at me and said, “Your so beautiful Julia, I just don’t deserve you, but I will cherish you always and forever!” What would it takes to make him stop with the mushy talk and googley eyes I wondered and it suddenly came to me.  Maybe my appearance wasn’t as ugly as I thought it was, maybe I 9

needed to go to more extremes? I knew just the person who could help me an old friend of my family and a witch who had unbelievable powers. She could turn me into anything and everything she’d been widely known for that. Magic was in the family as she had some cousins her turned a prince into a frog and another into a beast so I was sure she could help me.  I walked along a path leading me down to her tabbern I could barely see a 10

thing; it was so foggy and dark outside.  The whole house was huge almost like a haunted mansion it was quite eerie and creepy as I entered.  The walls were thick and narrow with faded red wallpaper covering most of it. I could feel my neck and the back of my hairs sticking up as she floated right beside me.  I couldn’t take another step, all I could do was 11

just look at her she was quite hideous and a bit frightening. I looked away ashamed at how I could think such awful things, but she knew, she saw right through my sudden vanity and she smiled.  Her smile was wicked, but her eyes seemed sad and sorrow filled. I smiled weakly at her hoping she would listen to my pleas and she did she listened to and was amazed at how far I would go to look so dreadful.  Then suddenly she had a wonderful idea she would switch bodies with me. I would look like her living a peaceful man less life and she would look like me living a happily ever after one.  I agreed to the terms, but with every spell came some sort of catch and in order to prevent the spell from breaking I could not let Gregory kiss me.  As the spell was cast I didn’t even think he would want to come near me let alone proclaim his undying love for me with a sweet soft kiss.  I knew I would be forever alone, but their would be no more royalty or glamour and I would have to be known as a powerful witch. Because with this witches body came her identity as well so I would never run into Gregory, in fact she would have him as her husband and King.  I thought Esmeralda was a sweet witch who deserved to be beautiful and live a long and happy life for she only longed to help me and she did just that.  I looked like her with wrinkly repulsive green skin and eyes almost cat like with masculine hairy features above her lips and below her neck.  She was very disgusting and many would never know if she was even a woman if it weren’t for her breasts. Those were the only things that made me even look like a female let alone a human being with feelings and ideas.  I knew that Gregory would probably never see me and if he did he would never want to be with me again.  Boy was I wrong, because the minute Esmeralda took over, as Princess Gregory could not give his heart to her it was as if she were somebody else now.  She 12

was not the Julia he knew and loved, she was an intruder stuck in his lover’s body.  He did not know where his lover was, but he knew that when she kissed him and looked into his eyes it was not his soul mate, but a stranger inside. Esmeralda became quickly taken with another man Gregory’s father, King Leo he was a plumb perverted old man who had 13

his eyes on me for years.  He noticed a quick change in her appearance and how she presented herself.  She went from classy to sassy and provocative.  He loved her flirtatious antics and he started to lust for her companionship night and day, but he knew she was a virgin.  That meant she was off limits until she was married to him and with his 14

sons sudden abrupt dismay in the marriage he found himself planning to betroth her. While all of this was going on I avoided society as many shunned me and the transition into this role proved to be a hard task. It was no surprise to many, but I was living life miserably.  Anything and everything reminded me of Gregory, but I could not come to him or I would ruin everything not just for me, but for Esmeralda as well.  News quickly 15

traveled in town that “Princess Julia” was to wed King Leo and I of course was the last to know of this.  I couldn’t believe what I was hearing how could Esmeralda marry King Leo under such false pretenses?  She was not a Princess nor would she bear a child of royal blood so it was against the rules for the King to marry such a woman.  Or was it, he 16

already had an heir to the thrown did he need another one?  The whole thing disgusted me, I could not let this happen, but how could I stop this disaster from even starting? Things had gotten so out of hand and my name had already been blackened as a gold digging harlot who kept it all in the family.  I had to find Gregory if only he could just look in my eyes and recognize me, but even if he did why would he ever want to kiss me? It wasn’t just my looks that had me wondering it was what I did to him trying my best to keep him out of my life.  Still I put on the best clothes Esmeralda had and I searched great distances for the one man I loved more then anything in the world.  While I searched for Gregory I had my best friends right beside me helping me in whatever way they could.  Lexy and Stacy staled the wedding King Leo and Esmeralda were having as Jenny sent guards to try and find Prince Gregory.  It didn’t take me as long as expected to find the man of my dreams for Gregory caught my eyes as he walked to a secluded secret hiding place. The hiding place was of course our beautiful garden with flowers blooming and blossoming in the sun as it did that day we first met.  He looked so angelic as he sat there crying, weeping for his lost love.  I approached him cautiously as he looked up startled and confused saying “How do you do Ma’am?”  My reply was a nod and a forced smile.  I looked into his eyes and saw everything his pain, his rage, his loneliness, but did 17

he see my mirrored feelings as well?  I did not know what he was thinking or what I should do I just stared down at him never losing his eyes from mine. Then almost magically he called out to me “Julia it’s you its really you!”  I turned to look behind me expecting Esmeralda to be standing there, but no one was there it was just me and only him. His eyes lit up with warmth and love as he stood up and grabbed hold of me.  He knew it was I; I smiled and cried tears of joy as he told me how much he loved me and how much he missed me.  We touched lips almost immediately, but I didn’t care about the spell I only cared about being with Gregory and holding onto him forever.  The spell was of course broken and after a while everything was sorted out. All happiness being 18

restored.  The thing is that Esmeralda and King Leo had to call it a quits and move on their separate ways, which meant that they would be together in secret. Who would have known that King Leo would be interested in an old witch, but hey whatever floats your boat. My friends Jenny, Stacy, Lexy, and I had found love and let it in instead of fighting it as we did before. Love was not our villain, it was our fear that caused us to almost miss out on something so beautiful. I for one was glad we all fought for love and pushed our fears aside because we all lived happily ever after.  That’s all folks the end no sequel, prequel, it’s just going to leave you hanging. 19