the monster i once loved part 4? or 5,yea i think its 5

In a way i felt better being back with max.and it seemed that he had actually changed.he was being so nice to me all the time,not once did he raise his voice or hit me.and i loved him again.for who he was in the begining.the nice boy.but sometimes i coulden't help but get scared.1

a month after we started dating again we were watching a movie in his room and he laughed "that chick is hot".without thinking i say "yea,so is her boyfriend".he sits up and stares at me,i misunderstood the look.i back away quickly holding my hands in front of my face "i'm sorry max,please don't".his hands wrapped around my wrist and he pulled me up to him,tears were streaming down my cheeks,i didn't want him to hit me.insted of hitting me,he pulled me closer and started kissing my neck.i was confused "max,what are you doing?".he was breathing heavy "you don't need to be afraid of me adrian,i wasn't going to hurt you".i shook my head "max,i can't do this,i really can't".i heard his breath stop for just a minute,he took a deep breath and stared at me "what are you talking about?i've been good,i haven't touched you at all in over a month".i place my hand on his cheek "i know max,and i'm proud of you.but i can't be with you,its wrong for me.i can't be afraid all the time,even if you are being good".2

his hand was on top of mine,holding it firm against his pale cheek "adrian,you can't do this to me,i didn't do anything wrong".i tore his hand away from me "max,you beat the hell out of me for so many months,did you think i was just gonna forget what you've done!".he punched the wall and yelled in a loud booming voice "YOUR NOT LEAVING ME AGAIN!".i backed away slowly "max,calm down now,your scaring me".he charged at me,grabbing my arms and throwing me in the air "I'M SCARING YOU!WELL TO *bunny*IN BAD ADRIAN,YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!".I coulden't say anything,i was to scared.his fingers were digging into my arms,and i still haden't caught my breath from when he swung me in the air.i begged him in a hystericall voice "please max,let me go!".he swung me around to the wall and slammed my head against it.i cried out in pain.he pressed his forhead against mine,and spoke in an uneven dark tone "you will NOT do that to me again,do you understand?you belong to me and only me,forever.get that?".my whole body was shaking "y-yes".3

how could i let this happen?I was so strong a minute ago and he got controll so fast.who was i dealing with?defanetly not the man who had hit out of impulse,not thinking about it.i suddenly realized that the short time max and i were seperated,he was trying to learn how to hurt me better.i was now going out with a new improved abusing machine,and i coulden't handle that.