Ctrl-Z! CTRL-Z!!!!!

I just want a reset button on my life. It's all sorts of fucked up, if I could just hit ctrl-z and undo it all I would...

It feels like just five minutes ago I was 13 and really starting to open my eyes to the world, and then BAM! More shit comes down.

Things were just fine, we recuperated from the losses, the damage, the pain...then it began again, and for me, it hasn't stopped.

I don't understand anything, yet I feel I can understand all...I'm so lost and confused, but know what I need to do...It's just so fucking hard to keep trying to get up in the morning, knowing, just simply knowing that I have the absolute rest of my life to endure even worse hardships than I already have in my short 18 years.

I'm so passive agressive, that even the best of my friends, (the tiny miniscule amount that I do have)don't even know nor would they understand what goes on in my head. I feel as if solitude is my only option, and crawling deeper into the darkness I go.

...I only wish I could get back up on my feet...I keep waiting for that one guiding hand to come along, but everytime they do I realize it's just a glow stick they're holding-not some effervescent guiding aura....just a relentless prick at hope.