Dear Someone

Dear ‘Someone’,1

Can you tell who this is from? Probably. You used to know me better than I knew myself. 2

I don’t know how to begin. Where to begin, even less. I’ve felt like this for so long, I don’t even know if it STARTED. It’s as though it’s always been this way. And now I’m rambling! This is so important, and I’m wasting paper.3

A friend, back when we were little, teased me playfully about how I was in ‘love’ with you. But I wasn’t. In fact, I had never thought about you that way. I didn’t even think of you as a BOY. You were just my bestest friend, always there, always. Nothing else mattered to me… until that harmless little comment. Then I saw you in a whole new light, and it was as if I’d upgraded from a silent black-and-white movie to one full of color, imagery, and sound. You were vivid, standing out among countless others.4

The little things you did began to stick out for me. The way you would poke me until I giggled and annoy me when I was upset—whenever you did that, I somehow always felt better afterward. And you surprised me. Always. Whether it was something unbelievably thoughtful, insightful, or just something I would never have thought about in that way, you never ceased to amaze me.5

And we got older. We changed. Harmless little comments became gossip, became cause for serious thinking. My feelings for you continued to get stronger. I started wishing that we were together… and not just as friends. But no matter how much I wished, I couldn’t tell you. I was afraid of what you might say. 6

Finally, after so long-- years, even-- I admitted it to myself: I LOVE you. And if this isn’t really love and it’s just a crush, I can’t possibly imagine what true love could be like. It’s mind-boggling to think about. Once I had accepted this fact, I was able to pluck up the courage to tell you. I didn’t ask you out; that was beyond my ability—but I told you that I cared for you. You know this. You were there.7

And you threw it back in my face. “I’m flattered,” you said. “But I just don’t like you that way. Sorry.”8

As if ‘sorry’ could heal the chasm that formed between the halves of my heart. For weeks I cried, for months I suffered. And now, so long afterward, I still love you. I love you despite the fact that you’ve hurt me so deeply; my heart is broken, but I love you with every little piece, every shard. And you didn’t know that until you read this, I bet.9

You know… I will never stop loving you. You need to know that. I need you to need to know that. Because every time you’re with someone else, I want you to remember that I love you so much more than she does, and that I always will. Know that.10

Know that I shall never cease to love you with all my soul, with all my being, with all my heart-- every little shattered piece of it.11

Love, love, love… Your best friend12

Author notes

Note: this is NOT a real letter by me to someone else. However, I definitely used my own real emotions to write this. I hope it's satisfactory! My emotions are pretty messed up, but I'm only human, after all. (The fact that I'm human CONTINUES to astonish my friends. Pretty screwy.)

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  • Dassy
    September 6, 2008

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    Once again I loved it! ur stories never cease to amaze me radiance. It did seem like it was coming from the heart, and while I was reading it I realized that It could perfectly be true. Does that sentence make sense? I dont think it does.. but whatevs... It reminded me of what happened between me and my Love always person. (who I have a picture of now btw in case you wanna go look. Hes the one in the middle... but i crushed on the guy on the left all year)

    Keep writing! ~.~


  • Noisome.
    July 2, 2008

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    Interesting way of taking on such a love. I really enjoyed this. The emotions are mildly twisted in the way she so viciously wants him to remember that SHE loves him. It's powerful and it's brutally honest on her part, which is GREAT. I love that blunt honesty and the force in which she puts forth her feelings. Love the transitions and path it takes. Very good job!

    Good luck and thanks for entering!

    P.S. Any errors I may have found were minor and weren't enough to torture me!


  • Princess Peaches
    February 28, 2008
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    Wiked good job! Godd luck in my contest


  • angelbliss
    February 25, 2008

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    hello,
    this is an amazing experience - reading this letter, u said u never wrote this for anyone, but, it shows that its written by you. i could relate to every word of it, thanks for that. i wish someday the friend of urs does realize what he has lost.

    take care


  • Lostskins
    December 12, 2007

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    So full emotion, I could just feel the letter writers pain throughout. It was well witten without a doubt.
    " was as if I’d upgraded from a silent black-and-white movie to one full of color, imagery, and sound. You were vivid, standing out among countless others."
    That was a great line, something I've never seen before but loved.

    Brilliant!


  • always feel pretty
    October 17, 2007

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    This was soo amazing! I mean, it really, really is amazing! It's so emotional && powerful.

    I LOVE IT!

    good job,
    actually...scratch that.
    AWESOME JOB!


    e♥


  • kenddrraaa
    October 17, 2007

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    I definitly can relate to this, which makes me love this letter more than i already do. It's sad how those few words could change a whole friendship, break a whole heart. Thank you so much for entering and good luck! <3


  • Meakalu
    October 1, 2007

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    AMAZING!!!

    I thought this story was utterly amazing. I for one know what it's like to fall for a best friend and not have the guts to say a single word. To tell him what you feel and have him not feel the same. It's torture. You captured the raw emotions, the confusion, the longing in a way I never could when I wanted to use those exact words. You captured everything perfectly. This is going to be one difficult contest to judge. Thanks co much for entering.

    Good luck,

    Meaky

    beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.


  • Siby Anan
    October 1, 2007

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    Omigosh, this is so sad and adorable! Really, I have nothing to criticize about. This whole thing kept my heart warm and tingly

    Good luck in the contest!! ^_^

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