The Loss (part 3)

Look into my eyes and tell me what you see
broken into a million pieces is all thats left of me
you left in your sway of hate and told me your lies
that you hated me because of my love behind the rotten disguise

yet behind your veil you hid the secret well
that you loved me back but was too afraid to tell
as the tears in my eyes turned black
i knew that there was no turning back

because of you

the loss in me was forever there
even though you came back
to tell me what you really thought
and took away my hearts crack

as the curtains began to pull back
and reveal the light that was you and me
forever together i wanted to be
but then the loss came again

killing me inside

crying to god to take me with you
i knew that you were my one
without you i would always be
the person who is gone

sunlight had never seemed to beautiful
before the mountains you plunderred
in your sway of grace and purity
before it was torn asunder

is this real
to my mind it is real
but to my heart i know
that you are to go

until the night when i wake up sweating in bed
i feel the voices tearing apart my head
when the phone call came to ring in my ears
making my heart break instead

lights reflecting off those forsaken walls
blood pouring from my eyes
pull back the cover to reveal
the loss and what i deny

i turned and watched upon the sky bewitched
the moon in watercolours broken in half
pouring out the dark inside the light of day
broken again inside the tears run
turning to blood on my hand
am i to die
or just to cry
for until i wake
the blood i take
will behold my total misery
and until that day
when the light turns away
forever will i be in this loss
but still i dont know what happened
for it was all but a dream
until i wake to find
the reality