I Hold You As Dearly As I Can


Dear Peter,
  There is a spoken bond between us, yet I cannot quite figure it out. You say you love me and I say those same words back to you. Yet, I don't understand. Sometimes I feel like a robot, because I cannot really feel for you as they describe in all of the old movies and stories. I love you. But that is all. I do not feel a burst of happiness when I see you, in fact it is quite the opposite. 1

You could say that I am a terrible person for saying such things, but honestly, I've never been much of a liar. Sorry. I suppose then that you hate me for teling you this. I find I do not care. 2

Do not get me wrong Pete, I do love you. I just can't seem to see the end of the world if you left. This might have been caused by all my lonely days during school hours, but I am not sure. I might have come to not rely on anyone. 3

Sometimes I fear I will die alone. But the other times I wish that is the exact thing that will happen. I cannot explain myself and my reasoning to you, I do not think anybody could. 4

But what is so wrong with just being together? I like being with you Pete, I don't understand why we have to define why we like being together. Can we not just accept it as something we cannot understand?5

You are gorgeous, clever, sarcastic, logophilic, and the most amazing person I've ever met. Please do not hate me for this, I just can't interpret what this all means.6

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Love,
 Patrick8

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the one writing the letter has an undiagnosed case of autism.

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  • dippedquilpen
    October 14, 2007

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    Wow, this was really good. You definately captured what it is like to be autistic with him not understanding the social cues and not being able to understand what someone else was thinking. Good job and thanks for entering!


  • Saej silver member
    September 5, 2007

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    Great. This is simply great. You've definitely said more here than most would dare. I love it. You're unique, and it's a wonderful attribute to have. Your point of view is definitely one that is not explored very often because the world we live in is vastly comprised of romantics.

    Once again, this was great. Thank you for entering my contest, and the best of luck to you.

    • sugarrrainbow
      September 6, 2007
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      wow, this has to be my favorite comment ever.
      i really really appreciate you calling me unique, i definitely try to be different.
      and sometimes i get sick of the overly sugary love stories and try to give a new spin to relationships.
      thanks again for your comment, it meant a lot.