thought- random

have you ever felt empty? Well i always though the worst feeling that i could ever have was going to be heart break, the slow depressing degrasion of my own mind, working over and over my own failings. found out unfortunatly, that its not...the thing that ive found the worst feeling ever is just a lack of love, at least when i was heartbroken, i was driven on by stubbornness and hope, now all i have left is exsistance. no simple thing, just a lack of love, of compassion, of caring about people, of caring about myself, even when i comfort people there is hardly any real emotion there, i just do it to feel a little more humain going through the motions i always have done. a very dear freind told me once that my eye's looked dead to feeling, but i knew i still could feel, now i dont know if theres a point to anything, the meanings gone to care. i mean we only exist for one purpose, dont we, to breed an die..thats what every other animal and organism on the plant exists for breed, eat, *bunny* and die, this is pretty much the outlook i ave on life now, i wish i did sill pine after love but to be honest i couldnt give two *bunny*s,well these are my thoughts, if anybody cares to read them tell me if any1 else has ever felt like this